Hopefully this is the right comm. I'm trying to engage more.
I've recently sort of cut a few people who were important to me out of my life. I got tired of being useful and convenient for these people. I am a very attentive, loving, giving friend and I rarely receive what I put out.
That said, it's gotten pretty lonely around these parts. I'd still call myself a baby leftist. I don't know much theory and I've never organized before. I live in a very college focused town. The entire place exists because of the university, it seems. A local friend of mine who has done organizing expressed that it's all libs and college kids - not all bad but I'm 33.
So how does one go about meeting people that may have similar views? I don't really even ascribe a label to myself. Leftist, anti-capitalist, sometimes I'll tell people I'm a commie for simplicity's sake.
I'm just tired of feeling so alone. I'm making big changes in my life for the better, and I finally have space to do things besides just survive. I bought one of my remaining friends a gift this week. I've never had the money to really even consider spending on something that isn't a necessity or at least help keep me sane (weed). I'm even going to start a small mutual aid portion of my savings and I'm really excited to start helping others.
Sorry, I know this is a little scattered. I'm in a weird spot in my life and I'm lacking good people to talk to. So here I am, talking into the void and hoping one of you beautiful people answers. I should probably use this fancy insurance I'm paying so much for and go to therapy too, but for now this will do.
So, how do you meet people? How do you fight off the crushing loneliness that comes with actually caring about the world and where it's going, and the fact that we're all pretty solidly fucked?