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I have as much optimism as i can muster but i'm struggling. For me the fact that i am even writing my thoughts here is a bit of an admission of weakness. I am deeply frustrated.

I have autism. I'm fucking hating my life, this is more on a personal level. I still have hope for the working class and do my best. I find it really hard to talk to people, i dunno how to connect with regular folks around work. Barely can utter yes and no at times without freezing; how am i supposed to agitate? I picked the ideology that requires the most SOCIAL skills. The theory is correct, it is good, proven and works. It's just me. I don't "work". Boyfriend stares at me with blank stare puppy eyes when i try to talk socialism because he has ADHD. I love him a lot, and he does so too back. Used bananas to explain basic socialism to him, which it has been the only info his birdy brain has retained. Did i say i love him?

Mom; live with her, stuck with her. Can't escape because no stable jobs. Took me 5 years to get a very simple degree, as health issues, depression and COVID happened. Transitory services enterprises (E.S.T) are the bane of my existence as companies no longer hire directly but through an intermediary. They use you until they no longer need you and most of the time always pay the minimum and you have to be fucking thankful for it according to mom. (Fuck neoliberalism)

Housing in Chile for people my age is fucked. Prices are getting fucked. Jobs are fucked. My mental state is fucked and Penco is REALLY FUCKED (have you seen the fires?)

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[–] Jarmund@lemmygrad.ml 8 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (1 children)

I ended up not writing cohesively what the title intended to convey, i went full emotional and i apologize. Perhaps just venting out my frustrations instead of rationalozeing everything and methodically writing about it was the better choice. Doing the latter forces me to follow structure and convey half truths.

[–] Jarmund@lemmygrad.ml 7 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Although, i am indeed experiencing day by day what i wrote in the title and it brings me great discomfort as one can imagine.

[–] Maeve@lemmygrad.ml 8 points 1 month ago

Maybe try free writing in a notebook. If you find yourself spiralling or obsessing, stop, do something else to get your mind off it. Then come back and see if you can reframe any of it, for example: what if abc goes wrong? --> what if abc goes right? What if a goes right and bc doesn't?

[–] Lowleekun@hexbear.net 5 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

What can I say, it sounds rough. I hope it gets better soon, but the only thing that really helps me is my maybe stupid believe that there will be good days.

"The darkest hour is just before the dawn"

Eating raw fruit and veg can help a lot with the anhedonia and moods: https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/psychology/articles/10.3389/fpsyg.2018.00487/full