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My Tinnitus sprung up on one fateful night, when I was maybe 13 or so years old.

Lots of fighting amidst the family that day made it hard to sleep. I tossed and turned for hours in my bed, combatting this slowly intensifying dread and restless legs (the dread would be best described as similar to the hollowness I felt after my first breakup: the type that you feel).Intermittently begged my parents for comfort, consistently ignored.

Eventually, at ~2:30AM that school night, I was sitting in the floor of my bedroom, a mess of emotions, consumed in an ouroboros of anxiety, trying to calm myself with an I-Spy book.

That’s when the ringing started.

It’s been with me ever since.

Fuckin’ weird how that happened, but yeah I wasn’t sleeping when I should have been when I succumbed to the curse.

Reading this made me notice it again so thanks I guess.

Yay science for ferrets! The mice get a break from this one.

Would be cool to make progress. The ringing is annoying.

I think it might be connected to that Spiderbait concert and not wearing earplugs at the time.

Gotta sleep with white noise otherwise the ringing will keep me awake. I'm my own creator of it though, tracking cars for a decade+ and being young and stupid not wearing earpro...not worth it people.

Doubt (edit: the assessment process, not the tinnitus-sleep relationship).

How the hell could they tell if the ferrets actually had tinnitus or not?

I always get some sinus allergy something-or-other in the fall with drainage, sore throat, coughing, and whatnot. This year for the first time, a couple non-consecutive nights, I had what the Internet said was called Typewriter Tinnitus, this rapid, incessant, light tapping somehwere in my inner ear. It was like high-speed Morse Code that never stopped. Thankfully it was only when I was laying on my right side so I just didn't sleep on that side, and it only occurred maybe three nights throughout a week. But even experiencing it that little bit gave me a taste of how unbearable it must be to have something like that all the time, I really feel for all you chronic sufferers, hopefully you can find relief soon.