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I just wanted to borrow a bit of e because i was running low, so i headed over to her place and did my shot, we made a little smalltalk and then she kinda just fell into me and we started cuddling. And kept cuddling and giving headpats and scritches and holding hands and hugging each other for an hour and a half. God, i'm still gushing when i think about how good it was to hold her like that. How good she smells, how soft her skin is. At one point, she fell asleep in my arms and she started twitching like a dreaming puppy. It was so cute. She's so precious. I'm so glad i have her in my life.

At some point i just couldn't bear boymoding any longer, it was a fucking nightmare. I honestly don't get how people who live in a just averagely transphobic area can stay closeted once they've cracked for real. Like, on an abstract level, i get it, i get when people want to at least get rid of the 5 o' clock shadown first n stuff, avoiding the hypervisibility and all that, i'm also absolutely not judging anybody, but i honestly do not understand on an emotional level how so many transfems can stand letting literally everybody misgender them every single day. At some point that made me just snap, i had to come out because i was tired of screaming internally.

I can't say much for how the straight demographic at that age is holding up because the only straight people i hang out with are a few pre-transition friends who are roughly my age, but when i'm in queer spaces and have a conversation with younger women i often hear them say stuff like "you know, i'm actually pan, BUT ..." and then the horror stories about why they've given up on men begin.

I'm normally more of a possum girl, but on a bad day i can relate to cobras a lot

yeah i normally don't care much about re-applying makeup throughout the day nowadays bc laser fixed the beard shadown problem for me, but after learning we were going to do spicy noodle stuff i actually packed foundation and eyeliner and had to use both after i was done leaking fluids from my face.

Yesterday's transfem spicy noodle challenge made me realize once more that there's two types of trans girls:

• can't handle any amount of spicy, makes me want to protect her from roaming pepper corns wandering into the area

• loves spicy and makes me want to egg her on to try more of the good stuff

Oh and then there's chili fox girl who just seems to be immune to capsaicin. I was crying and blowing my nose nonstop from my noodles and had a spot below my lips that actually got a little chemical burn and she did not only have the same amount of the hot sauce, she also put the carolina reaper powder on it that she likes to bring along and she didn't even break a sweat.

Do people ever go from prescription to DIY HRT?

I just did after more than two years on prescription HRT and almost 3 years of presenting fem in public, partially because i want to be prepared if trans rights get rolled back in my country, partially because injections are extremely hard to get a prescription for around here and i'm tired of gel and partially because of an ideological commitment to being a gender outlaw. Also ngl there's just something exciting about sticking a needle in my leg and shooting up hormones. Obviously YMMV on this, i have friends who have a pronounced fear of needles and needed a ton of emotional support when they started injecting, but they still pulled it off.

I have a lot of friends who went from prescription to DIY for similar reasons, it actually seems more common in my circle than the other way around. I mean, most trans people i know have at some point DIYed for at least a few days when they couldn't refill a script on time and a friend helped them out with a bottle of gel or a few pills they had left over. I find it very rare that people who are actually part of an IRL trans community and transition hormonally never have some brush with DIY culture. It's almost unavoidable simply as a safety net.

I'm still unsure if i will tell my endo about it, i have no idea if she supports DIY, but so far i'm very happy with the results. I've been on HRT long enough to know what the range of my levels on gel + CPA looked like, gel can vary more than injections and i've been anywhere from 90 to 300 ug/ml on the same dose, interval and test time. So when i get new measurements in a month, it will be easy for me to compare. But i do want that as a control measure. Honestly wish i could DIY the blood testing as well.

Matt is correct, the K is not silent. You can hear the correct pronunciation in the chorus of the classic worker song Auf, Auf zum Kampf (starting at 0:29).

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Happy trans people, what’s your secret??

Other trans people. Like, irl, not some online shit.

I wouldn't call it "winning" when your invasion leads to nothing but state collapse, formation of ISIS and US troops getting merced by IEDs. Regional instability may be an outcome the US can live with, but it wasn't the military goal of the invasion, they wanted to turn Iraq into a regional ally like postwar Germany and they didn't come anywhere close to that.