the first one! money is our god. it says so right on it.
those things freak me out
They're pretty common in the rural areas of Florida.
I have a shirt of a black panther holding a shotgun.
look inside the red circle i added
EMDR is a therapy for PTSD. Anecdotally, people have reported that when going through it, they get flashbacks as their body processes the traumatic events. Basically, despite being well aware that the traumatic event is not occurring in the moment, their body is reacting exactly as if it were. Therefore, while going through EMDR, the person rides the flashback until the body burns out the memory and learns that the reaction is not necessary or helpful.
Burning in my brain. I can feel the flames.
trauma trigger warning
That's actually from the lyrics of the song Ride the Lightning by Metallica. The song is about a person that committed a crime and is sentenced to death via the electric chair. The association here is that cognitively, PTSD is kept in place by the guilt of the person for their belief that they somehow caused the traumatic event. For example, a person that was hit by a car that ran a red light, may blame themselves for not being more vigilant through intersections since they were aware that cars sometimes run the light. As another example, a person that was SA'd may think that they should have never agreed to be alone with the assailant, said no more strongly, or fought them off harder. Complicating things further, they may feel that they wanted to be SA'd because their body felt pleasure from the sexual stimulation despite not wanting the experience to begin with, then continued a relationship with the perpetrator to make it "okay". But, the body remembers. Since they feel guilty, the punishment is deserved.
The burning in the brain in the song is from the electricity. The burning in the brain from the meme is the overwhelming thoughts and beliefs ruminating constantly. The feeling of flames in the song is from the electricity running through the person. The feeling of flames in the meme are from the flashback of the body re-experiencing the memory as if were occurring again.
just poppin to say hi! ๐โโ๏ธ
Back in the late 90s, I had a close friend in high school that went down the wrong path. He started dating a horrible girl and got into drugs pretty bad, so I had to cut him off. Later on when I was dating my high school gf, she told me she saw him outside some local store trying to sell oregano as weed and almost got himself killed. Weed now is for chill people, but back in the 90s, it's how hard and tormented souls used to self-medicate. Selling bogus weed to people was such a stupid risky idea, especially in our part of the city. Luckily, he had a coming to terms moment, quit that life, and ended graduating with an engineering degree from a pretty good university. Last I heard, he's still friends with that PoS girl though.
People need 3 things to commit suicide:
- social isolation
- sense of burden
- capacity
Social Isolation
If the person feels alone, even if surrounded by people, they're meeting this criterion. Loneliness is social pain because being alone was guaranteed death back in the day. Being socially isolated is literally painful.
Sense of Burden
If the person feels that all they do is drag people down, then they may see that their existence is a drag. Match this sense of worthlessness and parasitic existence with the pain of loneliness, and the person in a dire hopeless situation. To them, there is no point to being alive. They're in constant inescapable pain and not only contribute nothing, but they are spreading that pain onto others...at least that's how they see it.
Capacity
This refers to the ability for someone to be able to kill themselves. Do they have the means? Pills, car, rope, firearm? Military people in general are at higher risk because they are more likely to have firearms. But one thing that I think is overlooked is that they've been trained at a brainwashing level that violent killing is the ultimate solution to problems.
Regardless, not having the capacity is a major protective factor, which is why people get isolated in settings that prevent them from killing themselves. I'd like to point out how fucked up this is though. We are taking a person that is in so much pain they want to die, and placing them in a physical environment that prevents them from that. While necessary as a last resort, it's torture.
What if when someone says their in pain, we believe them? Maybe we offer millions of other opportunities to turn their life around. And if they're not grabbing on to those opportunities, work with them to solve those barriers. Maybe placing blame on them solely increases their sense of burden.
If you're in pain, I believe you โฅ๏ธ
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Some jerk keeps defacing the pumps at a nearby gas station. First was that stupid sticker of Biden pointing and saying, "I did that!" Those stickers were removed, so now they carved "FUCK BIDEN" into the pump. I wish I could pump gas without having to subject myself to someone's political views or hate.
it's too shitty for even shitposting lol. i thought it was so bad that it would be considered top tier ๐คทโโ๏ธ