new clothes, only got one pair of pants that fit atm and it's got a hole on the butt
Bat
joined 1 year ago
crying pissing shitting ripping my hair out I have lost the ability to draw and it's driving me crazy, please just let this art block be over 
Went and 
for a while today, that was nice
dysphoria
I usually don't go out much and when I do I hide myself under as many layers of clothes that the weather preempts but since I was out in the sun hiking for a couple of hours I couldn't wear my oversized sweater and I had my hair up. Seeing my shoulders not being obscured by hair or tons of layers gave me so much dysphoria. I fucking hate how broad my shoulders are
I had doors as a kid but I was not allowed to have a lock on my bedroom door. My sister also got her door removed form the frame of her room as a punishment for a couple of years
spoiler
slept for 17 hours, still tired
dreams, drugs, and suicide mention
Had an awful vivid nightmare last night. I was back in college and staying late on campus for some lab thing when news broke that the US and China declared war on each other and that nuclear strikes were on their way. I sprinted home and was trying to get my car to start so I could go find my sister but it wouldn’t start. I then just kind of wandered out into the streets and found this old man standing by himself. We had a brief conversation and I gave him a hug then the nukes fell. It all felt so real and I like accepted my mortality and that this was the end
Not this exact dream but this scenario of nuclear war is a reoccurring nightmare for me and it all ways feels so vivid and real. I have a couple other really bad vivid reoccurring ones like one where I kill myself and another where I’m attacked and eaten by roaches.
I’ve heard people say that weed gets rid of dreams but I smoke as often as I have money to do so and I still get awful vivid dreams
lol I found a typo on wikipedia
Charles II (29 May 1630 – 6 February 1685)[c] was King of Scotland from 1649 until 1651 and King of England, Scotland, and Ireland from the 1660 Restoration of the monarchy until his death in 1995.
I think this is the first time I ever found a blatant typo on wikipedia
big bug bite on Bat's butt 
My lungs are not happy with me, that's okay, I'll still keep smoking that garbage
“The old gender is dying, and the new gender struggles to be born: now is the time of boymodding”
getting press-ganged into the village people
It never even started it is so over
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call social security office 2 mins after it opened, already +2 hour wait time
Whenever I do the hold my place in line and get called back thing they never actually call me back, guess I’ll have to be quicker tomorrow