[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 5 points 3 days ago

There's only been one way out the whole time. Organize. For. REVOLUTION. That doesn't mean stash some guns with your friends who are already leftists (not that that's negative) , but organize your community, being more people into the fold ,study revolutionary movements. We build the movement or we submit to the death machine, and we keep revolution as the goal in mine or we become harm reduction liberals and never reach liberation

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 13 points 4 days ago

I went to the thrift store and picked out a couple skirts and a cute sweater, the changing room was closed so I tried on a skirt in the McDonald's bathroom and it fit. I don't know how I had the courage to do this because Ive barely worn women's clothing on my own let alone in public but I just kept it on as I took the bus home. I was giddy laughing to myself because I looked in the mirror and actually liked how I looked. I have some thinking to do

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 11 points 1 week ago

Its that im scared of how others will view me and treat me because I'm surrounded by transphobes and because of what women have to endure in general. And I know I don't have to it's the uncertainty of not knowing myself that's getting to me , and I don't know what's wrong with me and why I feel so awful and I think not being ok with my gender identity as it is now is part of it. Per other posters I'll take little steps and try things and start thinking about myself in different ways and try not be apprehensive about it

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 17 points 1 week ago

I'm scared that I might not be cis and in denial. I tell myself it's just me feeling like I don't want to / can't live up to the standards of masculinity, that my genitals specifically don't give me dysphoria so I cant be trans , but maybe I'm just scared of adding more complications to my life of adding another form of discrimination I'll get to have , that I feel like I'll never find anyone and presenting myself another way will make it 100x harder . Why do I cry if I even begin to imagine myself looking feminine , I just want to close my eyes and have them not open.

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 37 points 6 months ago

Also lmao at Walter white representing the "good " opinion as a self centered murderer that worked with child killing neo nazis

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 44 points 6 months ago

Go to any of these places now. Not saying this argument was valid before Oct 7 but how could you say this when everything is gaza is rubble now.

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 10 points 7 months ago

You're being pretty condecending and dickish. Relax a little bit

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago

Yeah I think a lot of hexbears don't understand the meaning of materialism. I don't see a problem with having spiritual believes as long as you're not making your revolutionary praxis be sending good vibes telepathically to the npp . I think a lot of users here are le epic reddit atheists at heart still and think theyre right about everuthing because they saw the light of Marxism and having a more correct framework for the world than most people around you can make you a little cocky

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 31 points 10 months ago

It's a pretty common dogwhistle, Trump admin and the CBP slipped in statements similar to the 14 words and some suspicious uses of the numbers, saw it in the usernames of white supremacists on reddit,ect. (Also a JPEGMAFIA song https://youtu.be/_WVOq6gC2Mg?si=1VavIa2rWW0OQ2E4)

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Hey guys so good news bad news, good news I have a job, a shitty low paying part time job but still a job, bad news is I still don't get paid for a week and I need money for food. I never put in my ebt application because I'm a wreck but I had enough from you guys and some surprise money from my old job to last me until now but im running on empty and need to go grocery shopping. Any amount will be appreciated, I really do feel bad taking Anything from you guys but I don't have anywhere else to turn really. Also ive been going through a really rough time and the holidays are really bad for me so if you dont have anything to give leaving some kind words will help me too. Thank you for taking the time to read this. My cashapp is $octagonprime1 and paypal is octagonprime@gmail.com.

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 15 points 11 months ago

Well it's good for then to know when problems are systemic and from the environment and circumstances so they don't internalize it as their fault as an individual

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 13 points 11 months ago

I feel it I gave up on therapy back when I had insurance that covered it because of the quality of therapy offered. The thing about gas sucks and is why I'm hesitant to get invested in driving and a vehicle even though it would open opertunities because I'm not in a city or anything. I hate car culture and just spent a year In a place that was even worse than I'm used to about being livable without a car so I'm feeling more grateful for the limited options of the other place.

[-] Octagonprime@hexbear.net 22 points 11 months ago

Yeah and generational trauma and struggle from getting fucked here for a long time doesn't help. Also holy crap dirt owl commented on my post I'm blessed

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Wow usa feel bad (hexbear.net)
submitted 11 months ago by Octagonprime@hexbear.net to c/chat@hexbear.net

Some of you might be surprised to know, but living in America kinda makes you feel bad. It just socks. It's sad. It's hard. It's hard and there's nobody for you. You have to try so hard to find a helping hand to get a second of somebody's time and when you're fuckinf nereodiveregent and you haven't come to terms with it It's even harder when you can't even get yourself the help you need because the fucking labyrinthine welfare and Healthcare and clusterfuck of everything designed to make you give up. Fuck .

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submitted 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago) by Octagonprime@hexbear.net to c/mutual_aid@hexbear.net

Unrelated preface: sorry to everyone who DMd me after my last post asking for friends , my autistic ass panicked and went back to going ghost and being isolated, but I appreciate all the support. Anyway , I just had to move back into my mom's momentarily, and left my old job. There isn't shit to eat here and its going to be a few days before i can (hopefully) get on food stamps. I don't need to pay bills or anything rn thank God but I'm getting so anxious about not having much to eat I just need like 5 dollars or something to grab something cheap for today. I don't want to take anything from anyone but I don't know what else to do. I got some food a couple of days ago with what I had but it's gone already, and it was expensive as the only local grocery store's small business lord charges out the ass because he knows disadvantaged people don't have the means to go to the Walmart. Thank you for reading. My cashapp is $octagonprime1 , I was going to get venmo in case people didn't have ca but I don't have a phone number atm so I can't do that unless anyone has a workaround.

EDIT: Thanks for coming through guys I haven't been full for a while and I am now , there's so much going on in my life I didn't want to get into and your support means a lot to me in a time where I've been feeling more helpless and alone than ever <3

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This post will be dripping with desperation as I just need someone to talk to, moved away from my few friends in my hometown and have been pretty isolated for a while. I'm a 22 year old probably autistic dude (I think, you know how confusing that can be). I have some interests that I've been losing due to depression but I can still talk about them, music, art, politics (duh), science and philosophy stuff. I can also just bullshit about anything I love people and talking to them it's just hard for me to reach out. I've been active here for years but not really conversational with people as I feel disconnected like I don't belong in whatever community I'm in, even this one as accepting as it is. Maybe shoot me a dm and we can talk here or through somewhere else ,I'd really appreciate it. Going through mental health struggles and that shit , so fucking stressed and broke. I thought about asking for money here but I still think others need it more and just having someone else to talk to could probably help me more. <3

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