I went to the thrift store and picked out a couple skirts and a cute sweater, the changing room was closed so I tried on a skirt in the McDonald's bathroom and it fit. I don't know how I had the courage to do this because Ive barely worn women's clothing on my own let alone in public but I just kept it on as I took the bus home. I was giddy laughing to myself because I looked in the mirror and actually liked how I looked. I have some thinking to do
Its that im scared of how others will view me and treat me because I'm surrounded by transphobes and because of what women have to endure in general. And I know I don't have to it's the uncertainty of not knowing myself that's getting to me , and I don't know what's wrong with me and why I feel so awful and I think not being ok with my gender identity as it is now is part of it. Per other posters I'll take little steps and try things and start thinking about myself in different ways and try not be apprehensive about it
I'm scared that I might not be cis and in denial. I tell myself it's just me feeling like I don't want to / can't live up to the standards of masculinity, that my genitals specifically don't give me dysphoria so I cant be trans , but maybe I'm just scared of adding more complications to my life of adding another form of discrimination I'll get to have , that I feel like I'll never find anyone and presenting myself another way will make it 100x harder . Why do I cry if I even begin to imagine myself looking feminine , I just want to close my eyes and have them not open.
Also lmao at Walter white representing the "good " opinion as a self centered murderer that worked with child killing neo nazis
Go to any of these places now. Not saying this argument was valid before Oct 7 but how could you say this when everything is gaza is rubble now.
You're being pretty condecending and dickish. Relax a little bit
Yeah I think a lot of hexbears don't understand the meaning of materialism. I don't see a problem with having spiritual believes as long as you're not making your revolutionary praxis be sending good vibes telepathically to the npp . I think a lot of users here are le epic reddit atheists at heart still and think theyre right about everuthing because they saw the light of Marxism and having a more correct framework for the world than most people around you can make you a little cocky
It's a pretty common dogwhistle, Trump admin and the CBP slipped in statements similar to the 14 words and some suspicious uses of the numbers, saw it in the usernames of white supremacists on reddit,ect. (Also a JPEGMAFIA song https://youtu.be/_WVOq6gC2Mg?si=1VavIa2rWW0OQ2E4)
Well it's good for then to know when problems are systemic and from the environment and circumstances so they don't internalize it as their fault as an individual
I feel it I gave up on therapy back when I had insurance that covered it because of the quality of therapy offered. The thing about gas sucks and is why I'm hesitant to get invested in driving and a vehicle even though it would open opertunities because I'm not in a city or anything. I hate car culture and just spent a year In a place that was even worse than I'm used to about being livable without a car so I'm feeling more grateful for the limited options of the other place.
Yeah and generational trauma and struggle from getting fucked here for a long time doesn't help. Also holy crap dirt owl commented on my post I'm blessed
There's only been one way out the whole time. Organize. For. REVOLUTION. That doesn't mean stash some guns with your friends who are already leftists (not that that's negative) , but organize your community, being more people into the fold ,study revolutionary movements. We build the movement or we submit to the death machine, and we keep revolution as the goal in mine or we become harm reduction liberals and never reach liberation