Aww, that's so sweet! What a kind gesture. The outfits look super natural, and I bet they feel great! Love the hair, too.

You look so good, I'm jealous!

Thank you so much for posting the progress pictures. I'm facing losing a similar amount of weight as part of getting to where I want to be, and you give me hope.

What a wonderful smile! And congratulations on the hormones!

Seconded. I had a great time at university, but geez do I wish I'd come out then rather than waiting till now. That's just present-day me talking of course; please don't take it as pressure to do something you're not ready for.

OP, you have all the time in the world. You're not going to miss out on anything, so stay safe, OK?

Girls are the best <3

Still haven't quite figured myself out yet, and I don't see myself turning away from girls post-transition, but... maybe bi? I kind of get all blushy thinking about it though.

Objectively... quite good? But I feel terrible. The dysphoria is strong and I feel like I'm faking it.

  • Told my wife explicitly I'm transgender. "Oh yeah," she says, "you always had that kind of an air about you." Now you tell me! Haven't talked about transitioning yet.
  • Since my egg cracked the desire to stuff myself full of junk food and get drunk has just vanished. I'm eating healthier and WAY less.
  • Tried putting on makeup; just copying tutorials so far, but apparently I resemble my mother. Was aiming for something a bit younger though :(
  • Bought a BLÅHAJ. If I'm going to jump on the trans bandwagon I might as well have something to hug.
  • All the clothes in the women's section are for people 20cm shorter and half my weight
  • But I did find a cute hat. My face looks stupid beneath it, but I'm going to wear it anyway.
  • I painted my nails, and I can't stop staring at my hands. Awww yeah :3
  • Noticed that I actually have quite feminine fingers (and incidentally a noticeable cupid's bow). Win, I guess!
  • I want to start HRT.
  • Kind of hoping someone will call me a good girl?

I've sharpened mine maybe once or twice using a wetstone? (Should probably do it more often) Stropping usually seems enough to keep it working well. Technique is actually pretty simple: once you figure out how to hold it, it's just like any other razor (stroke it over the skin, and never sideways). Although by changing the angle you can get really fine control in tight spots.

I'm honored, thank you! Billy Joel rocks!

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A poem (lemmy.blahaj.zone)

I tried to put some feelings down in words. It's a bit dark; I hope that's OK.


A ship sailed over waters deep
Beneath a graying sky;
A sightless pilot at the helm
Dreaming of distant shores.

The clouds rolled in, the waves grew tall,
Yet onward pushed the boat;
What else to do for a lonely crew
Who knows no other home.

Insidious breakers beat the prow,
The sailor's grip grew tighter.
Far away from an unknown port
The ship began to founder.

To stay with these worthless timbered bones,
A barnacled prison cell,
Would bring an end to a pointless voyage,
And beautiful dreams as well.

One step, so small, into the dark,
Leave the ship to the ocean grim.
It matters not what the morning brings
For I was born to swim.

Hehe, I was forgetting I still have T skin...

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Shaving (lemmy.blahaj.zone)

If you've used one on your face, then You Know.

If you haven't, give it a go! You can remove a whole carpet's worth of hair in one swipe, with less irritation and super close. It's not as scary as it looks!

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I thought it wouldn't bother me, but ouch... (not their fault; I'm not out yet)

Boymode sucks now.

No, you're right - a large part of my recent panic has been "what if this destroys my family", and I know that's still on the cards. I thought about how I'd have reacted in the past if she'd come out as a trans man (probably very badly, although I'd be fine with it now), but eh, we've had our crises in the past (more than a few caused by my unhappiness) and pulled through. Que sera sera, and I'm cool with that.

I know! This could be a really good bonding experience.

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That is, wife (43) and daughter (12). Told them I was re-evaluating myself and who I wanted to be, and that I wanted to try being "cuter" (didn't quite have the courage to go further), and that perhaps men's clothing didn't suit me.

The wife was mostly "yeah, right" -- seemed happy that I was trying to improve myself but seems to think it's just a phase (maybe it is? idk).

But my daughter was right on board! Came up with a load of outfit and makeup suggestions, and proposed going to an anime convention together, dressed up. I asked her if she'd think it was weird for me to go about dressed as a gothic lolita, and the response was "no, I think it'd be cute."

So next step is maybe cute anime girl cosplay at home, with an ally!

I'm literally shaking with ... excitement? fear? relief? I have no idea. Ohgodohgodohgod what am I doing...

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egg_irl [transfem] (lemmy.blahaj.zone)

I'll just be over here in the ~~closet~~ corner panik. Still cis tho.

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