ZomieChicken

Does he use her for an armrest when they're waiting in line somewhere?

From my understanding, yes. Personally, I've seen so many different definitions of "OOP" (most of which were incoherent), I developed my own definition of what an 'object' is, and just go on with life.

In a proper PnPRPG/Tabletop RPG game, a truly spectacular blunder feels like a success to the person who failed. Walk into a bar and critfail both your Communications check, and the "Oh crap, I failed that badly. Can I save this by doing ______?" follow-up Communications check? You think you did fine, but now the entire bar thinks you are a truly crazy person, and treat you with respect only because they think you're going to shiv them in the neck if they get out of line.

I know it's nontrivial, but kit cars are a thing. If they won't make the car you want, build it.

Please verify the process to make it street legal before buying the kit, though. Don't want to end up with a car-sized paperweight.

That is for President, not Congress, nor State.

Maybe I'm a bit off, but out of all those 'bases', aren't a nontrivial number of them literally just an office on someone else's base? A sole soldier sitting in a base in the middle of somewhere counts as a 'military base' if they are supposed to be there.

Thank you for the link.

Let's see; keep things running by going into a mine and digging out something that is needed with the proper safety gear, or going into a mine and digging out something with only the safety gear your boss couldn't convince the the government to not require.

Such hard choices...

I'm going to pick through this some, but I'm an idiot, so take this all with a salt lick (preferably one of those massive ones they give cattle).

it controls my life in a way i cant see it doing to others.< There are two factors here, and both need to be addressed.

1. You admit you have a problem. That's a really good place to start. As you grow up and deal with people more and more, you'll start to see just how rare it is that (some) people honestly realize that they have a problem.
2. Your issues are not unique. People are slaves to their emotions and their addictions. The problem with addictions is that they aren't all illegal, questionably, or otherwise 'unusual' substances. Some pretty people post on sites like Instagram because they need the positive feedback, otherwise they feel like shit, or feel like a lesser person for it.

should i just take the “medicine” and conform to eventually one day end it all myself?<

That is a very permanent solution to temporary problems. I'm not going into my personal history here, but even seriously considering it is a bad idea. If you really are thinking about this, please seek medical help and get medicated, if needed (fwiw, I'm hugely opposed to antidepresants, but if one is seriously considering something like this, then I'd say go for it).

living like a zombie feels /comes natural to me so maybe its just who i am and i dont need to try and change that.<

Not entirely sure what you mean here. Are you apathetic towards life? Do you go through your day-to-day life in an emotionless, numb haze? Or do you mean you're constantly simply on autopilot and not really being yourself?

everyone else is naturally who they are…<

Honestly, this is a funny, because of how untrue it is. People like to portray theirselves in certain lights, and pretend that is who they are. In fact, some people put up such a front for so much of their lives, they lose who they really are in the end.

i want him to like me because it makes me feel worth something. i dont need to work on myself if i have his attention.<

I've seen more than one woman ruin herself with this kind of mentality. Self-confidence is king. If you rely on others to dictate your mental state, then you are their slave. It only takes one person to walk into your life before you find yourself in a very bad place.

I've been there myself. It sucks. Therapy might help. Medication might help. Figuring out what you seem to dislike about yourself and working on that, or accepting it, will help.

Again, not a doctor in any regard, but I've been there myself, and for others, when these kinds of problems arise. I know some bad stories. If nothing else, keep this in mind; you have acknowledged that you have problems. In my experience, that is more than half way to solving them. The next thing to do is to try and resolve those issues in a sane, safe, and reasonable manner.

Depression sucks. It's especially bad when it sneaks up on you. Get some blood work done to see if you're short on anything, and sit down and think about your life some. I've dealt with depression before, and I know how much it sucks. The thing to keep in mind is that most, if not all, problems can be fixed (and I'm drawing a blank on unfixable problems right now).

Good luck to you and God bless.

Should take one half apart and put it on display, like those blow-apart assembly drawing, but in real life. I'd love to see the mechanism that moves those wings taken down to bolts...

mechanical teletype? Pfff. Grow up and learn to read your blinkenlights already. Heck, while you're at it, here are 16 switches and three buttons. That should be more than enough for anything ever.