She means the world to me, I just want her to be happy. I don't know if she'll realize they're from me.

Edit: okay, I let her know it was me

Edit to add context: I do like her more than as a friend, I know she doesn't and that's why I did it anonymously.

I don't want her to feel pressured, just cared for. We have been good friends for a long time, I think my feelings can become an obstacle for our friendship and I hate that.

I wish I didn't feel this way.

Update: we're not friends anymore

I might be losing myself.

I don't have suicidal thoughts, but I do think that my death would be welcome by me. Not existing is a comforting thought.

Life is fine, I just got a promotion, I have a small boy and a baby girl on the way.

Just got a new car, the old one was too old and too expensive to keep running.

I still can't feel right.

There's discussion on pineapplemachine's instance about the questionable moderating practices on Lemmy.ml

I joined sopuli especifically due to not wanting to associate with that kind of practices as I really believe there should be a minimum freedom to criticise any government's actions. Is my belief compatible with this instance or should I think about self hosting?

So far I'm liking it here a lot.