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[–] gon@lemm.ee 67 points 3 days ago (2 children)

I love smelling the fumes! I love the noise! Please, run me over, cars! I love getting stuck in traffic! Yes!

[–] gon@lemm.ee 4 points 4 days ago

Could it? I assume so, yes. Will it? Unlikely.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 7 points 4 days ago

Made a small donation. Every bit counts, I hope.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 36 points 4 days ago

LMAO is that something the author actually received?!

[–] gon@lemm.ee 3 points 5 days ago

Melon... My mouth is watering...

[–] gon@lemm.ee 4 points 5 days ago (1 children)

Yeah.

That screenshot has some errors on point 2 and 3, by the way.

  1. It doesn't say シリーズ (series), it says ドリトス (Doritos). So it's タイツくん〇〇大人のドリトス (Tights-kun Adult Doritos), with the middle part being cut off and unreadable. I did some more research on this and figured out what it says.

  2. It doesn't say 刺激入り (with a kick). I can't read the 2^nd^ kanji on the packaging, but the first one is definitely not 刺. The Reddit post I linked in the original reply seems to think it says 竹炭入り (bamboo charcoal inside), which upon further research I can confirm is correct, according to the website, even though the 2^nd^ kanji is basically unreadable on that image.

As a fun fact, in the top left it says 励行のこと in the little rectangle, which refers to doing something diligently. On the website, this particular image is accompanied by the text "Don't we have any other way to motivate our workers?"

Where did you get that screenshot by the way? Seems like a really cool tool. Is that ChatGPT?

[–] gon@lemm.ee 5 points 5 days ago

No clue! This post was the first time I've ever heard of this electric massage thing.

Maybe it's the sort of stuff that happens to the first person to fall asleep at a sleepover or something. Just a guess.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 4 points 5 days ago

Maybe something like that, yeah.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 81 points 6 days ago (8 children)

The translations you're seeing here are inaccurate at best.

電気アンマ does mean electric massage, but it specifically refers to the move being performed on the packaging: pressing one's foot into someone's genitals, as a prank. So it's not just any electric massage.

Also, 復活 does mean resurrection, but once again, it's unlikely that's what they meant, in a literal sense. It's more likely they meant "comeback," as in bringing back the practice of 電気アンマ.

It's a meme by タイツくん (Tights-kun). They were selling it on their website, but aren't anymore, and the flavour is black pepper and salt with bamboo charcoal. I can't read the last kanji very well, but I'm trusting this Reddit post's reading. It does seem to check out, but the resolution is awful.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 3 points 6 days ago

I love getting these recs :D

[–] gon@lemm.ee 14 points 6 days ago
[–] gon@lemm.ee 5 points 6 days ago (2 children)

Looks like it's got its tongue out.

 

Orpheu is a famous magazine from the early 20th century in Portugal that brought on Modernism to the cultural forefront of the nation. Read the linked Wikipedia article for further information on this.

My parents, being language aficionados, have a really cool edition of the first volume of the magazine. Reading some notes on the pages, I can tell my mom read it and probably studied it, probably sometime in the past 3 decades.

The aforementioned edition of Orpheu

I've decided to read it and analyse the poetry within.

Full disclosure: I haven't looked up any analysis or translations of anything here, so everything is my interpretation and translation. I wouldn't recommend taking what I say at face value, but I thought this would be fun so I'm doing it.


The first section of the magazine is by Mário de Sá-Carneiro, and it's called For the "Signs of Gold".

At first, I was a little skeptical. For starters, these poems are over 100 years old, so the Portuguese they're written in isn't the Portuguese I'm familiar with; there are strange words, strange phrasing, strange spelling... It's definitely readable, but not entirely intuitive. Still, with the help of an online dictionary and many, many read-overs, I managed to wrangle some semblance of meaning and coherence from the cryptic ramblings of Sá-Carneiro.

The first poem is titled Taciturn. Here, the author paints a beautiful picture, or rather, he builds an enormous structure and guides us through its intricate design over the course of 6 quatrains. Sá-Carneiro describes himself as being ornate in several ways, engraved with gold and various coats-of-arms, having drawbridges in the castle of his soul, rooms upon rooms with beautiful embroidery and divans... But, fundamentally, he's empty and isolated. There is a lot, or maybe there's the remnants of the lot that had once been there, but now there is only that. An illusion. My favourite quatrain says the following:

The dull drawbridge of I-had-been
Rusted - uselessly they'll try to lower it...
Over moats of Vague, halfway of still-wanting -
Mornings of arms still in festivals of forgetting...

I feel that this passage really encapsulates the whole poem. There used to be something grandiose, worth protecting, worth fighting over and clamouring for, but it has gone to the wayside by the hand of time. There's this feeling that it's still there, in a way, that he still wants it, he wants to return to it, but it's no use, and he regrets the situation he finds himself in.

This theme, I believe, finds itself repeated over the rest of the section in several other poems in varying ways and metaphors.

The second poem, a sonnet, is called Salomé, and, to me, this is by far the worst one of the section. Upon first reading, it was very hard to understand. Upon further reading, it seemed to be pretty clearly about sex - which I thought was rather crude. Now, I'm a little squeamish about these things, so that did leave a bad taste in my mouth. However, upon even further reading, I believe this is moreso about insomnia, rather than anything else, and about how the author feels a certain ambivalence about it.

The poem starts with the phrase «Purple insomnia». Then, he goes on to describe how the world changes with it, how the light changes and gains a soul, how everything becomes ephemeral. It's hard to decipher.

My best attempt at summarizing the poem is as follows: a man gets drunk while he can't sleep and feels intensely, if mysteriously inspired.

The third poem, another sonnet, is called A certain voice in the night, gingerly... This is where a pattern forms, which somewhat redeems the previous entry in the section. This sonnet describes a voice that was beautiful and intense, but that the author only experienced once. He describes the flesh as "purply." This poem, combined with the previous entry, creates this image of a certain night where Sá-Carneiro experienced intense inspiration while being unable to sleep, and now looks back on it and fails to replicate it. It feels so ephemeral that it's as if it doesn't exist, so he doesn't even wish for it again, he simply remembers it.

He describes this voice, this feeling, as a Princess. In the first poem, he described himself and his soul as somewhere where iron helmets had smashed Princesses. As such, one can conclude that he sees himself as being devoid of inspiration. Someone that experiences these random, fleeting bouts of genius, but that, inside, is empty. Inside, in his mind, there is only the scaffolding, the illusion of genius, of inspiration, of grandeur, but indeed there is nothing more than fleeting whispers of greatness and vague memories that are so thin it's as if they don't exist at all.

The fourth poem is perhaps the most confusing of all. It's called Our Lady of Paris. The poems are all dated (1913-1914, by the way) and where they're written is noted as well. There's a pretty even distribution of Lisbon and, you guessed it, Paris. The first poem is Paris, the next two are Lisbon, and we're back in Paris for number four.

This poem is very... Vague. It starts with sound and light fustigating our narrator, while he feels that all he can do is run from even the moonlight. Then, he gets reminded of the sea by smells. I like this contrast of the senses, by the way, where hearing and sight are hurtful, and smell provides some reprieve, even if temporary and fleeting - like seemingly everything in this man's life. Then, he's buried. It wasn't enough, the smells weren't enough, and he's buried under cathedrals and church candles, under the grandeur and opulence of the city. His senses are overwhelmed. At the end, however, it seems the smell of lilies brought him back. He ends the poem by screaming, or praying, to our lady of Paris.

I find this one very hard to understand. I wrote in my notes that maybe he misses home, but frankly I'm really not sure in the slightest; it's a guess more than an interpretation.

The fifth poem is titled 16 - yes, the number. It's actually pretty good, but I can't figure out why it's called that. I thought it might be about the metric, but I don't think so. Regardless, as I said, it's pretty good. It's about how Sá-Carneiro is so inconsistent and uncertain, how he's in-between. It's divided into three parts.

The first part paints the image of the author almost exploding. He's vibrating, shaking, and then his dreams flow out of him like lions of fire which walk the desert, while the author is left behind in an oasis, where blade edges go to die. I like the last couple of lines of this part of the poem:

The frogs will eventually croak me in raspy human tones
Vomiting my flesh that they ate between shits...

It feels like he's complaining that, while putting his greatness into the world, he'll be remembered by bad and incomplete renditions of his work. People that don't have the soul to replicate his work will instead croak it poorly, repeat it without sense, eating his flesh and shitting it out instead of understanding his art. I thought that was a pretty powerful image.

The second part of the poem is shorter than the first. It's six lines, all ending in ellipsis, which gives this part a very lamenting feel. He says that he sees the world in half-light, things, life has lost its luster. He says that the path he's following is no longer the golden path that was his. That, to me, feels like he's saying that he was following the golden footsteps that he envisioned for himself, but can't see anymore. Now, he wanders. It's like he's reached the end of the line, but there's no line; the path just continues without its shine.

The third, and last, part of the poem is the shortest of all three. It's separated into two stanzas, the first with three, and the second with two verses. The second one is in parenthesis. Here, the image is much more real. He's in a cafe, something happened, someone showed up, and everyone went crazy. Someone important. It ends with the narrator describing himself climbing himself in a rope ladder, with his anxiety being a broken trapeze. It feels like he's lost his soul, in a way. His greatness is past him.

The sixth poem is called Distant Melody, and it's another one of those really good ones. He remembers another time, a time that was like wings and when his senses were colours. His soul was broad and he could follow in any way and find something great. He speaks of inspiration as a Princess again, and generally the architectural metaphors continue. However, this is a memory, a fleeting memory of another time that may or amy not have existed really. I particularly love the last quatrain:

Fluid memories... ashes of brocade...
Blue irreality that waves within me...
- Around me I am an exiled King,
Mermaid dream vagabond...

That metaphor of an «exiled King» speaks volumes. He has a castle within, but it's empty. He remembers Princesses - inspiration - but the memories are so thin that they might as well not exist. He's exiled from his own genius.

The seventh, eighth, and ninth poems are all one stanza each. The seventh is called Glimpse, where he describes «crying hours» at the end of the day, where his soul is cold water in golden amphorae, between crystals. I'm not sure what this means. The eighth is called Suggestion, and the narrator says he feels the companions (women) that he didn't have crying for him; I feel that I shouldn't interpret this as simple boasting of being a good lover, but I fail to read anything else in it. The ninth poem is called, somewhat confusingly, 7. I thought that this might be because of the metric, but the second line in the quatrain is eight syllables long, I'm pretty sure; the other three are seven, though. He says that he's not himself nor the other one, but rather something in between; the peak of boredom.

Taking these poems as a group, I find that, maybe, he's talking about the inspiration that he didn't have. Those moments of inspiration that escaped him because he was in the in-between space, where he was neither the poor human, the real him in the real world, the exiled King, and the true King, the inspired one in his soul, living in the glorious castle. Maybe.

The tenth poem is called Angle, and it's pretty good too. It's divided in half. The first half talks about a false reality, a mirage of a world. The second half talks about the death of the Princesses, and the author trying to navigate this world and failing, because everything is a dead-end, everything is half-built, a lie. However, he talks about this other him, this other one that is also a mirage, and can actually navigate the world. This other him which he cannot contain.

I think this poem is very beautiful, really. It sounds just very melodic. I definitely recommend reading it, if you get the chance.

The eleventh poem in the section is called The Unmatched. It seems like a pretty straight-forward love-letter to someone or something. It's dripping with want, with desire. It's very intense. I think it's Sá-Carneiro yearning for that great inspiration that he's been exiled from.

Finally, the twelfth poem: Apotheosis. This one is really good, I felt like. This one seems like an acceptance of his creative demise. He's mourning the loss of his creativity and inspiration, the golden sea with pillars and marble. Now, he's just a marsh, a stagnated garden. I felt that it was very powerful imagery.

Overall, I thought this section was really good. I certainly didn't understand everything, and I'll work to unveil more details of the poems, but for now I'm satisfied with what I was able to wrangle out of the words.

It seems Sá-Carneiro was embodying someone struggling with their creativity and inspiration, feeling that they've lost their touch, so to speak, and over the course of the section they came to terms with it, culminating in the apotheosis of the past, and the lament of the current state of the poet.

Looking forward to reading the rest of the magazine.

 

My brother is struggling a little with his school. He's almost certainly gonna quit his degree and go for something else.

I'm very happy he's made the decision early, in his first year, rather than being like his older brother and just riding it aaaaall the way out and then regretting it forever.

He's very unmotivated and has terrible habits, like me, and I'm trying to instill some better work ethic in him. It's hard, since that's something I lack, but I hope my words can enact some change in him. Maybe I can try and be an example, though it's hard being that I'm de facto unemployed. We'll see.

Still, it's nice that I can talk to him.

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I took a long, hot shower. It's so hot. Not in the sexy way, either; it's genuinely just uncomfortably high in temperature.

Otherwise, good day. :D

 

Vic Michaelis

Pic related.

I've mentioned this previously, but I've been watching lots of Game Changer, on Dropout. Well, I'm not watching the episodes on Dropout, but quite frankly I might just get to doing that relatively soon.

My favourite episode so far is, by far, the first episode of season 7. That's the latest season. It's simply a masterpiece. I can't stress this enough: if you want to watch something amazing, watch Season 7 Episode 1 of Game Changer. It is beyond great!

This episode features Jacob Wysocki, Lou Wilson, and, of course, Vic Michaelis.

All three are hilarious and incredible performers, incredibly creative people. However, I felt Vic shone (Shined? I think I read somewhere that shined should be wear for shining shoes rather than a shining star... Whatever...) brighter than the others, in my opinion. Vic's just brilliant. Pun.

Vic Michaelis wearing a squid costume.

This is what they wore to the episode. I mean, let's be serious.

Somehow - some fucking how - Lou Wilson won the related challenge with some augmented reality gimmick, but Vic was the true victor. In my heart, they won.

They also host Very Important People, on Dropout. I've watched clips and have loved every second of every one.

They also appear on Make Some Noise, and every clip of theirs I've watched has also been incredible.

Vic Michaelis, the GOAT you are.

Now, notice a pattern? Dropout, Dropout, Dropout.

I might be [Sic] pirating their episodes, but I'm strongly considering purchasing a subscription. There are several shows I'm interested in watching, and, quite frankly, I'm not bothered at all to support a company like this. If they keep making such incredible shows, high-quality, high-production value masterpieces, how can I say no? Well, I can't, but my wallet surely can! And she speaks for me.

We'll see what I decide to do. I need a job before I actually commit to this, of course, but I might commit to it eventually. Dropout is actually just that good. Vic Michaelis made me do it.

 

HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH

What to write, what to write...

I'm a little hungry, right now. I've been watching lots of Game Changer (super good, by the way, season 7 is freaking bonkers). HUUUUUH.

Yeah, that's about it. I mean, there's more stuff, but I feel uninclined to write.

Still, I have written.

 

Today, I had one of the days of all time.

I've decided to start writing with more structure, on paper. I write a lot, but I don't often write with much structure, choosing to write whatever comes to mind at any given time without much order or thought for positioning or, well, structure. It ends up being mostly a word salad or random lists of things.

Mind you, I find this very enjoyable, but I do feel that it lacks a certain... Feel to it. I'm not sure.

I decided to go and write things in a more structured way, today.

I wrote a list of what I did today, roughly, and I came to the realization that I didn't do much! Now, I did know that, beforehand, as I did live this day first-hand, but it still hit me a little.

OK, so, I ate today. I don't even want to write what I ate, but let it be known it wasn't healthy. Calorie-wise, I think it was fine, but it was not what I was supposed to eat, I'll tell you that much.

I played Hearthstone, a little bit, Battlegrounds, specifically. It was actually lots of fun. Just 5 games, I think, maybe 6, but I did reach 7000+ rating! For the first time ever! My brother and I actually spoke about this not so long ago. He said that, despite me being the more avid played of the two, he actually held the higher all-time rating between the both of us. Now, I did when we spoke and still do consider myself the better player, but he had that over me. Now, he doesn't! HAHA! Take that, punk! I love my brother very much, and he congratulated me for achieving this goal.

8000+ next?! Who knows. I intend to keep playing, see where I can get.

I also did a little bit of Japanese, today. I haven't done Japanese in a while, actually, but I felt somewhat inspired, one could say. Watched a couple of videos about mechanical pencils from a Japanese channel, and then read a few paragraphs of a webnovel on Syosetu. That... Doesn't sound like much, I know, but I do also intend to listen to a podcast episode, as well. Then again, that's still not much. I don't think I need to do anything, so I'm fine doing very little. I'm glad I managed to do something, though. I learned a few words, which I think is nice: 白々しい and 豪奢. I doubt I'd actually be able to recognize the second one, but I actually have a mnemonic for it! Over here, there's a famous TV presenter and host called Goucha and he's known to be magnificent. Well, at least that's my mental image of the man. It works! I've been thinking about him a little, these past couple of days, no idea why. Maybe I saw him somewhere and his name stuck in my brain, for some reason.

I also wrote in my notes that I want a lock for my backpack. My backpack has those little holes in the zippers that you can put locks through, but I don't actually have locks to put in them. Not a big deal, I'd say, but it is one of those things that I should probably just have, in case I ever want to use them.

I'll have to go to the University, tomorrow. I said I quit my PhD, which I did, but I didn't, actually. I told my supervisors that I wanted to, but things haven't been moving forward. Stuff needs to get signed, and whatnot, and it seems it's going to take a while... Tomorrow, I'll have to go do some stuff in the lab. It's really annoying. I'm not sure they're taking advantage of me, in this situation, I do feel a bit bad about the circumstances in which I announced my forfeit, so I don't really mind doing it, but... I won't let this go on much longer. I do have a meeting "scheduled" for Thursday, where hopefully I can get this sorted out. Hopefully. I need this done ASAP so I can get on with my damn life, damn it! We'll see, I guess.

About my writing. I wrote in pencil, mostly, but I did also use my pen a little bit. I did not enjoy it. I don't mind writing in pen that much, but this pen is way too thick, especially coming from the pencil. My pencil uses 0.5 mm lead, and I have no clue what the pen is, it's a BIC Cristal, so I assume it's 1.0. Too thick! Needs to be thinner. Am I using these words right? Thick, thin... I feel like they don't fit the context, but I hope I'm getting my meaning across.

I feel like my capital letters are a little iffy. I'm happy with how they look, for the most part, but I'm a little conflicted about whether I want them to connect to the rest of the word or not. On one hand, I don't want them to connect because not connecting allows them to be more flourished and cute. I like that. On the other hand, connecting makes sense. However, a big issue with connecting is that, if one of them connects, all of them should connect. I don't want only a few letters to connect to the rest of the word, while others are over there dangling at the start of their sentences. Some letters are really easy to connect, like L or M, but others, like B or D are much harder. I feel like connecting makes some letters look really weird, but like not connecting makes the words in general look a little disjointed - admittedly, because they are disjointed...

Decisions, decisions. As they say.

 

I've finally decided to pull the trigger on buying a new mechanical pencil.

Currently, I use a Rotring Tikky, which is their entry-level pencil. It's OK, but it's not very good, in my opinion. I took the clip off because it bothered me, the lead breaks a little too often for my liking (which, admittedly, could also be improved with better lead), and its weird triangular shape is also ugly af. Additionally, and perhaps more importantly, if I write for long it does start to hurt a little. It's not that the pencil is particularly uncomfortable, or anything, but it's not particularly comfortable either.

The bottom line, really, is that I know there's much better out there, and I'd like to have that.

However, I can't pick, for the life of me. I need to try it out first, I need to make sure I like this or that feature, this or that design decision... I can't just pull the trigger on a 50€ Rotring 800 because it seems ideal just to have my heart ripped to shreds because, as it turns out, I hate knurling or something.

Also, there's lots of tech out there. Very notably, the Kuru Toga engine by Uni and the DelGuard system by Zebra. Different benefits. For the unaware:

The Kuru Toga engine is a little thing inside the pencils that rotates the lead over time, leading to a funneled tip, rather than the usual chiseled tip that forms overtime as one writes. Usually, you'd have to turn the pencil in your hand to stay with the sharp end, but the Kuru Toga engine does that for you. An issue that some people report is that it feels a little mushy, since the lead has some "give," because of the engine.

The DelGuard system is a two-spring system inside the pencil that makes it very hard to break the lead while writing. If you press too hard, the lead gives and gets protected by the sleeve. Turtle-mode, if you will. Reportedly, this is very effective, and doesn't have nearly as much "mush" as the Kuru Toga system.

Now, these systems don't, and aren't attempting to do the same thing at all, but they're both really cool.

I got both.

The base model of these pencils are relatively inexpensive, at about 5€ each, so it doesn't really hurt. Also, I wouldn't mind just having a bunch of pencils. Right now, I have exactly 1. Well, 2, I guess, if you count the wooden pencil I carry as a backup.

Regardless, I bought them and they should be arriving... Some time... In the future...

AliExpress, damn you! But the prices were very reasonable.

I also got Pentel Ain Stein leads.

Quite honestly, I'm not quite sure what to expect. Knowing myself, I suspect I won't like the Kuru Toga feel very much, as much as I love the concept. It's one of those things I would love to love, but will unfortunately hate to hate. We'll see, though, I'm trying to keep an open mind about it, that's why I bought it. I think I'll like the DelGuard more, though, especially because I do tend to break leads fairly often.

 

I have ventured forth into the darkness once more.

The smell of sulfur burns the back of my throat. The oppressive heat melts the rubber soles of my trainers, every step feels like I'm mucking through pools of mud and grease. The sun is hidden behind noxious clouds, but its blinding light still finds a way through the toxic mist all around me; I can barely see, even covering my eyes with my hands and my arms.

It hurts to breathe. To move. To live.

It hurts.

This must how the Memphis Grizzlies feel while getting their asses handed to them by the OKC Thunder. Rest in Pieces, Taylor Jenkins, you did what you could and they didn't want you. Now, look where they end up. In Hell.

 

Today, I had a nice talk with my dad. I say "talk," but really it was just him talking... I mostly listened. He talks a lot (and very loudly) about things he's passionate about. I don't think this is a bad thing, by the way, nor do I think our talk was a bad experience


on the contrary, in fact


but I did want to pose the question: do teachers speak loudly, in general? Both my parents are teachers, so it's a bit hard for me to tell. I know there's cultures that generally speak louder, I know my dad speaks louder than most, in general, but I can't say if my parents, being teachers, speak even louder so. Most of their friends are teachers, so lots of my friends have been teachers' kids. I've been in academia most of my life. I just don't really have points of comparison, here.

Anyway.

We spoke about his self-hosting system. He has... Well, lots of stuff. I don't know enough to explain everything in this post, but let's just say that he has lots of stuff that he uses to store a bunch of stuff, namely movies and TV shows. Pirated? Perchance. I shan't confirm nor deny! Who are you, anyway?! A COP?! Pigs get stitches, or whatever they say...

I kid.

It's legal here.

I've thought about setting up something similar myself


I've even discussed it on this comm, if I recall correctly


but to see that my very own dad has done it himself does give me a certain sense of pride. I really like my family, and it was a delight to hear him talk so passionately about that stuff.

That has also gotten me thinking about ways to store things, information. I've been big on mechanical pencils for a while, now, but I'm also considering buying some notebooks. I'm not sure what kind of notebook I should buy... The ones I currently use are low-quality and kind of bad. I don't like writing in them very much at all! I feel like there should be something else I could use that would make the overall experience more enjoyable, though. I'd hope so, at least.

Somewhat unrelatedly, I went back and watched the videos I'd stacked on my Watch Later playlist. I use that feature quite a lot. One of the videos was some guy playing and explaining the game "Scoundrel." The video itself, I feel, was pretty bad. I didn't like the way he played at all. However, the game seemed really cool. Here are the rules. I also saw YT user 4theWizard talk about a personal rule they used where Jokers work as merchants that exchange weapons for health potions. Really cool, too.

I'm huge (giga huge) on card games. I love cards. I love games. Bingo bango. I've created my own card games too, but it's cool to see other people's ideas. I really want to buy a nice deck of cards... I know of one that I really love, but it seems oddly hard to get one's hands on. Maybe I'd need to go somewhere specific to find it, or I'd have to pay too much on shipping... Maybe I'm too broke and too stingy for nice decks of cards? It hurts. I might buy it, one day... One day...

 

It's raining lots, today.

The day started off raining, then it quit during lunchtime, then the pouring returned with a vengeance. The sky is grey and the rest of the atmosphere has seemingly taken the cue to match the dress-code.

I like the sound of the rain, but I do also find it a little weird. It's like the inverse of a skeumorph. The noise reminds me of TV static. That's not like a skeumorph at all, actually... Hopefully you get my meaning.

As I write, this, the rain has mostly let up once more. There's a huge rainbow right outside my window. The wind has also calmed down, a bit, so the eucalyptus are pointing straight up again.

Eucalyptus are great trees for the wind. They have these long and thin leaves that really give the feeling of motion when they're being blown violently to the side. It makes the trees look very cartoonishly crooked.

If the weather stays decent, I'll try to convince my brother to go out for a walk with me.

 

Honestly, I wish I was a stone.

Specifically, I wish I was a stone at the bottom of a lake in the middle of nowhere.

I feel like it'd be really enjoyable. Nothing ever happens, except when it does! You'd feel the earthquakes, for example. You'd know about the activities of random fish, randomly. I'd reckon that'd be fun.

I think what would make this particularly exciting is the prospect of actually being picked up. Naturally, in this scenario, we're aware of our location and situation. As such, we're aware of the extreme unlikelihood of being picked up by anything sentient. But maybe! MAYBE!

Isn't that cool?!

I think that'd be cool.

Of course, being picked up would be rather annoying, I guess. I mean, we're chilling at the bottom of this lake and then some random human just, what, picks us up? And what?! THROWS US BACK INTO THE LAKE?!

The gall.

But it's one of those things that'd be fun to think about, though it wouldn't actually be fun to experience.

 

Today, I watched a great video by Shar, on YouTube.

I definitely recommend you check it out!

Shar's channel is really awesome. I love the mix of silly, short videos, and longer videos that delve a bit deeper into the topic at hand. Also, she's really talented! Her art is great, she's a developer, her editing is really cute and bubbly; watching her videos feels like eating cotton candy. Rather, it feels like what I envision eating cotton candy to be like. In truth, I never have a good time eating cotton candy. It's too messy.

I digress. Great videos!!

Oftentimes (glorious word, by the way, "oftentimes"), I find myself strongly enamoured


read, falling deeply and madly in love


with random people online. I've come to realize that this is a pretty common phenomenon. I really like Shar's videos, so I can't help but imagine that I'd really like Shar herself. Is this a so-called parasocial relationship?

Perchance; Mayhaps.

This has reminded me of a TikToker I used to follow. I still follow her actually, technically, I just uninstalled TikTok. I forget her @, but everyone called her "unc," which was funny in itself, but her videos were all about gambling with gas station scratch-offs. I can feel violent laughter bubbling up within me just from typing that out. What a concept. She's a marketing genius.

Continuing. She got tons of comments saying stuff like "fly me out unc" or "pay for my lodging at a place close to your location, unc," and other similarly parasocial requests related to a commenter's desire to meet the creator in the flesh. Pardon the run-on sentence, there. I don't want to meet my favourite creators at all!

I follow lots of people; I watch lots of people's stuff on the regular; I enjoy and laugh at their uploads, and I imagine that they are fun and pleasant to be around. However, I don't want to meet them!

I very much enjoy watching their silly videos and reading their cool posts, but I enjoy doing that from the comfort of my home; safely, through a screen. Not that I think Shar (or anyone else whose content I consume) would be particularly dangerous to be in the vicinity of, mind you. It's moreso a matter of practicality, in the sense that meeting new people is inherently dangerous, regardless of the people in question.

An aside: it seems "moreso" is, at best, a dubious spelling of the word-phrase "more so." I find this incredibly disparaging. Moreso looks very cool. I will continue to use it.

Anyway. I really love finding these nuggets of lovely on the internet. I love finding things to love.

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