Thats part of what made me keep watching. It's almost masochistic. Walts character going further into the narcissistic abuse with each season is horrifying to me, but it's also so well written through that psychological lens that it fascinates me.
The difference between that and BCS for me was mostly that there was a ton more back story to see how Jimmy's psychology developed. I had a lot more sympathy for him.
Both are interesting to me in the sense of how TV shows were starting to pivot away from these more traditional perfect protagonists into complex mixtures of horrible people that I still wanted to root for. But again, masochistic for me, cuz I want to see the good in everyone — and that has come at the cost of understanding when I need to set boundaries and walk away irl. I like to tell myself its like exposure therapy when in reality I need professional therapy 💀
I was gonna say something similar, like the amount of times I've wanted to look into some political topics and seeing comments encouraging violence make it hard for me to feel motivated just to stay informed. I get being angry, but damn, cue Mr. Rogers "what do we do with the mad that we feel?"