tldr, track record
Thank you for this lengthy reply ! Yes, I do have social anxiety. I do try to break it many times but inherently it is there. Without a very good reason, I will keep it in the comfort zone ( lazyness + anxiety , I guess ).
I may need a set of friends who are not judgemental.
I dont think it's sleep apnea. It's like my processing power is low,or cannot multi task
I snore rarely and get 6-8 hours sleep any day. One I think I feel good about this job , I do not need to think about work tasks at my home, and sleep within 5 minutes I lay on bed :) ( I still hate night shifts , btw ) .
Get drowsy and have to fight nodding off while driving? Do meetings send you to a seemingly impossible fight with staying awake?
Were you having low hours of sleep during these?
Can you share model details. Also, possible to use while driving/swimming.