I don't know if this should be in neurodiverse or another place so I apologize, regardless I'm only posting since I just want to get it off my chest and this is the only place I can talk about it at this time.
But fuck, it sucks to have to live with CPTSD. I can last days where I'm mostly (relative to, of course) normal and almost forget about it, but then it wrecks and hits me like a freight train. I havent been able to sleep almost at all for the past week due to not being able to stop thinking about shit in the past, and a whole slew of other effects that comes with it, but the sllep one is the most annoying one for me right now.
Have a cute picture though 
For just a moment I thought this was a c(at)ptsd post.
Things get better or easier (sometimes they are different, sometimes they are the same concept) with a little time. And a little counseling sometimes.
I think most of us dwell on things that have happened in our pasts. Some of us more than others. I certainly do. I end up in my own head a lot over-criticizing my past actions. Sometimes some good comes of it but not often. It's mostly just a negative outcome once I go there. I have to see a counselor to help with it. I also eat a lot of edibles and go for walks by myself. I've found a few mechanisms that help, but it happens to everyone to some extent.
You aren't alone.
Thank you i see that now, it's been comforting to know there's a lot of support and people that understand on this site
I'm glad your mechanisms help, I like walks too