I don't know if this should be in neurodiverse or another place so I apologize, regardless I'm only posting since I just want to get it off my chest and this is the only place I can talk about it at this time.
But fuck, it sucks to have to live with CPTSD. I can last days where I'm mostly (relative to, of course) normal and almost forget about it, but then it wrecks and hits me like a freight train. I havent been able to sleep almost at all for the past week due to not being able to stop thinking about shit in the past, and a whole slew of other effects that comes with it, but the sllep one is the most annoying one for me right now.
Have a cute picture though 
healing is possible, but it's never gonna be perfect or linear. in me & my partners case, each of us having started with individual trauma informed therapists does help a lot (though i realize there are massive systemic barriers to entry for that so more informal & self-directed ways to tackle the disorder are very valid).