I don't know if this should be in neurodiverse or another place so I apologize, regardless I'm only posting since I just want to get it off my chest and this is the only place I can talk about it at this time.
But fuck, it sucks to have to live with CPTSD. I can last days where I'm mostly (relative to, of course) normal and almost forget about it, but then it wrecks and hits me like a freight train. I havent been able to sleep almost at all for the past week due to not being able to stop thinking about shit in the past, and a whole slew of other effects that comes with it, but the sllep one is the most annoying one for me right now.
Have a cute picture though 
feel this intensely. im extremely lucky i happened into a union job with the same agency the past three or so years. before that i had a hard time holding down work for more than a year and change tops.