I cant do it anymore without yelling at people, and thats not who I want to be.
Joined a few "antifascist" circles on my socials, and fuck, its...rough. Just spent 10 minutes going back and forth with a 
defender who refused to google anything. Tons of anticommunism. Lots of "vote blue no matter who." Their idea seems to be that fascism begins and ends with Trump/Maga and is not the natural state of Amerikkka.
Every now and then I'll come across someone who has done the reading, learned the history, and is trying to teach - but 9/10 times its a meme page and not an individual person, which us...surprising for some reason.
Anyways ive hit the point where "social media has sent me a silly notification, i shall neither read nor respond to it." Fuck it is slept like shit and am grumpy so im napping.
Yeah I'm in the same boat. The greatest obstacle to any serious, revolutionary change are the liberals who think their reactionary friends, family, and coworkers aren't planning to have them all lined up against a wall and shot. Actual leftists recognize the danger we're in, have severed all contact with contact with conservatives, and are ready to throw down. But the liberal, especially the "white moderate" MLK warned us about, gets in the way.
They still think this country is salvageable because they believe in the Great Man and End of History. If we simply change the person in charge, we can go back to the way things were at the end of the '90s. Everyone else with object permanence knows the rot started decades before then.
I also think the real ones can imagine a world without American capitalism in it. A future where the USA doesn't exist that isn't some apocalyptic wasteland. That's the hurdle. The moment you mention you want America to end people think you mean some kind of desecrated, scorched earth Mad Max future. Like, no motherfucker, I'm envisioning a world of peace and harmony and people living happy, fulfilling lives. If you can't see that then you've let the reactionaries rob you of your soul.