I was raised by some of the most abusive people on the planet - enough to be jailed today - and surrounded exclusively by abusive peers.

I'm sorry. Have you considered that they are perhaps not representative of the whole of humanity?

You're talking at me, lying to me and trying to dictate reality to me.

Let's say someone actually wanted to help you. Let's say they truly believed that going outside and interacting with people in person would do you good. How should such a person express their feelings and try to help while acknowledging you, respecting your humanity, and treating you as of equal value as a human?

Are you happy?

It seems like you are lashing out randomly and have a world view that everything is orchestrated to harm you.

You all made sure no one would ever care about me, even going so far as to kill yourselves to guarantee it.

You believe that people have killed themselves to make your life worse? I don't want to sound mean, but you aren't the only person.