I have a gore fetish and i really like the idea of starring in a cartel video someday as the headless girl. I could be the first trans person in one of those.

Just kidding.

In reality i just like suffering, but it hasnt prevented me from being nice to people. I just have a legit problem where i have to remind myself to help them and not sit around enjoying their suffering. I have a strange content happy feelinv whenever someone cries, and the happiest day of work in my life was when a huge metal square (size of a car) landed an inch from my head where i was tightening nuts. I thought it was hilarious and everyone else was scared.

I did a lot of activism trying to help homeless people gain autonomy for themselves and the right to have a tent city. My ability to just not be bothered by human suffering is why i was volunteering there more than anyone else in the group of communists i was in at the time.