Rant

Okay. I should start with, you should find help. A therapist, counselor, social worker, maybe all three. I've seen a few of your posts - I'm not judging you at all, I just think you're having a hard time right now and could really use a qualified person who can help you navigate things.

Now, I know that's not always easy or practical, and sometimes the help available to you isn't what you want or need. I'm not trying to direct you to someone who's gonna harm you. I just think you could use a hand.

I think you recognize all the things you're talking about are problems. It sounds like you feel powerless. What sort of options are available to you?

Thank fuck it's an ex best friend now.

Thanks for being here, and thanks for being you. I hope you find a decent friend next time around.

Oh my gosh, so abusive! If you can, you might want to try therapy. :( I’m sorry this happened to you!

I also used to have a friend that hit me (not hard) when i was a teen.

Took me until well into adulthood to realize that

1. they actually hit decently hard cause it did hurt but i just internalized “they could hit much harder”

2. It doesn’t matter how hard they actually did hit because the behavior and intend alone are problematic enough.

3. I simply called them my friend coming from a lack of positive experiences in friendships.

This is a slightly different case, i dont think there was any hate, just mental disorder. But the real friends i have now (also with mental health struggles) would never do something like this.

People being frustrated with autism is normal, friends getting upset now and then is normal.

Physical violence and expressing direct hate are far from normal.

“im such a bad person for saying that. i didn’t want to tell you why i hate you because that would make me a bad person too”

yeah. you are a bad person, tbh. if you hate people with autism, just say that. “disabled people make me uncomfortable” isn’t as bad as wishing them gone/dead/hurting them.

there’s people who don’t like a group of people and then people who actively harm those people.

if you don’t like something about someone, you tell them why instead of wishing they died and hating them.

also, she’s right. everyone does hate me. she hates me, her friends hate me, my bf hates me, my family controls me and “loves me” even though they yell at me.

I hope this cheers you up :(