I think reasonably, the destruction of Palestine and its people has been weighing so heavily on me. Every time I have to buy something or get a paycheck I think about where that tax money is going and what a coward I am for not doing more than joining protests when they are nearby. I used to think the Vietnam protesters or the germans that hid their neighbors or the volunteers of the underground railroad network were such brave rebels but I’m starting to think they felt this same deep hopelessness at how small their power was in the face of state sanctioned genocide. I’m so upset at the lack of basic humanity in our lawmakers worldwide, the complacency of the US population in the face of an ethnic cleansing, and the continued dishonesty and corruption of the media. It seems so ridiculous and tragic to enjoy a basketball game or window shopping in the midst of this.

I understand that effective journalism costs money to produce, proficient journalists should get and will go where they are paid, and sites need funds to maintain their operations. All that makes sense. However, I don't read one website I use Lemmy and internet searches to find news I'm interested in reading. I maybe go to the same paywalled news site twice a week at most, but rarely if ever quarce a month. It would make no sense for me to have a subscription to any paywalled news site even if I wanted to spend money. I have no option other than to use proxies, assume the article from others' comments, or just read the title.

The internet news media system sucks, but I don't see a solution.

Hey fast food workers who work the fries, I don't give a fuck if you hate salt, put the correct damn amount of salt on my fries, I don't want to taste the concept of having salt on my fries! No, I want my fries to remove all liquid from my mouth so I can guzzle down my flavoured sugar water!

You're not making me healthier by lowering my salt intake, it's fast food! I took all the veg off my burger and doubled the cheese! Now give me my salty chips god damn you!

I was with a man for four years and thought we were going to get married. He was a widower and I fell in love for the first time. When I found out he was cheating, it killed me. I felt my whole self die.

I miss myself. I wake up every day and go through the motions, even try to date here and there, but at the end of the day I am a soulless husk of a person. I've tried focusing on myself - losing weight, exercising, rejuvenating old hobbies, lots and lots of therapy and meds. Nothing helps. At this point I'm only living because I have three pets who rely on me.

I still don't understand why I deserved that. I guess this is just as good as life gets for someone like me.

Short preamble: I am European. Here, people rarely die or go bankrupt from healthcare. They will just get worse treatment and longer waiting times than the richer. So, I definitely lack personal anger and grief.

But I still don't understand the support for the shooter. Do you want to live in a world of vigilantism, where live and death is decided by whoever is deranged enough to be able to directly take someone's live. That would just end in a brutal police state or complete anarchy where the most violent survive.

I also don't understand people saying that that ceo was a murderer. For murder you have to plan and wish for the death of an individual. He, at worst, did not care.
Why did he specifically deserve to die? People could have decided to use a different insurance or pay for treatment themselves.
The ceo of the insurance company is not the one driving up the prices for healthcare. It's pharma companies and their stockholders.
So, how much in stocks do you need to have for a death sentence. A million, a thousand a hundred dollars? What about the lawyers defending the patents on drugs? Kill them or just cut off an arm? How do you punish their assistants and interns? What about the scientists that make the drugs. They decided to work for a company that raises prices instead of one that sells cheap biosimilars.
Off with their head, I assume?
The politicians that allowed this system to flourish surely get a bullet through their head, but what about the people who voted for the status quo instead of protesting? This list could go on and on.

Murder is not such a heinous act because of the loss of a live. It's because once people start deciding who deserves to die, the spiral goes down lower and lower till it reaches everyone who does not 100% support your cause.

The ceo was probably an asshole with no regard for human life. But just because he was paid better does not make him more responsible. It is a broken system, and killing one person does nothing. Instead of supporting a murderer go on strike or be nice to your neighbors. Protest for a better system instead of idolizing a poor soul that has been driven to do an understandable but still unforgivable act of violence.

I think in the shower. But not the kind of silly stuff that makes people smile, unfortunately.

My brain kinda shifts into overdrive, and sorts things out while my body takes care of itself, and the water works its partial sensory derivation magic.

Sometimes, that means ugly things pop up.

And then I tear the subject matter up into shreds.

Well, this time, I got to thinking about a long chain of things that led into trans rights.

I started remembering all the bullshit I've seen and heard that attempts to disenfranchise and "other" trans people for no good fucking reason other than stupidity.

One aspect in particular is what got me furious.

The whole "it's a mental illness" tripe. So what? That's what I want the chance to say to some bigot while I wait for them to give me an excuse to punch them.

So fucking what? If it's a mental illness, don't they deserve good treatment for it? Happens to be that the only current, effective treatment for it is transition, whatever aspects of transition the person and their medical team decide are going to help. So, what's the fucking argument now?

Like, these motherfuckers want to interfere in the treatment of someone's "mental illness", but sure as fuck don't offer any useful suggestions beyond that. They gonna say that someone with a different "illness" should have to fucking check in with them to get approval for treatment? They're a fucking doctor now?

Like, as much as I despise a bigot, at least be an honest bigot. Wear that shit with pride instead of hiding behind such a thin, stupid, pointless argument. Just outright say that it makes you feel icky and you're not up to the challenge of dealing with it, so you just hate. Don't wimp out and hang that see through curtain of "mental illness" in front of your ugliness inside. Just up and be a bigot for fucks sake.

But nooooo, people don't say that in person. They'll only say that shit where they can hide. Bigotry is a mental illness that is comorbid with cowardice and stupidity. The treatment I'll allow is my foot up their ass.

Lowes hooked up a new washer/dryer combo, but when I ran it the water backed up. I went to clean it up and got electrocuted somehow.

My hand is fucked but my heart is OK, so I got out lucky. Spent the whole day in the hospital and I'm dreading the bill (thanks USA). So much for my plans of gaming over the holiday - can't do much with one hand.

The breaker to that room is off and I'm keeping the pets out until an electrician can come.

if you want to share a shitty app for the top mobile platform (71%+ market share) instead of the second, even worse platform (28%+ market share) without making it a huge pain in the ass for any recipient, or who knows, even discoverable by random people, you have to pay $20 for the fucking privilege, only to be hounded every few months by google threatening to close your account without takesie backsies because you had three months to scan all your official government papers and send it to them and you fucking failed to deliver. oh you wanted to make a single fucking penny developing apps? they are gonna need a hefty chunk of that coin, oh and, sorry, policy update just came in, we'll fucking fully doxx you under every app you make if you dare monetize. protecting the consumers!!!! very importe!

I've made a lot of posts that have taken a considerable amount of my time to make, mostly video edits. I don't think any of them (over 100 across 2 accounts) have ever gotten above ~50 upvotes. About a year ago, I made a post of a meme with the guy getting kicked out of the office saying "High effort and quality gifs". It got over 500 upvotes. That made it seem like people actually want that. In response, I've spent many hours doing video edits, even creating !high_quality_gifs@lemmy.sdf.org (since the LW community is parked and never will receive posts), and making content for that community until I started to get burned out on my hobby. A large percentage of what I have posted has been OC on principle. I've learned that people just don't care.

Why in the world should I keep making video edits when the entirety of the fun has been sapped out by people not caring? I could spend 8-10 hours on a project and people simply won't care because it isn't instantly digestible. Things like memes and 40-100 year old comic strips do incredibly well. It seems like the only 2 examples of high effort that get some engagement are SDF's own !unix_surrealism@lemmy.sdf.org , and !custardfist@feddit.nl. Notable mention to some of the pics communities.

I guess what I'm really ranting about here is not that the things I make aren't appreciated (because the very few comments are generally positive), but the fact that most people don't even want it around or care.

I'm not sure I can keep up the grind anymore. The joy has been sapped out of my hobby. And for what? An instantaneous downvote with every post.

She never let me grow because some dumb misdiagnosis and I could have grown like everyone else but I was in an institution that made me stagnate. I wasn't allowed outside. I wasn't allowed to SHOWER until I was 11 because "I don't know better" but I was showering at FOUR before i was misdiagnosed. I'm 26 and living the tween years I never got to experience. I never had family, just bullies and abusers. The institution forced me to be friends with hurtful people and dissolved my boundaries. I never got to grow as a kid and even today I can't even be an adult. Being an adult is a joke because of the MISdiagnosis. Being a kid was a joke because the imaginary disorder made a CHILD be CHILDISH. I want to fix that woman's mistake and die now. That woman should have NEVER had kids and if she really insisted, she should have killed me if she didn't want a "special" kid that I wouldn't have been if she gave me a chance at life.

And the last time he got this drunk, he almost killed my mom by trying to push her down the stairs. 👍 Let's just say, i'm far less than pleased that he is this pissed.

This time, there wasn't much of anything. He went to bed after I helped him get about and undress. Plugged in his phone and gave him loads of water + bucket just in case.

But you know what I hate the most? The fucking people that continually egg others on to drink and the people that do nothing about it. Mf clearly, clearly have had enough to drink. But no, "one more shot, one more shot" and he drank it. Mf could not walk in a straight line unaided.

I believe the responsibilitiy lies within the group because ofc there was people that were drinking, other people that were designated drivers who understood what was going on. Ofc he's also to blame because he gave in, which makes him the most responsible accordingly.

The worst part, I have no idea if I'm in the right to be mad. I should be fully and only mad at my dad, but i'm mad at everyone involved because in my mind they let the situation develop. No one had the balls (or ovaries, etc) to say, "stop pushing people to drink, you morons". It is one of the most basic ass human being things i've experienced with my irl friends when I first started drinking. No one pushed each other to drink. We got what we wanted and that's it. And we had that common semse at 18. 18!! They're old ass adults for crying out loud.

they are also our blood related family. Shouldn't "family" give a shit about this, especially the designated drivers who had the mental capacity to think for a minute and be like "shit, maybe we should step in. This behaviour is unacceptable" like wtfs?

Maybe i'm blowing this out of proportion. Maybe i'm an undiagnosed autist. Maybe i'm fucking wrong. If i am, PLEASE (unironically) tell me.

You're screwing up my custom styling, and giving me nothing extra in return.

Me:

List things with attribute X.

AI:

Certainly! Here are some things with attribute X!

• A - While it doesn't have X, it does Y.
• B - Also doesn't have X, it does Z!
• C - Is sorta like A, but without X support.
• D - Useful for Z, but does not have X yet.
• E - May have X (spoiler, it doesn't)
• F - [is completely hallucinated]
• B - [because we now we are repeating ourselves?]
• G - considered having X, but never did.

There's some things with attribute X. I'm such a good AI, is there anything else I can do for you?!

That's it, the title. I'm an American who goes yearly to Japan on a tourist visa, and I absolutely adore the country. I feel very at home with Japanese customs and lifestyle, and always wish I was still there when I return home. But it seems so insurmountable to immigrate to.

So many of the .001% seem to have no visible interests other than running up the score. I mean, most of us, you get to $50 billion, hell, $50 million, and you'd probably quit and spend your days doing something you found personally rewarding, rather than continuing to chase further growth. It's not like they're still working until they can afford that Jet Ski, and then bailing for Ford Lauterdale.

I almost wonder if it's meaningful to try to evaluate them as humans-- to consider whether they're consciously evil-- since it seems like they act like the Paperclip Optimizer from bad sci-fi parables. I've seen more emotional depth from a Hewlett-Packard LaserJet.

You'd think that their spending habits would reveal some element of what little soul they might have-- personal quirks, tastes, foibles. This goes beyond the usual "they could afford to end hunger and disease with couch change" complaint. They aren't doing anything interesting in ANY space! If they had any sort of interests or feelings, they have more than enough resources to make a dramatic statement with their money, and yet, they don't.

Why aren't they indulging their fancies in comical, over-the-top fashion? Instead of a box of Lionel electric trains, they could fund the T-1 Trust. If they wanted to collect coins, they could get a 1804 dollar and wear it to public events as a brooch. If they spent too much time playing Sid Meier's Civilization, surely they could buy into the executive house of some third-world country with the GDP of a typical Quizno's. Probably much better value for money than buying a flaky Mastodon-a-like to use as a Rube Goldberg machine to flip elections. At best, they strap a rocket under their ass and pay a couple plebs' life earnings for 30 seconds release from those pesky Van Allen belts, but even that seems to be just "the generic thing billionaires do" rather than being the obvious conclusion of a rich lifetime interest in astronomy or flight.

Even in their personal estates, does anyone remember anything special about them? Or is it just infinity pools, granite countertops, and rapidly-obsolescing smart technology, the same as men a hundred times poorer, but on a slightly bigger scale? Who will be so bold as to build something that will at least be a cherished monument or celebrated folly in 500 years? What is our era's Versailles or Neuschwanstein?

Hell, one of the few things we can measure from their behaviour is that they're petty and selfish, so why don't we see them systematically buying any company that ever hires their ex just so they can systematically sack them again and again? Or paying hundreds of actors so they can relive their senior year of high school, except this time, they're Prom King. Again, an excellent way to toss around your excessive status and wealth while chasing down the demons that you won't be able to smother in stock options.

At most, there might be some slant towards discernible tastes in where they splash their charitable cash, but even that plays second fiddle to collecting an efficient tax-management strategy. Maybe they toss a few bucks towards research for a disease that their sister happened to have, or to make school kids study the things you think are important, but it's still just one on the list of cheques they write because their accountants tell them to.

We should demand better. It's common to make fun of the gauche behaviour of the sudden nouveau riche-- the 19-year-old with the sportsball contract or $10 million lottery win who buys a safety orange Lamborghini and a gold necklace that Flavor Flav dismissed as too tacky, but at least they look like they are having fun with the money, like they had some idea of "let's do something cool with it" rather than letting it moulder on a spreadsheet somewhere.

At least they could do a more entertaining job of gilding their public presence-- sponsoring statues of themselves in major cities to pretend they were an important general, walking around every day like they were refugees from a catwalk or the Met Gala, running infomercials disguised as glowing life-story documentaries on cheap late-night broadcast time. Hell, use their immense commercial wrath to demand that everyone around them use some invented cockamamie title they can strut around with. Surely they can assign themselves a higher rank than a chicken fryer!

10 - 9, 2 - 1, all the same but all mean "one". And one is nothing. But if it's nothing, why I still haven't put that knife into my heart? Or fall off the edge of level 26? Is it hope or is it fear? In any imaginable case it's still no more than just some pain. But here there's no place for pain. It's just a waste of resources. Though no matter what it is, I'm still waiting for that Altair notification sound. Or I guess it's an orange circle cuz the sound is turned off.

I started it wrong (or maybe right and then switched to wrong it doesn't matter). Even though it was like 3rd attempt, it wasn't a regular attempt at all. It was something else. And it's been 14 months. Quite a lot of time if you ask me. Quite a lot of time of complete happiness. But started wrong and not fixed in time was the recipe for failure. I tried to fix it but I was never even brave enough to say one censored sentence. And it expectedly fell apart. My fault. My bad. My punishment. But guess I just never was brave and honest enough. I understand. But it's not like it's enough to start a normal life again

I guess I should only deposit money via ATM on Fridays. Or just not change my PIN so often.

Absolute bullshit. My wife's almost 60 and while generally healthy she has to take a few medicines and I'm sure she qualifies as needing Paxlovid. But when she got Covid recently, and a really nasty bout although it didn't require hospitalization, she asked for Paxlovid but was told it was no longer being used to treat Covid.

I am pissed at this article being so poorly researched. It obviously has accepted the one-sided view that patients are the reason why Paxlovid isn't being used as much. There is more to the story and they were lazy, when they had a chance to make a difference. F*cking lazy.

They are nothing more than glorified news reporters anymore. Dishing you out national news, but never giving you details that you actually want.

For example: I was looking for a friend who died and had had a big impact on my life. Her name was Marta Q- and she was a professor of medicine at a state university. Pretty easy right? Wrong.

You see another Marta with the same name who was married to a very famous man committed suicide. She wasn't in the same state. She had no affiliation with the college. She had no affiliation with medicine. The search engine didn't care about any of that.

It just knew that if I was typing in Marta Q- this is the one I was looking for. F*** that.

My parents bought me a new phone (to replace my aging brick) as a celebration gift for graduating as computer engineer.

But the damn thing does not have neither a MicroSD slot or headphone jack.

WHY DO YOU MOCK ME OH LORD???

Why does the world, mostly Presidents (and Redditors apparently) condemn the Hamas attack but never condemn the killing of innocent men, women and children in Gaza by Israel (government)?

The death toll of Palestinians apparently seemed to be on 8K(?). And still counting up.

But the Presidents seems to just seriously not give a fuck.

Has the world not learnt from the past?

• WW1?
• WW2-Nazi war?
• Srebrenica massacre?

Why is Israel allowed to basically do what the Nazi Germany did and calls it defending themselves (of innocent men, woman and children) but normal civilians protesting, asking for ceasefire or chanting an sentence is “immensely hateful and must be prohibited”?

Has the world gone nuts?

• Had to just lose my thoughts. Been really nagging me.