I studied physics, turns out people only want that for mining, gambling, banking, and weapons. Understandably I burned out hard.
Well, creeping disability has given me the push I need to go back and try follow my one regret of never having done grad school. Serendipitously I mentioned looking for projects to someone I met and he hooked me up with his mate. Now I'm going back, big field change. Conservative and ecology stuff, water remediation.
I am finally going to learn how to do something actually good for the world!
I've quit smoking, drinking is a WIP but the occasional relapse is a marked improvement from daily day drinking. Exercise is now a regular part of my life, home sitch is way more stable than my 20s.
If I fail this time then I will have failed having done my best and set myself up for success, and if that happens I won't have regrets.