I used to take Adderall for ADHD and it gave me social anxiety which wreck my social life in grade school. My senior year of high school I stopped taking it secretly and then my mother found out and so I eventually convince her that I was better without it.
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I was prescribed abilify for depression. I have medication resistant major depressive disorder and no antidepressants I've tried have been helpful. I was on it for 1 month and gained 50lbs. I was also a bit of a zombie while I was on it. It helped my anxiety, but I have to imagine this is a side-effect of the zombification and not the medication directly resolving it.
I also have CPTSD, and I'm beginning to believe that antidepressants aren't really made for us, but for the larger portion of society that's just depressed because of their subjugation to the capitalist system. The only thing that's been helpful for me is therapy, but that's a long term solution for sure. I'm doing a clinical trial where I'll be receiving psilocybin assisted therapy. I've also had good results with self medicating psychedelics, so I'm hopeful that this will be at least somewhat effective.
I cant speak to your questions directly but wanted to send some sympathy your way. The psychiatric system is completely fucked. It took so many years for me to finally get a doctor who gave a shit and got a workable medication plan.
Trust what your body is telling you. If something feels dangerously off, then you are completely valid in choosing not continue down that path.