SubArcticTundra

I don't think we realize how good we have it right now. ChatGPT is unbiased (configurable solely and fully by the user) and truly tries its best to be useful. It's surely a question of time before OpenAI lets advertisers pay them to introduce product placement and subconscious biases into the LLM in exchange for cash. This could make eg. all medical advice it gives make it seem like you need one specific, sponsoring, medication. What alternatives are there for getting the current experience when that happens? I wouldn't mind paying a small subscription to cover compute costs and retain neutrality.

I had quite a shitty life when I was younger and I feel like it's come to define me. Since I had no control over what my actual life looked like, I instead chose to define my identity by what I wanted it to look like, and what I would have done had I had the freedom to choose. So I based my identity on my made up story instead of my actual story.

FFW to today and I finally have a lot more say over what my life actually looks like. I feel like those past wishes are kinda burdening me now. I feel indebted to my past self to finally do those things I wished I could do back then in order to realize that story that I had always identified with. Because if I don't, there will be nothing in my past for me to identify with me other than that shitty life that I didn't choose.

But I've realized this is a mistake. I've realized I don't ever plan my future without first thinking of my past. This can't be good. By doing that, I am being held captive by my own history which I didn't chose. Playing catch-up with the past to fulfill the plans I based my identity on might feel very right, but it would cost a lot of time. I'd never catch up with my peers who are content with their historu and living in the present.

How do I unlearn this? It feels so deeply rooted in the way I see myself that it's gonna need some psycho shit like shrooms or something to even make my mind aware of what it's doing

Edit: I do plan on going to counselling but I wanted to see what Lemmy thinks first

I've designated one room in my house to be an Airplane Mode room. Technically it has WiFi but whenever I'm in it I behave as if my phone didn't have any reception. Believe it or not, actively pretending that your phone has no WiFi works better than just passively putting on airplane mode. I always get a sense of calmness when I enter.

What artificial limits do you impose on yourself that ultimately enrich your life?

Edit: changed title

Rest can be seen here

https://drive.google.com/drive/u/0/mobile/folders/0B0Swx_1rwA6XcFFLc29ncFJSZmM?usp=sharing

Feels pretty fitting for today