Yeah I've come to that realization as well, looking back I was just trying to rationalize it away. Thank you for reaffirming what I already kind of new deep down but didn't want to admit.
Just got home from Poker, won some money, and shared some good laughs so I'm feeling better now.
I'll take the advice others have given and just cherish the friendship without pushing anymore. As another user said the ball is in her court now and, as you say, she was indeed very polite with her denial, which is cool, so I'll try to take it in stride. She's still a great person and I'm blessed to have her in my life. There's really no point in ruining that just because I can't get over my ego. Thank you for the feedback comrade <3
Uncritical support to comrade Deng in his heroic struggle to liberate the USian working class from their assigned gender o7