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Found an image on TrueRef that has some energy i had to draw for some reason

2001 Chrysler Sebring LXi, 2.7 V6

This thing was sitting out for 3 years under a tree, it's gotten the full cleaning treatment, some engine work, and an hour drive to get a sensor for the transmission (thank god it worked).

Luckily when I was ready to leave all the windows got stuck down and I had to spend 8 hours rebuilding every single regulator and nightmare steel wire hell wheel so I wouldn't get rained on. I curse whoever decided unflexible untreated steel wire was great for moving windows up and down.

At least it drove me home today

Been cleaning my office out and I decided to finally build some tables from scratch. Plan on having them go floor to ceiling in height with shelves and shit

A bit of an ask I'm throwing out there before I go to bed, but I need some advice so...

I've always had low levels of neurotransmitters, basically, when I'm unmedicated, I go into states of moderately decreased mental activity that used to express itself as depression. Since I've gotten a better understanding on it I have noticed when it's (A) Going to happen and (B) How much it is crippling my ability to function properly.

Essentially I become a barely functional brick, just kinda sit there and stare off for long periods, and at work I make a ton more mistakes and just generally perform worse, and I also can't work on my hobbies as my art is noticeably worse and the motivation isn't there. It's like depression just without the emotional component. And the worst part is knowing what's going on, but it takes almost 5 minutes longer to get the answers correct when it would usually hit me instantly.

Because america is america and I am unfortunately amer ican, my access to medication has been cut off for quite some time now. And since the medication I used to take wears off fully after a few years, I've began to notice the full brunt of those depressive episodes again.

Since I have the ability to predict, know I'm in, and understand the disorder, what are some reasonable ways to prop myself up when it hits. My focus is basically 0 when it gets its worse so the best kind of crutch would be something that doesn't require my full attention, but I can understand why such a thing might not exist, I just need something to do that isn't just sitting blankly with all my motivation getting sucked out when I want and need it the most, or something that can help me sharpen my mind when it's the most blunt.

I use the most recent LMMS git version for my music + a ton of extensions, feedback would be nice

Or health, in a sense. Recently I've been seriously overworking myself, but the only signs that I can notice early on are mental. Such as being unable to stay on a task or project for more than 10 minutes at a time max, or forgetting how to talk properly and slurring my speech.

And to put in perspective how exhausted my actual body is, I've been just straight up collapsing, barely able to walk straight, shaky noodle legs and the such. But I don't notice any actual physical problem until I literally fall over, and then I'm like "Oh, I should sleep or stop and relax" or something.

Is this a thing anyone else experiences? I was diagnosed with the AuDD combo a while back but I've been unmedicated, since being poor in America and all that.