TeraByteMarx

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[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 6 points 14 hours ago

Today I would like the button to eradicate all gender within me and all external perception of gender towards me

Leader of the freedom fight! Nice

This may be a source of unrealistic optimism when it comes to having better control over my own mental health symptoms but I'll take it.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 3 points 1 week ago (2 children)

I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't witnessed her do it yesterday and felt her body temperature change. I didn't know people were capable of that.

 

My wife learned to do this because she was bored in class as a kid.

Maybe a negativity schema from a parent who was very tightly wound and anxious. Kids learn this stuff before the age of five. I know that if I have ten positive interactions and one negative then the negative one is going to dictate the narrative I tell myself about the world. If you know what to look for it makes it possible to catch yourself falling into patterns of thought, identify why and learn to see things a bit differently. It doesn't invalidate anything you've been through.

Someone who's hyper independent would prefer solitude and would likely have problems with relationships for a number of reasons including being really out of practice. And not having any reference point for understanding what a secure attachment looks and feels like.

You can have a significant preference for being alone, require a great deal of quiet time and still suffer from social isolation.

It's all interconnected, we're not designed to live a life alone.

Having said that I still wish people would stop approaching me when I leave the house :/

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 points 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago) (1 children)

Pointing out to who? For what purpose? Why do they unanimously prefer the picture on the left to begin with? Do you think the person on the right needs to be told they're sexually desirable? Where do you think this picture came from originally? Can we talk about the larger themes without talking about personal preferences? Because they're telling on themselves and it's going over your head.

That isn't male sexuality, it's a telling lack of critical thinking skills that's disappointing to see on Lemmy.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 0 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 4 weeks ago)

It certainly is when the discussion should be about the fucking pedos leading these shit stains. Context m8.

They like little innocent malleable girls, so when you see the juxtaposition and decide to offer your dicks 2 cents, yeah it's a gross red flag that no one needs to hear. Don't understand why you'd feel the need to mention it in the first place? If you work it out let me know.

 

My better half put me onto this game and it's been a great distraction over the past month or so. It's a mobile game which is ideal because pain can make it hard to game on a laptop sometimes. Thought it'd be worth mentioning here.

Also good for people who are trying to minimise doom scrolling but find it hard to get off the phone

 

New psych talking about justice sensitivity. Relatable but seems like a bit of a joke given the state of the world

 
 

Can't shake the pervasive feeling that every person I pass is a threat to my wife, that we might get attacked for being trans. Being around people was never easy even when I wasn't visibly queer and trans. People are exhausting and I don't trust their stated motivations. I don't like the way we're looked at, when I do make eye contact with someone I regularly see extremely negative emotions written on their face. Feel unsafe and incompetent and anger starts to build up.

I'm four months on T this month and the decision to start was pretty significantly influenced by these feelings and the fear it would only continue to get worse. It feels impossible to begin to start interacting with people again, logically I know it's the next necessary step but anxiety, trauma make it super easy to avoid indefinitely. Does anyone relate or have advice?

 
 
 
 
 
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