My main concern is that I've only put in like 28 hours a week for the last few weeks. My money situation is less than desirable.
Ended up taking a mental health day/vto today. Woke up with some kind of anxiety shit that was making me feel physically ill. Kinda wish we lived in a society that allowed for days off of work without feeling guilt and worrying about next week's paycheck.
Is this a real post on social media, by the US's sitting president?
Can someone tell me how I should feel about Platner?
The dude gets a Nazi tattoo while serving in the military, he has a history of sexual predation, then there is his now scrubbed reddit account that was allegedly full of racist comments, and there are allegations that he was a guard at Abu Ghraib. I get that somethings might be made up to attack his character, but to me, the multiple military deployments is where I'm stuck on.
And something about him being such a "radical socialist" rubs me wrong regardless. I can't put my finger on it.
I have an anarchist friend that is arguing with me on FB but is stuck on Platner's military history and I can understand his point being that people change and radicalize in that system. I've seen it before. But the last time I've seen it, I ended up in a discussion with another anarchist about a PSL member that served in the military. So, like military service... I know a lot of people sign up because they are after financial security, and I get that. And I also get that people radicalize in the military. One of my favorite rappers, Bambu, did just that.
But I'm getting mixed signals from similar scenarios from 2 different anarchists and maybe my dialectics of this whole situation is skewed in the wrong way?
I think right now my head is at this: Joining the military in hopes for financial security in the way of education and early retirement can be a noble way to go, but joining to "save the world from the savage terrorists that want to destroy the US" really isn't the way. So I guess maybe it boils down to Platner's intentions when he enlisted?
I'm just happy it's over. I guess in like 4 years I might have to start paying child support which is cool since I won't be able to afford to. But I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. I get to finally live my life for what feels like the first time. I'm gonna just work on me.
Nothing like dissociating at your own divorce finalization at the court house. I just want this shit to finally be over.
If I did manage to start one, we could find something for you to do so you feel like you are giving back in a meaningful way. My broken human ass would love to do meal prep and cooking.
Not meaning to sound dramatic but the Gender Accelerationist Manifesto changed my life for the better: https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/vikky-storm-the-gender-accelerationist-manifesto
With how my history of employment is, I kind of wanna just give up on conventional employment and start a commune. I've bee doing some research and it would be hella hard at first but once systems are in place, I think it would be doable. I've talked to a few friends and 3 of them seem on board with the idea but I'm not sure how hard they think this endeavor might be.
Maybe I'm being silly about this whole thing though. But I just really can't keep doing the "job search for a year > have a job for 1.5 years > get fired and start over" cycle anymore. I started looking passively for a new job and it just feel gross at this point.
Anyway, it's Pride Month. I hope everyone enjoys all the mega-corporations changing their logos. Love for all my disabled, trans, queer, and enby siblings. 
So... pull out my 401k?
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Is this euphoria?
I don't post here much, and well on hb much lately. I identify as agender/demi depending on the day. I also identify as I guess aceflux? I am like 99% sure I'm ace but I float between vanilla asexual, and demisexual, and I guess a few others, depending on the day.
But here goes. I've been trying to dress a bit more androgynous lately. I've been painting my nails more lately and am playing around with some gender-neutral accessories. I have big ass pork chop sideburns and a mohawk currently. So I guess the big thing is when people notice my nails. But anywho, I was at a gas station last week, wearing what I usually wear lately. Mostly masc but a touch of fem. The gas station cashier sort of gave me shit over my outfit. I don't think he was intentionally meaning to be rude but he was like "so, is that your 'style'?"
I thought about it at the bar later the whole time and I think my conclusion is that I guess I'm not fully passing as a male? I thought about it again on the drive home from the bar and a wave of emotions came over me. Like for a brief moment, I just felt like "me" which I never really do unless I'm home alone just chilling.
I might be overthinking this tho. Idk.