Is this euphoria?
I don't post here much, and well on hb much lately. I identify as agender/demi depending on the day. I also identify as I guess aceflux? I am like 99% sure I'm ace but I float between vanilla asexual, and demisexual, and I guess a few others, depending on the day.
But here goes. I've been trying to dress a bit more androgynous lately. I've been painting my nails more lately and am playing around with some gender-neutral accessories. I have big ass pork chop sideburns and a mohawk currently. So I guess the big thing is when people notice my nails. But anywho, I was at a gas station last week, wearing what I usually wear lately. Mostly masc but a touch of fem. The gas station cashier sort of gave me shit over my outfit. I don't think he was intentionally meaning to be rude but he was like "so, is that your 'style'?"
I thought about it at the bar later the whole time and I think my conclusion is that I guess I'm not fully passing as a male? I thought about it again on the drive home from the bar and a wave of emotions came over me. Like for a brief moment, I just felt like "me" which I never really do unless I'm home alone just chilling.
I might be overthinking this tho. Idk.


bump. I was in a similar boat with bills a few years back.