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I took down my last post for rent. I'll try to figure it out.

I was finally able to get pain meds for my foot. It got upgraded from sprained to broken. Work won't cover it because I'm not actually on worker's comp. I can't afford to be on comp until my foot is healed so I opted for light duty. For now I'm just hoping to offset the cost I had to pay out of pocket(no insurance) so I can focus on the rest of my financial woes. As always, any bit helps.

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Thanks, comrades.

So long story short but there was a TikTok of a girl translating poorly translated Chinese character tattoos and one translated to "rice cooker". I made a comment about getting it, it gain traction so I said if I get a bunch of likes I'll do it. Last I saw before the post was re-uploaded, my comment was at 700 or so likes.

Well fuck it I'm gonna go ahead with it. But considering the post in question, I was hoping some people on here can confirm that Google's translation is accurate. I compared it to the image in the video and it seems right but still. I don't know Chinese so I'm trusting random strangers for a dumb meme tattoo.

Here's Google's translation:

Here's a still from the video:

Tinder sort of just randomly sends you people after 3 days of being like "there is no one in your area". That's fine because in my area, it's nothing but tradwives, country music, and fishing profiles.

I tried Veggly because a super bonus point is finding someone to chill with that is also vegan. Well, there's like 4 people in my area on there. Sort of figured but lol anyway. There are a few more if you check like 500 miles away but not quite looking for the nomadic life just yet.

Tried Feeld, and no. Just no. I'm open to various relationship dynamics but that ain't it.

Tried Hinge, it was mostly dead until I changed my gender back to male and put that I'm only looking for women. Feels a bit disingenuous but whatever. But again in my area, I keep getting Christian tradwives and shit.

And if you find someone that seems nice on these dumb apps, they have to like you back before they can communicate with you. But... but... you can spend $149.99 to see who liked you. Not predatory at all. Just me heading back to the dating slop machine to toss more money at it to see who likes my ugly ass.

But like I've seen a few that I genuinely liked but will never be able to contact since it's all behind a paywall.

Saturday evening I matched on Tinder with 3 people. First one, said hey and they unmatched, second one I waited for them to say hey, then replied and they unmatched. 3rd one flatout ghosted me.

I got a "like" notification from a random old dude yesterday on Tinder but my profile isn't even set for interested in men.

I redid my entire Hinge and Tinder profile like 3 times each.

On Bumble I got a like notification and actually spent $25 to see who it was. She was cute, seemed nice. So we talked a bit, she gave me her number and we talked on the phone some. We talked a bit about our own messed up lives. She had breast cancer, which isn't a dealbreaker, she's ND as fuck, but so am I. We went on a date. It was awkward. First her pics on Bumble were from like 15 years ago. The whole date was awkward, but towards the end we decided to go for a walk and the conversation was just about exes. Which is never a good sign. Then my ex actually fucking called me because the kids wanted to show me their Legos. That caused me to spiral all over again. So still processing the divorce. Went home and got trashed and realized that I'm not gonna be a good fit for this person that I went on the date with. She needs someone that can take care of her. I can't even take care of myself.

I'm probably done with even trying to find someone that fits me. I'm too old to start over. This city sucks for trying to find anyone remotely close to my personality.

This shit is just fucking depressing.

Thanks for coming to my rouxTALK.

Edit: I'm buried in the comments but at work rn. I'll try to get to the rest tonight. I honestly didn't think this would gain much conversation since it was met to be me screaming in the void. ❤️🖤

Gonna post again. Last week was a dud but I understand since it was end of month and a few comrades needed rent taken care of and stuff. I think I locked in a moving truck rental and charges to pay people to move my stuff since I don't have any friends to help. With as little of stuff I need moved, I think I'm looking at $300 for the Uhaul and moving people. But as always, any little bit helps.

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I'm getting a divorce and finally have a place to live but it won't be ready until the end of October. I'm temporarily staying at a friend's mom's place. After getting most of the stuff I need for the new place, the bank account is getting pretty low. I am working 4 days up from 3 because otherwise I won't be able to afford the place, so this post is meant to cushion the blow on my account. It's going to help with the cost to hire movers and the last few things I need. Any bit helps but I also know there are a few other people in this comms with some major needs too.

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Thanks!

Also I make websites so if anyone needs one or know someone that does, I'd love to work out some sort of deal with them. I can go cheaper than my posted prices if it means they get a website and I get some cash.

It's probably not gonna happen but I might have a job opportunity but it hinges on me learning and knowing Angular. Does anyone have any suggestions on tutorials and/or is the Tutorial on the official site good enough?

I have a background in Vanilla JS, some ReactJS, TypeScript(need to work on it), AstroJS Java, and some Kotlin. All of that is self-taught. But I also have C# and ASP.net experience from college. Just to put it in perspecitve on where I am at. Also I probably use ChatGPT as a crutch too much but that is because I don't have anyone to really ask for help when I get stuck.

Basically the title. I'm involved in a local leftist group that is organizing but the subject on misogyny was brought up because we've had some issues of men in the group talking over the women in the group or dismissing them. A comrade and I are trying to come up withe some texts for education to address this issue but we've both realized this is a blind spot in our theory knowledge. I suggested Caliban and the Witch and The Second Sex but after that I'm kind of drawing a blank.

Any and all suggestions are appreciated as always. Marxist and anarchist texts are both welcome.

Thanks!

Is No Man's Sky a good game after all the updates and fixing and adding all the stuff they promised?

I love space stuff but am not the biggest fan of Minecraft style crafting/mining. I don't mind it in Stardew and factory games are a favorite genre of mine, for reference. Basically I like the mechanics but it matters how they are implemented.

I've been trying to find a game that I can just turn my brain off and chill after a long day and right now Stardew is starting to get a bit stale(or I'm just dreading winter since there isn't much to do).

The game looks beautiful and I did spend maybe 100 hours on Starbound, which is like 2D NMS I think, but even on sale, it's at the upper limit I'd like to spend.

The other game is Hyperlight Drifter and it's $6 right now so I'm probably gonna get that one regardless.

Edit: I went ahead and grabbed it. I think my kid will also enjoy watching me play it.

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I would like to just reiterate that this a safe space for radlibs and illiterate patsocs. We do not tolerate tankie shenanigans here.

I'm honestly a little bit hesitant to ask this because don't wanna seem like I'm stepping on toes.

So I've been doing some thinking stuff over the last few weeks/months and am starting to question shit.

I've always been cis male presenting and for the most part it's all I've really known, but I'm not in the least bit masculine. Back in the early 00s, the term metro-sexual was a thing and I sort of identified with that but like, meh? Idk. Now that just feels chauvinistic for some reason.

Recently I've been thinking about my own gender identity and although I present as a male, I honestly don't really care. I also have that autism(or is it just ND?) thing where I feel like a being or entity in a human suit basically. Like my inner self is controlling the body that people see me as, which is, of course male presenting.

I've been looking a bit into agender and demigender and hit some of the checkboxes but not really all, but I also don't really know another term for essentially "male body but don't care". A reddit search brought up "gender apathy" and that's a kind of maybe I guess.

The only other conclusion is that I am just cis, but fully aware of it maybe? Like I have a way wider understanding of gender and even sexuality than I did a decade ago so maybe I'm just cis and just not toxic about it? I'm just "woke" maybe?

I guess call this a journal-post but def open for discussion. I'm just going through some heavy mental exploration. I'm not sure if there is even a question here. Just me being confused.

I guess a question could be: how do you know? How do you know where you land on the gender spectrum? Or am I just making a mountain out of a molehill?

Long story short but I finally caved and made a TikTok account.

I'm looking for commie and anarchist content creators. Theory bro stuff too.

Oh and any neurodivrgent creators is also a plus. Autism, ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety, etc. related content would be great.

Any creators you think are just all around chill are also welcome.

TIA.

E: For some reason I wasn't able to follow anyone but logged out and back in yesterday and was able to follow 14 more people before it shit the bed again. Is this a common thing?