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On this mega I shall take the opportunity to rant about one of my favorite things: the Webnovel UNJUST DEPTHS!
Do you love transgenders?
Do you love communism?
Do you love queer romance?
Do you love killing fascists in a giant fucking mech?
Would a plotline with all of these things happening in a underwater retro-futuristic gundam setting intrigue you?
Especially if its actually really well written with good characters, rich worldbuilding, and a marxist leninist transfem author?
All of the answers should be: YES I DO ~~or else I WILL BAN YOU~~
Since you obviously love all of those things then Unjust Depths is perfect for YOU yes YOU! It is DESTINY
The Imbrian Ocean is at a time of severe instability. The monarch of the vast Empire that spans its unjust depths (:3) is sick and nearing death, every territory of the ocean now vying to carve their own Destiny out of the chaos. From the Volk fascists 
, Zionists 
(they literally will not die why are they still here oh my god), The 'Anarchists' (social chauvanists) 
in Bosporus, and the monarchs 
of each vast noble domain, each vies for power and prestige no matter who they crush underfoot, but it would be a pretty depressing story without a bright light in the dark.
On the edge of the Empire sits the glorious Union! The (Soviet) Union 
is a socialist federation of three states (and one anarchist mountain 
)that were formerly slave colonies under the Imbrian Empire until they broke away in a fierce liberation war. They have spent the last 20 years since then building themselves up. Whether they be Human 
, Shimmi 
(Catgirls who usually follow a religion closely related to modern Islam), and Kattaran 
(a hybrid humanoid species with characteristics of sea life ranging from sharks to cuttlefish)building socialism side by side.
First lead under the revolutionary leader Dashka Kansal, then the Idealist Ahwalia who lead the country to near ruin in pursuit of building a utopia on pillars of sand, then under the scientific socialist 
leadership of the Grand Marshall of the Union, Bhavani Jayanskar (I love Jayanskar so much shes basically as if Stalin, Lenin, and Zhukov were rolled into the same person but was a black lesbian badass who wore the uniform REALLY WELL)(she aint the main character at all tho shes only in very few scenes i just love her so much). Under Jayanskar, the Union has been growing their economy to both eliminate hunger and give everyone a home 
, but also growing their military capabilities for the inevitable return of the Empire. The Union is alone, but with the people by its side nothing, not even Destiny, can snuff out true freedoms light. 
As war wages between the Empire and Republic (basically underwater USA) once more over the lands between them, the facade begins to finally crack...
And a border conflict between the Empire and Union escalate, and the dreaded reconquest begins.
Amidst this turmoil, lives our main characters (yes there are multiple and all of them are lovely). Each of whom I personally love dearly, and are very well characterized. Many are soldiers of the Union, some are scientists, some are divers (mech pilots), some are lost strands finding new meaning after joining this band of Brigands
All are Communists 
All serve the Union 
All would gladly give their lives to defending socialism 
but even they would have little inkling of the adventure set in store for them as the lands beneath the waves erupt in fire, fury, and revolt
Can these transgender badasses kick fascist ass?
Can they kiss? (oh my god please kiss ISTG THERE IS SO MUCH SHIPPING AHHHH ITS GLORIOUS)
FIND OUT HERE: https://unjustdepths.com/
please do or else I will pout incessantly
just try it pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase i need to talk to someone about it after Cromalin went AFK
(I miss her, she was a real one)
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I think I am possibly gender fluid or some sort of non binary identity with a lot of fluidity, but I basically was abused out of my ability to exist as a man in society, which led to me essentially needing to live as a binary trans women, albeit with a different perspective....
Idk if my first comment came off as insensitive because obviously abuse isn’t cool and describing the effects of abuse as cool was a bit weird of me. So I’m sorry for framing it that way.
I suppose I find it intriguing that your environment can change your gender identity. But I think that some gender fluid people would also say that their environment changes the way they selfidentify so it’s probably not a super rare phenomenon and it would make sense for you to describe yourself as gender fluid or non binary with fluidity.
oh your comment diddnt come off wrong to me at all dw
While I do, at least conceptually, think i could be described as genderfluid/non-binary. In practical terms, I would rather jump out of a window than live as a man in any capacity ever again. So regardless of the reasons for that, I feel as if identifying as a binary trans woman best describes me to other people dexpite my expereince of getting here being vastly diffrent from most trans people. There is also the possibility that my expereince is just an unsual, but still binary, trans-fem experience and im just overanlyizing so much, as if you just look at the (external) tangables of my entire transition (I am now happier living as a woman than I ever have been, more confident than i ever have been, have no desire to live as a man ever again, love the way my body works on estrogen, had bottom surgery and was incredibly happy with it) it reallly does just seem like im a binary trans girl.... idk
I think your experience is pretty unique on that front which makes it difficult to communicate when there might not not really a ‘label’ that perfectly describes it. Tbh genderfluid and binary trans women both seem like they could describe part of your identity so I don’t really see why you wouldn’t be able to use both. The genderfluid part kind of explains why your genderidentity could change like that in the past and the binary trans woman part describes how you currently identify and live your life.
It’s also possible that you were always transfemme, is it possible that you had very repressed feelings about your gender before you transitioned?
When I found out I was trans it kind of felt like I woke up from a dream because it was the first time that I really had some sense of my own identity. Before that I only looked at myself from a very material perspective never thought about if my body felt like it belonged to me or what I would like to look like. When I look back though I can pinpoint some moments where I felt really disconnected from my body but wasn’t able to identify that feeling yet.
Trauma makes everything difficult though in my experience because its effects contaminate most of your memories, thoughts and feelings which makes it difficult for me at least to understand when a feeling is caused by trauma and when it is related to being trans or something else.
I agree with you in the fact that it's hard for me to examine my past gender identity because so much of it is tainted by the constant abuse that was my childhood. How can I objectively say how I felt as a boy when I was literally attacked on a daily basis in part due to my femininity (I was very flamboyant and not white in a VERY conservative small town). I think that's part of the reason why I tend to just want to leave all of that behind me and just identify as binary; parsing that terrible part of my life in my own mind is hard enough, let alone explaing that to people as I telll them I'm gender fluid, but actually I am functionally the most binary trans woman ever please don't treat me as a man I'll cry... lol