Heya Everyone, new Mega time and for it, I'm gonna advertise a TTRPG system called Thirsty Sword Lesbians.
A sword duel can end in kissing, a witch can gain her power by helping others find love, and an entire campaign can be built around wandering matchmakers flying from system to system.
Thirsty Sword Lesbians is a roleplaying game for telling queer stories with friends. If you love angsty disaster lesbians with swords, you have come to the right place.
In this book, you’ll find:
Flirting, sword-fighting, and zingers in a system designed for both narrative drama and player safety.
An innovative take on the Powered by the Apocalypse family of games.
Nine character types, each focusing on a particular emotional conflict: Beast, Chosen, Devoted, Infamous, Nature Witch, Scoundrel, Seeker, Spooky Witch, and Trickster.
Guidance and support for running the game, including how to make appealing adversaries, set the tone, pace the game, and structure play.
Tools to create your own settings and stories, alongside a dozen pre-written options including the cyberpunk Neon City 2099, steamfunk poets battling oppression as Les Violettes Dangereuses, laser swords and intrigue in the Starcross Galaxy, and more.
World building worksheet for custom scenarios and starting scenario seeds to play with: Best Day of Their Lives, The Constellation Festival, Gal Paladins, and Sword Lesbians of the Three Houses Variant rules to highlight different identities, emotional connections, and setting elements.
Strategies to adapt any setting where swords cross and hearts race for Thirsty Sword Lesbians.
Here's a link to their website, I did copy everything over directly from it because I put off writing the Mega this week. I was drawing a blank on what I wanted to talk about. 
https://evilhat.com/product/thirsty-sword-lesbians/
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100% correlation between these things.It's very hard to tell what actually makes you dysphoric when you feel unsafe.
You're feeling fear caused by a family who is hostile towards your existence. Your dysphoria might be a release valve. You want to make the pain stop now, so you think, "if only I had bottom surgery, I wouldn't feel this way. I could feel better instantly."
If you were living in a safe and accepting environment, you might find that actually your genitals don't really matter to you much in terms of your transition.
Btw I only say this because it's how I react to stress and dysphoria. Earlier on in my transition when I was still closeted, I was really focused on having breasts/a vagina. After I came out and have been living openly among friends and family, I realized that I didn't really care about those things much. They were just things I wanted because I thought they could ease the pain immediately.
I needed the space to explore, and so do you. I honestly think you need to start considering finding a safe place away from your family as a necessary and foundational part of your transition. Like, if you're scared now, imagine how scary it's going to be hiding HRT. They'll find out eventually. You can't hide it forever.
And if you're worried for your safety, then I believe you that it's an unsafe situation. I just hope you can be safe.
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Can I make something else the release valve :/That makes a lot of sense, thank you.
I don't know how to be able to move away. I feel so stuck. And yea its wil/would be terrifying. I'm not sure if I can. I just really want to feel better and don't want things getting worse. It already feels like it is going to be really hard to be happy with myself and I don't want it getting worse. But maybe I should I just- I don't know how to get there right now.
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I don't think you can choose how your stress manifests, but you can recognize when it is manifesting and try to calm down.Step 1 would be to try to find a job to give you some independence. I know you have worked before. Another thing would to find a friend who you can crash with in case of emergency. there are people on matrix who know of support networks.
Other than that, focus on body positivity and the things in your transition that you have control over.
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Kinda what I feared/figured.I have a job. Its only part time though and I'm not sure how I could turn it into full time. I'm planning/considering coming out to my irl friends (really just one couple). No one on matrix knows anyone close to me unfortunately.
How can I be positive about a body I hate. If I could love this body that would obviously be better but I can't. It's horrible. I literally don't know what you mean. What things do I have control over, like shaving?
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It sounds like you're taking the right steps! Keep going!Yes, some maintenance is good. But I think there are internal things related to your transition. Like even thinking of yourself as a woman and being comfortable with that and feeling like it's true is a big step that can be made without bodily changes.