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things with my mom went pretty okay. We didn't talk about it at first but then when I was talking about health insurance at my new job she had a bit of a spiel about starting mammograms early since i'm at higher risk of breast cancer due to hers. She did balk at my recollection that guidelines suggest waiting until 5 years of HRT (which is true) but no matter how you cut it seems like i'll be starting at ~30. I don't mind her harping on that so much because I know it's something of a love language for her and she has the good sense to recognize i'm capable of making my own healthcare decisions.

We talked more about my identity and pronouns and stuff. It did feel a little more interrogatey than I would've liked but this time I had confidence in myself which really made a difference. I think we're gonna be okay

I've brought up cartoons by allies that depict trans people in transphobic ways, I really like this cartoon because it doesn't do that.

In part because it doesn't have a big arrow to the trans people

But short boy with undercut gives me transmasc vibes, and tall girl with hoop earrings gives me transfem vibes. And I get non binary vibes from the teal topped person between them.

Also I saw a comment where a boomer said. "Why is there three lesbian couples?" Which was really funny.

going to see my family for the first time since starting girl mode. nervous as hell, despite them knowing everything, calling me by my name, even my parents got over their initial reaction and are chill-kind about it. nevertheless i’m still freaked out by being perceived. which is frustrating given how being perceived as ME is literally the point of all this, but i internalized a crushing fear of being seen as a kid that is fucking me up to this day. hopefully this is good exposure therapy for enjoying being myself rather than being afraid of it

Visiting with my mom today. Wearing properish makeup (foundation, mascara, eyeshadow) and an outfit I will describe as "look ma, I've got tits now" so we'll see how it goes. I say 20% chance of her crashing out

I had a dream last night where ashinadash was posting under a new name.

Also miss Thallo, last time I talked to her was like 18 months ago. She said she'd come back and message me but hasn't. Hope she's okay out there.

I spent 120 Canadian fun bucks to buy ethereum to buy estrogen and fucked it up because I didn't read a guide and now I don't have girl juice nor do I have my money and now some random crypto asshole has my womoney because I sent it to the wrong bajillion digit crypto wallet. Pity me, and let my woes be a cautionary tale to do the reading lest you hurl money into the void.

Okay, I'm not sick but I didn't sleep as much as I wanted to

@peanutbuttercupola@hexbear.net I wrote a reply to this but figured I'd post it as a new comment so it doesn't get buried:

They are! But maybe even more importantly bush and back country flying has increased connection between remote and isolated communities, often indigenous ones. Unfortunately in many cases I'm guessing it also brought imperialism and settler-colonialism to places they otherwise would've struggled to reach. But that doesn't need to be the case. Canada and the USA (in particular in Alaska) made heavy use of bush planes and float planes to exchange resources, deliver mail, and transport people to, from, and in between previously isolated communities that would've required dangerous or extremely long and laborious journeys on land as opposed to a few hours at most in the air. The DHC-2 Beaver is a particularly recognizable example that ruled the Canadians and Alaskan back country with it's relatively large and powerful engine and high lift wing that let it fly lots of cargo (almost 1 ton) and people (6 passengers):

The beaver is one of my favorite planes, but these days it's outclassed in Canada and Alaska by larger turbo-props like the Cessna 208 Caravan which can carry 13 passengers or a bit over a ton of cargo: or the twin engine DHC-6 Twin Otter that can carry up to 20 people or 1.8 tons with a light fuel load:

But it wasn't just capitalist settler colonial states that made use of float planes to link remote communities. The USSR produced and operated my favorite bush plane of all time which still services difficult to access remote villages, the Antonov An-2:

The An-2 could carry over 2 tons of payload and had seating for 12, all from a 1940s design. Being a biplane with very large high lift wings and a very powerful engine, it could fly extremely slowly even compared to the Beaver, which gave it incredible short takeoff and landing capabilities even for a modern bush plane let alone one of its size. But just as or more important than its technical abilities were the way it was used. Flying was a difficult to afford luxury for indigenous communities in the USA and Canada that required trading significant amounts of their resources away to the settlers who would own and operate these planes to earn a profit off of transport fares. In the USSR, these flights were subsidized and their intention was specifically to improve the lives of the communities they served, rather than turn a profit. I don't know how often the float plane variant of the An-2 was used for this, or if there are any still flying passengers, but I did find a video of a wheeled variant still carrying passengers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jvdMAQu9kg

mfw I cant post pics of myself in c/cute cause I would doxx myself

It just dawned on me that my 2 year transiversery for starting hrt was yesterday. It also just dawned on me I’m like 3 days late this week on my shot.

In honor of pride month I started listening to an audiobook called Dreadnought. It’s about a trans girl who inherits superpowers and it’s really good. I usually only listen to books at work but I ended up listening to it at home while working on my ebike project. I just started book 2 last night and I’m already a few hours into it.

shaved everything except the eyebrows and hair, feeling nice and smooth

cw depression stuff

also im back on anti-depressants so that's smoothing my peaks and valleys. just don't know tbh, feels like i've been depressed for such a long period of my life that my brain doesn't know how to not be depressed. year without meds and i was in a horrible place again even with transitioning and hrt and everything. i'm just...tired