Moss

joined 2 years ago
[–] Moss@hexbear.net 7 points 15 hours ago

ok she got into a master's! i wish she had said that in less vague terms lol, but im very relieved its good news

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 15 points 20 hours ago (1 children)

my friend texted me "i have forgotten to tell you something important" at 6:30 am today and she has not followed up. zero idea what that means. not fun for anxiety

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Things have been getting better and better for me! I started on sertraline two months ago and the difference it's made is insane. The only downside is that I can't cum nearly as often but that's a small price to pay. Also I want to give credit to myself as well. I've been going to therapy and getting a lot out of it, I've been talking about mental health with my friends and family and I've been having a healthier diet and exercise routine.

Which brings me to what went really well for me last week, which is that I did a 3km walk into college and then did a workout or a swim four days last week. And I felt really really good about it, and I'm very motivated to go again. I had some muscle pain after the first day but I didn't let that stop me, and it went away very quickly as I kept exercising. I've also been eating better. I've cut out a lot of snacks, and I'm having breakfast nearly every day now.

Mentally, I've realised just how depressed I was for the last few years, and I've only noticed that because I'm not that depressed anymore. I can recognize that the ways I was just passing time until the end of the day were unhealthy coping mechanisms, and I feel much fresher and have more energy now. I still have ADHD, obviously, and I'm not a productivity freak like some of my neurotypical friends, but I've felt like I can take more actions in a day now. One thing I noticed is that I'm not inexhaustible even when I feel great. I went for an early walk and swim yesterday and had to lie down all afternoon because I just had no energy. But I'm glad I was using yo my energy at least

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 7 points 2 days ago

Last night I dreamt that I went to a nude beach in Portugal and some American lady yelled at me for having my butt out

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 7 points 3 days ago (7 children)

What fictional character made you go "oh hmm hang on I'm not cis maybe"? For me it was Kris Deltarune. I saw them eating moss and being nonbinary and I was like. Hmm. Yes. I can get behind that

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 12 points 3 days ago (3 children)

I was never a huge fan of Coke, Fanta or McDonald's, but since I started boycotting them I have realized how much I don't like them. I don't miss them at all, and I don't know what keeps drawing people back to that crap

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 44 points 3 days ago (10 children)

Like the world is getting worse and worse and I'm just supposed to do what? Study for my exams? Clean the dishes? It's so insane

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 59 points 3 days ago (14 children)

Is anyone else really really scared by the world at the moment? It feels like everything is spiralling so quickly

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 9 points 4 days ago

Couldn't be me for real because I've become uncomfortably aware of how I live my life and am actively changing

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 7 points 4 days ago

depression talk, basically just a stream of conciousness rambleits wild that i can feel myself changing, because you generally dont notice how much you change until later, but i can feel myself coming out of depression. ive only just realised how bad a place i was in. i was really socially isolated, i barely did anything with my time, i felt like i only had a few hours in a day where i could be "productive" and the rest of that was just devoted to doing or being on autopilot. and while i was going through it i didnt realise how unhealthy that was. but now i do, and i can feel myself wanting to be more productive, and more social, and have more time in the day to be a real person. im still not where i want to be. my biggest problem is my serious weed addiction. but i want to overcome that problem now, whereas before it didnt. it felt like a lifeline, now it feels like i dont need it anymore. dammit ive lived up to the depressed stoner stereotype. but i can recognise that that's bad, and i'm in a better place now! like i actually feel a lot lighter, and thats crazy!

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 6 points 4 days ago

started watching house md. wilson is so hot

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 13 points 4 days ago

Fr though I love Elliot. I don't even watch anything he's in or care about him as an actor, but he's easily the highest profile transmasc celebrity. And for him to transition with so many eyes on him, with so much judgement, with so much negativity, was really brave. He's inspirational

 

Their colour is so misleading, because red food should be like really tangy and strong. Either sweet like a strawberry or cranberry, or savoury like ketchup. Tomatoes taste like they should be a pale green or yellow, but they're red. It's fucked up.

 

I've been living with depression since I was 14. It felt inescapable, but for a couple of years, I was doing really well. I stopped going to therapy, I was able to handle bad things, anxiety wasn't tearing me apart, I had goals I wanted to achieve. Then in the last two years of college, my depression came back worse than ever. Trying to get better isn't even on the table, right now I'm just trying to want to get better.

But for a few years, I was able to think to myself that I was happy, and that depression was a thing of the past. For the life of me, I can't remember why. I feel like I'm doomed to be stuck in a cycle of falling in and out of depression for years at a time at best.

But has anyone actually come out of depression, for real? Is it possible to say that you dealt with your depression and you are genuinely happy, or at least want to be happy, and you think you will be that way for the rest of your life? Because I genuinely don't see how people are supposed to be happy.

Also did we used to have a mental health comm?

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I miss bugs (hexbear.net)
submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by Moss@hexbear.net to c/doomer@hexbear.net
 

I'm not a huge lover of bugs but I fucking miss seeing them around. When I was a kid only like ten years ago I would go outside and see huge lines of ants and moths flying around and caterpillars in the bushes of my dad's garden. I noticed one summer that I hadn't seen ants in a while, and bees were a precious rare visitor.

The ecological collapse is happening right in front of our eyes and we can't fix or stop it because rich people don't have enough money. We have to just kill everything so that the most evil people in the world can get more money.

 

PPB? Too good! Stop posting it!

Beanis? Too good! Stop posting it!

I need incomprehensible posts. I need posts that are poems about slop. I need the phrase "McDonald's Sprite" repeated 33 times. I need this weed to stop doing whatever it's doing rn

 

Wanna disclose that the only ttrpg I've played in depth is dnd 5e, so other systems might offer interesting answers.

TLDR I want to make combat more interesting as it progresses, not less

So combat in dnd is what should be the coolest and most entertaining part of a story, but is often the slowest part of a session. Most of combat is spent waiting for your turn. When it is your turn, sometimes, you'll swing twice with your sword, miss twice, and that's it, that's all you can do. Even when you hit, the consequences are often just an invisible number going down. Not very interesting, there's next to no input from the player, and this is mostly just the dice deciding everything. No room for roleplay or storytelling here.

So how, from a game master's perspective, can we make combat more interesting? A straightforward solution is to just have a bit of story content in each turn. Describe a fighter missing their attacks as "you are locked in combat with a warrior, who narrowly blocks your blows. The sound of steel on steel rings through the battlefield." Doing this for every turn is exhausting for the DM, where they have to try to give a flavourful description for everything, but every now and then can give more vivid images to your players.

Dialogue is another way to insert storytelling into combat. I've seen no DMs ever enforce the "6 seconds of dialogue per turn" rule in dnd, because it just sucks. Have the antagonist exchange barbs or shout their ideology at the players. Have them discuss their past with the player. Describe it as them shouting at each other over the wind, or the sound of war around them. Again, this can't be inserted into every turn, or it too will become monotomous.

So what about mechanical ways to elevate a battle? Legendary actions in dnd serve this purpose, to allow an NPC to perform actions when it isn't their turn. This helps to alleviate the action economy problem and makes the NPC seem a lot more active and dangerous. If a boss can attack when you don't expect, it makes the mechanics fade back into the background a little bit as your players realise how powerful this character is.

I think debuffs are the most frustrating thing to happen to players. Being able to do less without any long-term change to your characters is just annoying. Getting disadvantage on an attack means your character is less impactful in a session. As a player, this sucks. Imo, debuffs should be avoided unless they either apply to everyone fighting, including your enemy, or they advance a character's story. My DM actually achieved both of these scenarios. They designed a combat encounter where difficult terrain was cast by an opposing spellcaster, and their fighter and ranger could navigate difficult terrain easily. This made us realise that the enemy had planned their attack to our specific environment (forest) and that they were particulary dangerous in this specific location - but if we meet them again under different circmustances, they will lose their advantage. In another encounter, one player, who's character has been lacking control of their own life, was suffering massive debuffs from a character who was trying to control their mind. They had to make saving throws every turn, but the stakes were a lot higher than just missing the next attack - losing a saving throw could permanently change their character.

Debuffs are hard to pull off, but buffs aren't. Imo buffs are the easiest way to escalate a fight - have your NPC become stronger and more dangerous as a fight goes on, rather than them losing resources like health and spell slots. Have your NPC become stronger after losing a certain amount of health, or even have a second and third phase with different attacks and new descriptions - this makes a boss fight feel much more tense. You could also give your player a weapon that becomes stronger after landing more hits or something, or an accessory that halves their hp and gain advantage on every attack. This makes them feel like they're becoming cooler and more powerful as the fight goes on, too.

Are there other systems that better escalate combat? I find that combat in dnd becomes more predictable the longer it goes on due to the system of health and spell slot attrition. Characters in a fight only lose resources, but don't become stronger at all. A lot of power fantasies have fights become bigger and more bombastic as they go on, because that's fucking cool, but that doesn't happen by default in dnd unless you try to make it happen. So do other players or game masters, or anyone with experience in other systems, have anything to weigh in on? My ideas are just ideas and I haven't actually tested these, so I would love to hear from others.

this ended up being a lot more text than i intended.

 

Time sensitive question btw

 

Anything I write with a placeholder name feels bad and then I get stuck trying to think of a better name. I've already designated too much of the start of the alphabet to side characters, it needs to be something easy to read if its coming up over and over again in the book.

 

This is the question

 

Also in like book 12 or something they get a bipedal pig who wears clothes as a pet

 

My submission is maybe the most obvious, Soviet flag over the Reichstag

It can be anything, photograph, painting, meme, screenshot of CCTV footage of a CEO getting domed in the street, etc

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