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Hello all you wonderful people. I come here today with a less dire request than usual. I've managed to more or less stay on top of my bills, and with a little help from a friend with food stamps, I have food. I do, however, need a new pair of work pants. The one pair that I currently own has developed a hole in the ass. Fortunately, it's on the left hip pocket, and the pocket liners are dark colored like the pants, so you can't see my underwear or anything. But it still doesn't look good, and I feel a draft that makes me paranoid.

Looks like I can get a pair of Dickie's at Walmart for ~25 + tax, so that's what I'm requesting. I've lost so much weight in the last year that I don't even know what size I am anymore, so I'll have to go try some on. But there's a Walmart a little over two miles from my apartment, so I can walk or bus there.

I appreciate any help. Thank you all!

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Thank you comrades!

My bike has a flat, so I'm currently relying on coworkers for rides, which I don't like doing. I could also use some supplemental groceries. Those who keep up with the little mess that is my life will be glad to know that I've stopped losing weight and I'm feeling a lot better. The unfortunate side effect of that is it means I am eating a ridiculous amount of food some days to offset my expenditure at work. I'm mostly buying pork chops, potatoes, a green vegetable of some variety and ramen or rice for carbs. So nometimes I think I'm cooking enough for two meals and I just go through it all. But this is an improvement to uncontrollabled weight loss.

40 should be enough if I'm careful.

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Thank you all so much!

I've got a friend coming over in a couple days and we decided we were in the mood to watch some old fashioned sci-fi. Or, something newer would work as well. I'd like to find something with a leftist bent, but I'm unsure where to start, or what's out there. I've never been a big movie buff.

Suggestions?

I've got a little instant brown rice but no meat left. I need some TP and to buy a plunger, apparently, because waiting for maintenance to come do it is getting a little silly. I've been walking up to the office to use the restroom. I get paid tomorrow but about $310 of the $340 my direct deposit must be purchased as a money order and put towards rent, otherwise there's no way I'll be able to pay it come next week.

Thanks for any help that can be given.

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You are all amazing.

I bought my money order for rent again, so that's set aside, but now I need more food. I know I'm back here every week and I'm trying to get out of this cycle. Because of your help and the help of some in-person friends, I've finally been eating properly this last week or so. I'm getting lots of protein and I don't feel so weak and tired all the time, even though I worked eight days straight while not sleeping well. So the help I have been getting has been a life saver, without question.

I'll be on my feet soon, I think. I'm trying, comrades.

Anything helps, thank you all!

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I just need groceries. I bought the money order for rent, and now I'm broke. $40 for food will probably do it. I have some pork chops still, about two day's worth.

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Thank you!

I put aside a quarter of my rent this week, as I'm determined to pay it myself.

But I need toilet paper and more money for food. I went shopping and got what I could, pork chops mostly, but it wasn't enough and will be gone soon.

I talked with my boss today that I can't keep killing myself like this. I can't afford to eat enough food to make up for my energy expenditure. My job is literally killing me, mentally and physically. I can't stop shedding weight, and that's while I'm putting on muscle, so I'm actually losing more in a way. I'm down to 139. I'm 5 10 and broad shouldered. That's way too light.

I've got job applications out and I've got in touch with some contacts that are going to look for me. I'm working to not even survive. I'm so tired. Like my soul is weary at this point.

I need to schedule therapy really badly but can't afford it. I need new work pants because I've lost so much weight mine are probably 5 inches too big in the waist. I don't even know what my size is anymore. I also need to update the addy on my driver's license so I can then get my marijuana card renewed, which is about 100 all told. That's the only way I have to medicate myself right now. I need a new phone as mine is a shitty one a friend gave me, and it crashes just using the text now app that I have to use because I can't afford a phone bill anymore.

I'm trying really hard not to let life break me but I'm struggling.

But for right now, I just need toilet paper and some groceries.

Thank you comrades, even if all you have is advice or kind words. I'm not in a great spot mentally right now, so anything is helpful. I love all you internet strangers. If it wasn't for Hexbear being the way it is and teaching me what it has, and not even accounting for the financial help, I don't know where I'd be, or if I would even still be, at all.

I hope you're all doing well.

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Thank you, again.

Need is met. Thank you! Go help someone else, please!

I get paid tomorrow night, so I don't need much. But I work tomorrow and will definitely need fuel to throw truck and bust my ass like I do. I've got two small potatoes and maybe a cup of rice right now.

I applied for a second job today, with my apartment complex. That would discount my rent and pay me. Hopefully it comes through. I don't know anything about being a maintenance tech, but I can learn just about anything.

I'm doing my best, friends.

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My phone bill is 45 and I've got 15 (25 now!) available for it. While not incredibly critical, I do use my phone to catch the bus, tracking it as well as my bus pass. I also ride my bicycle in the morning at 3am before the buses run, and not having a way to contact my work or a friend if something goes wrong makes me nervous.

Sorry to be back again so soon. Please take care of people needing food and such first. Thank you all so much.

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Edit: Holy shit, thank you! I'd like to leave open my DMs for insight or advice, but the financial need is met. Please don't post to the thread as not to bump it, to allow others to be seen.

Due to an apparently emerging mental health issue which has caused me to have what appear to be brand-new manic depressive episodes, of which I've had two in the past month, I've made some poor decisions and my rent is late. I have 275 of the currently 773. I get paid another 340 tomorrow, but I'll need groceries at a minimum. So ~300 toward rent. If I pay on the last possible day, 8/8, it would be 803.

Not to give the sob story, but I feel details are deserved.

I have a son with a now ex that was born when I was 19. I'm 33 and making 15 an hour. I'm full time with benefits. So 70 a week plus a total of 90 a week for our mandatory insurance. So my take-home is 340 a week. Rent plus utilities is running about 709 a month. There's not much wiggle room there.

I just took a week off with PTO because I had one of these episodes. I started off manic, then went real dark and drank, etc.

None of this is anyone's fault but my own. I'm fully aware that everything I've described is a direct consequence of one of my choices.

I am offered 25 a visit mental healthcare through my employer. As soon as I get rent paid I'm scheduling. It's been a few years and clearly it's not just anxiety I can manage with medical marijuana anymore. I haven't drank in three days, since I pulled myself out of this last spiral.

There's a lot of potential in my job. Once I get to a point I can transfer anywhere in my region of the country. I even enjoy what I do. I can make good money, in a year or so.

So I know this is a big ask and I'm also seeking help from family and friends. But we're all struggling. I see all the posts here and we're all struggling here, too.

I delayed asking because I hate this. It's too much. But I got my three day notice today. I thought I had more time. I'm going to call the complex in the morning and see if they will work with me as they did once in the past, but it's still $10 a day.

This community has gotten me through some rough times and I don't like asking more and more. Literally helped feed me and keep me off the street. But I need help.

Thank you for listening, comrades. I also welcome any advice or insight. I have friends who are both bipolar and bpd, but I'm not as educated as I should be. I just know something is definitely wrong.

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Honestly my financial situation has gone even more sideways and I might need more help soon, but here's the immediate need.

I've been out of work for mental health reasons for almost a week. I need to get to work tomorrow, I ride a bicycle, and I live right in the middle of Florida. Fortunately that means I'm actually probably insulated from real danger, but not on a bicycle. I'm scheduled at 4am but I was told to be safe and they'd rather me be late.

So that's the rub. 4 mile Uber ride at 4am. I think 25 is enough.

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Thank you!

I get paid tomorrow night, but for now the fridge is empty and I need some food. Can someone spot me 15? Thank you, comrades.

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