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Sorry I hate doing this at the start of a new mega but it hurts bad right now and none of my other ideas are great either
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think Iโve figured out what Iโm gonna do for weight cycling.
Iโm gonna go up 5 pounds then down 10 then up 5 then down 10 until Iโm around my goal.
So probably like 3 or 4 times.
shaving and whining
Shaving my face every day forever is going to be the death of me. I hate it so much.
addiction
fucking hell
i was this close to relapsing just half an hour ago, and just BARELY managed to talk myself out of it
It's Veneris today. I asked my lady on Veneralia, April 1st, for help with the drinking. I haven't touched the bottle since, despite how close it's gotten recently
maybe she is with me here
Yo feminine, lesbian, and trans lesbian jewellery and piercing suggestions?
I've got so many piercings and so much jewellery.
I'd just like to compare notes.
Fuck. Landlords.
vampireposting
My blood looks tasty.. Rich and succulent, dark and deep.. I wanna vampire so bad..
RIP Meredith
So I'm not closeted. But I present butch so most people probably just see androgynous/fruity man. I won't give the exact details for OpSec but last week I basically got outed on a large scale for a community I'm involved in face to face regularly. I had an almost panic attack because of it.
But I eventually realized "hey this was good, it's like pulling a bandaid off all at once".
Except no one seemed to notice, at first I thought people were just being polite and pretending not to have notice. It wasn't subtle it was literally almost "Xia Cobolt is actually a woman, she is trans!". But like no one actually was paying any attention in the slightest and I'm like relieved but also disappointed.
envy
Saw my friend today, all dressed up. She looked great. I don't even know how to describe what she was wearing but it looked nice. I wish I was her.
Only partially related but I wish I could cry.
Doing black nail polish with pink sparkles on top. Looks nice been meaning to do something other than dark blue. Also got this scrunchie on that has this cute rose design, got a few like this. The scrunchie is black with a red outline, few other ones like a pink one, brown, and blue at home.
Iโm coming around on my hair a bit, but I wish I knew how to style it or what products to use to achieve an effect.
Yesterday and today, there have been ravens near the tree line -- they are so silly, and loud. Just over there "Ah!" "Ah!" so cool. A goth lady came over yesterday, I told her about the ravens and she said "Oh, that's a good sign!"
unusually cold week, my beloved. temporarily assuaging my climate change anxieties briefly
Think I'm on a new arc where I'm just not gonna correct my spelling no more, it shows hesitant and weakness to go back and edit things.
today stunk... some loud braggart said some stuff and i got in this whole argument
After what felt like years of using the same toothpaste, I finally opened a new one.
What I didn't prepare for was the taste being completly different - I had gotten so used to the taste of my old toothpaste that I forgot they came in different flavors and consistencies.
Spat it out, still haven't recovered from the shock
Happy-Sad Sincere Posting (CW Dysphoria, self loathing)
Last week my partner and I had been listening to some Sufjan Stevens, so the algorithm hit me with the song Chicago while I was driving and I unexpectedly started sobbing. It's not really one of his sad songs (Romulus always fucking gets me), but it is a song I listened to a lot as a teen and one of the few things I guess I felt emotional about while I was quietly disassociating through high school. And I felt this profound sudden connection and understanding with my younger self.
And I reflected that for years I had really hated myself, as a teenager, as a young adult etc. I had chalked it up at the time to things like "hey maybe I am a piece of shit", "maybe I had undiagnosed mental illness" and later "maybe I had internalized homophobia from an insane Christian conservative upbringing" (which was partially true too). But like duh, I hated myself because I thought I was a man, really fucking obvious in hindsight! I felt overwhelming forgiveness and compassion to my old self, but especially that sad lost teenage girl.
So like I'm feeling pretty amazing in a raw AF way.
Follow up revelations from my self-reflection CW grooming SA. Dysphoria
I also realized as a teenager ~16-17 I was groomed and sexually assault by a woman in her 30s that was part of a social organization I was involved with over the course of several months. Inappropriate stuff like groping, touching, cuddling, kissing, not things I considered at the time to be actual sex or sexual assault. Plus stuff like being bought gifts, frequent text messages and being given alcohol at social events etc. I didn't have a framework to understand that a woman could assault a "boy" and also how in hindsight I was additionally vulnerable as an unaware trans girl.
Though in a darkly funny way I think my dysphoria around sex and being perceived as masculine prevented me from being victimized further, because she'd be like "do you want to come to my place after school" and some male friends would be like "she wants to have sex with you, that's cool" and internally I'd go "oh I don't want that" and make some excuse every time.
I'm processing this and actually feeling okay because I feel more insightful too about my old self. Also in a deeply fucked up way it's kind of gender affirming.
I sometimes forget that is british tbh, I like to keep forgetting if I could help it to be honest.
Back in high school all the cool gay kids would listen to like lady gaga now they listen to walls of noise broken up with old radio number stations or whatever.
clocking in for another shift in the posting mines
Laser on the face really be like "you will shave twice a day and be happy"