clocking in for another shift in the posting mines

Think I'm on a new arc where I'm just not gonna correct my spelling no more, it shows hesitant and weakness to go back and edit things.

start up stellaris for the first time in like a year

completely revamped planet management screen and pop system

play for a decade

realize they shipped it without actually verifying if the auto pop migration system actually fucking worked

game now has a nigh unplayable bug in it

close, restart, reload older version

gods fucking dammit paradox

1. stop fucking redoing the planet management and making it worse every time. you had it perfected like 6 years ago

2. stop shipping shit when it doesn't work

Back in high school all the cool gay kids would listen to like lady gaga now they listen to walls of noise broken up with old radio number stations or whatever.

Yesterday and today, there have been ravens near the tree line -- they are so silly, and loud. Just over there "Ah!" "Ah!" so cool. A goth lady came over yesterday, I told her about the ravens and she said "Oh, that's a good sign!"

Thursday when I looked I felt mixed and numb
Friday when I looked I wanted to die.
Today when I looked it’s feeling more like Thursday.

I don’t want to go out tbh, I don’t want people to see me.
This is the longest I’ve looked at myself in years and sometimes from some angles I look fine…but I still look like some awkward thing in the middle.
My lips and smile are so weird and idk how I would even fix it.
My hair is…idk how to even describe it.
I dunno…I won’t say it feels hopeless, but I feel pretty lost at what to do.

Finally bought and played helldivers. Honestly I think this type of game isn't really for me. Better then payday or warframe though. There's so many of the exact same thing in these games though.

Also playing with "the guys" has lost all joy for me. I'm only out to one. Honestly forgot how much I hate being in a VC with a bunch of guys. I feel so drained.

Also the one I'm out to, and actually like, asked me my new name a while back because my old nickname felt weird. Still calls me that. My trans-ness still comes up basically every time we talk though which is nice and it feels affirming. Just a weird thing ig. If you didn't actually want to call me a fem name why'd you ask...

Dreamt I was fighting a witch , was doing fine but should have pulled out more shinangans earlier in the fight, had I pulled the pretending to be a dweeb I could have finished it earlier. You gotta fight with shinangans

saw a guy i used to watch streaming and i thought he had low viewer count so i checked the history^1^ and now hour and a half later i went down a whole ass- memory lane to the 2010s and all the loser streamers i watched.

~1~ ~nah~ ~he's~ ~solidly~ ~a~ ~10k~ ~andy~

Been getting some good sleep with this cheap eye mask I got, it's real cute with various butterflies on it. Honestly should have gotten and used one sooner, part of me wants to be vigilant but the other part of me is

Skincare is so underrated. HRT is magic of course, but a good skincare routine has made such a difference

finished Andor s2, im sad cuz that was perfect and i can never experience it again for the first time, Kleya is serious goals and the drip is immaculate, fuck

Bi-cycle is slowly turning towards women and I don't like it

I just know if I start saying "what the gender?" instead of "what the fuck" it'll be a week maybe less before I start doing it unironically that's how fast I develop my brainworms

Might buy a faux ponytail

To the girl reading this, what color is your favorite color?

french karl marx isn't real, he can't hurt you

french karl marks

I shouldn't have read about how smart cows are : (

Want yalls opinions because I don't have cool enough freinds to ask opinions on collars, which option(s) do you like better? I really like the rainbow one but it's $45, and I'm unsure if its too flashy. Then there is the other style that is $15 that I'd get that with a burgundy strap and unsure on either a dark nickel or "gold" chain. Going with the $15 collar also gives me the option of adding a leash for $15, and I will spend less money overall. And then also then I have a leash for

Also before anyone comment about it, no I'm not too concerned about opsec for posting potential collars I might be wearing