blackwitch

So I'm having second thoughts and I'm thinking about how we talked a little bit on how I don't need to apologize to my boyfriend Avery because nothing HE does is MY fault and that he's just dry and has been acting weird due to mental exhaustion and depression.

I apologized because our convo went like this: "Yeah, I'm alright, I have Alex" (his boyfriend [other partner besides me]) "You have me too" "Yeah, I know"

So I thought he was mad cuz it was over text but he wasn't, he just said he knew.

Anyway, he can always hang out with Alex and Alex makes him feel better but whenever I ask Avery to hang out, he's too busy, too depressed, doesn't feel like it, doesn't know, is gaming, anything like that.

Whenever I ask if I can help, he says there's nothing I can do but I feel a bit sad because Alex always seems to be able to be there for him because he sees Alex every day.

I’ve seen a lot of, girls and women specifically online, claim they’re “soft-hearted” or “cute and kind” but be extremely racist, anti-even documented immigration, say that other cultures don’t deserve a home, and call trans people “not people”. And more.

Unless he breaks up with me, as long as that doesn’t happen, I will stay by his side and I no longer care that he seems to prefer someone else over me. I guess that’s how our poly relationship will work and I should suck it up. I love him anyway and he’ll be spending time with just me at therapy group.

Either way he's for sure not into me. My boyfriend Avery and I are polyamorous, I'm also dating this girl Amy and he's dating this guy Alex.

Some people not on here have suggested that Avery might be gay and I'm a "beard" for him as he spends way more time with Alex than me. Even if it's not true, he definitely isn't into me.

He also said "IDK honestly" when I asked if we could hang out again like old times and have him spend equal time with us instead of him being on the phone with Alex and talking about him every time we talk. It's all he talks about when he's not leaving my messages on read but I know he'd think I was selfish if I told him to knock it off.

So I’m only 15. While I hope my boyfriend is the one for me, I also doubt it. I have had a girlfriend “Amy” since I was 12 but I am polyamorous and so is my boyfriend “Avery”. He is also dating some dude who I’ll call “Alex” since his name starts with the same letter as Avery’s and my girlfriend’s.

He said he’d love to call sometime and I’m sure he loves us equally, but he calls Alex for hours a day, for like 5-12 hours, and barely acknowledges my texts, he just reads them. In fact, he asked me to hang out with him but that was because he was bored that Alex wouldn’t be coming over.

Idk what to do. I feel wrongfully a bit sad and like I’m the bad guy.

They sleep on calls all the time too at night and I’m trying not to care but I’m sad because he spends more time with Alex than me. I wanna sleep over at his house sometime and do all the stuff they do but he can’t because he’s always busy with Alex. Maybe I’d be liked more if I was a boy…

I'm sadly moving on from lemming.world, which is shutting down. I saw a post about someone on Quora being hateful to the "damn liberals" while claiming to be a victim and getting upset over hate comments for being a bigot. What the hell...

Tô no ensino médio e não sei o que aconteceu com as pessoas da escola secundária (vou pra escola estadunidense). Tenho uma amiga que era uma valentona e agora q ela não tá fazendo bullying comigo, ela odeia alguém mais e quer fazer bullying com ele.