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I did something many here might not approve of. I decided to climb back into the closet. I lied to my mom and said I'm cancelling transitioning (I'm 100% continuing)
She told me she couldn't be happier and started praising God
Now I'm 100% certain to cut my parents out of my life. All I need is time. 2 years to finish my education and get a good job. I'm going to spend these 2 years avoiding and lying to my parents, then bam! I'll disappear like a magic trick.
It's always okay to lie to Cis for your safety or wellbeing. Do the stuff you can get away with like HRT, get what you need done etc then skedaddle.
This is more or less the end of the coming out saga for now. Hope you enjoyed the "plot".
My "character development" this time has been substantial. Open the spoiler to read
cw:suicide
The voice in my head that told me to die all the time is gone. Hopefully this is a permanent change.
I've decided to channel my inner capacity for evil and scheming more.
Elaborating on this in the spoiler
cw:suicide
When I told her I was cancelling, she genuinely sounded so happy and talking about how bright of a future I had! I've never heard her be this relieved and happy.
Absolutely mind boggling.
If you remember, earlier this week I was literally trying to commit suicide by starvation.
This shit is literally a curse. She wished for my death while believing that she was giving me blessings.
She's that fucking awful; you can do whatever makes things most convenient for you IMO
gotta call this metapodmoding or some shit
(to be clear i fully approve ๐)
There's no shame in doing what you need to do to stay safe/sane. Like I said, I'm in a similar boat where I've been delaying my coming out to my parents until I find a new job and apartment.
No I think it's based
Thank you!