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I'm quitting nicotine.
This shit sucks. I hate this. I was using so much, now trying to limit myself to 4 hits from a vape per day, down from constantly hitting it all day every day. I hate this. I was going cold turkey starting yesterday (with a cessation aid, to be fair) and today was so miserable I needed to switch to stepping down instead of just stopping outright cause I could feel I was gonna break and just start using as per usual again. Any progress is good progress. I keep telling myself that. But I'm anxious and angsty and uppity and pissy and amped and it sucks. I'm exhausted and full of energy all at once. I need something to fully absorb my attention and time and give me dopamine. Maybe I'll play some videogames. Idk. I hate my brain rn, I hate this so much. I'm trying to resist as much as I can, even with the four hit allotment. The less I use the better. Maybe tomorrow I can go without entirely. Idk. This shit just fucking sucks.
spoiler request? If anyone has tips/suggestions for aiding quitting please share, I need some sort of anxious fidget I think to replace the anxious hits and constantly addressing anxiety by vaping. I could use suggestions for the oral fixation aspect (no I will not chew toothpicks or gum I know those are common but I hate both of them). Preemptive thank you for any suggestions or encouragements. This shit sucks.
Paracetamol helps with the headache, and podcasts and a task that keeps your hands busy, the first three days are the worst, patches and gum or mints are helpful too
if you're reaching for it, you can always put it back down, a wiff of a vape or a cig is enough to remind me how bad i would feel
Heard on the paracet, I'll see if I have any, rn I think there's only ibux in the house. I've been binging TV and letsplays of very slow games (like cities skylines and workers & resources) to keep my mind busy. And reaching for water every time I'm craving. Maybe this is how I get in the habit of not being chronically dehydrated lol.
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From talking with friends that quit, you should get more into hobbies and things that bring you joy. Maybe keep track of money saved from not spending it on vaping and get yourself something nice.Appreciates the words ^^.
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Tbh, I'm not very good at having hobbies. Part of me wants to start running stairs again, but I have no motivation and dont actually want to do it. I have videogames and coding and the like, but isolation thru those things is pretty bad for me. I'm still trying to get my life in order and learning how to be interested in anything other than my specific interest at a given moment is pretty hard. Right now its a programming project.::: spoiler the rest I'm excited to not be dropping money every week, be able to breathe better, just feel healthier, its really nice. The joy things for me are mostly social experiences, and I try to have those every week or hopefully more often. Im not terribly competent, socially, but I still enjoy it.
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I have the opposite problem in that I have too many hobbies (ADHD) so I'm often in a state of overwhelm from having too many choices. As far as being social goes: I suck at it, too! However, it is a skill that you can get better at. I went from being a total hermit to doing at least a few things every week and the gayer and transer I get the more social power I gain.::: spoiler spoiler
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I quit smoking 12 years ago. I stopped cold turkey, no aids. I still get cravings and the most I backslid was trying Zyn lol. All I did was destroy my packs and didnt buy more - it sucked and was hard, but I started feeling so much better after a week that I kinda dug it. It was also nice saving the money I would've spent on packs aside and seeing how much I saved visually.I do chew gum but I did before too, I know you dont like it but I sure did!
You can quit smoking!!
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Congrats on being 12 years free! That's wonderful!