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Holy shit I feel awful. I just want this shit over. I am really, completely sick of suffering like this. I don't care to go through any more of this. I do not care what is on the other side of this. I don't want "normal" in 3 years or whatever. I want the pain to stop right now.

not even half way through my work week

Brother cancelled on dinner plans Tuesday

Mom rescheduled shoe shopping twice

Tonight's date rescheduled

Haven't heard from the friend I'm supposed to hang out with tomorrow

Not beating the lonely girl allegations

That alone is enough to fucking ruin being trans for me. :::

Family is finally fucking gone! Have the house to myself. Think I'm going to partake for the first time in a year, hope I don't get too paranoid

I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna dye my hair crazy colors

"I don't need a new bike frame, I can build an e-bike out of my current one. I don't need a new bike frame. I don't need a new bike."

...

I kinda want to build a new bike......

Honestly though, I love my bike in its current form. It's beautiful, it feels lovely to ride, and I worry that adding a motor + battery will change that. Plus it would be nice to have a backup bike if the e-bike is ever down for maintenance. The whole reason I'm thinking of dropping money on an e-bike is to replace my car for like 90-95% of all the distance I travel. It's gonna get pretty dirty and beat up. I currently only use my bike for short local trips and riding for fun on car-free trails, and the occasional after midnight mental health rides into the city.

What kind of idiot accidentally makes a literal gallon of hotpot. A gallon of hotpot without soup?

Couldn't be me

hides the comically large bowl of food behind my back

Well, it’s been two months and not a single person got my ‘trans broken arm syndrome’ cosplay. I had to give up on the idea, and I had my cast taken off. 0/10 that was not worth it at all. I picked the wrong bit to fully commit to realism. At least my insurance covers costumes and costume designers.

Is this euphoria?

I don't post here much, and well on hb much lately. I identify as agender/demi depending on the day. I also identify as I guess aceflux? I am like 99% sure I'm ace but I float between vanilla asexual, and demisexual, and I guess a few others, depending on the day.

But here goes. I've been trying to dress a bit more androgynous lately. I've been painting my nails more lately and am playing around with some gender-neutral accessories. I have big ass pork chop sideburns and a mohawk currently. So I guess the big thing is when people notice my nails. But anywho, I was at a gas station last week, wearing what I usually wear lately. Mostly masc but a touch of fem. The gas station cashier sort of gave me shit over my outfit. I don't think he was intentionally meaning to be rude but he was like "so, is that your 'style'?"

I thought about it at the bar later the whole time and I think my conclusion is that I guess I'm not fully passing as a male? I thought about it again on the drive home from the bar and a wave of emotions came over me. Like for a brief moment, I just felt like "me" which I never really do unless I'm home alone just chilling.

I might be overthinking this tho. Idk.

Fucking Christ the stupid ass local warlord just executed my son for distributing anti monarchical literature even though none of us can read

Death Caliber

Fucking shit the local warlord just double taxed my grain after he failed to protect my storage from bandits

I've only been going by my new name for a couple weeks and it already makes me sad when I have to put in my old one (I guess it's my deadname, really) in for official legally stuff. Bleh

I chose some stuff to paint my hair, gonna spend like 15 dollars on it and do it at home

Shadow 05 was so good why did it have to end I think no leftist theory can be complete without playing hours daily of shadow the hedgehog while listening to an audiobook in the background

She's the one that everybody on the local horny transbian server is going crazy over and i just made her flustered. I think that's a good sign, she already locked me up in the crate in her living room last time i visited her.