Looked at some pictures of myself from last summer, wearing almost the same outfit I'm wearing today, and it's pretty hard to pinpoint what exactly the difference is, but I looked way more androgynous back then HRT truly is magic

I'm not a quite a Doll

I'm more akin to an Action Figure, actually

the difference between the two is more just vibes than anything but there's a spectrum there and I'm somewhere between Doll and Action Figure

when i say friday you say rice!

friday!

A bit diegetic but I've incorporated my health bar into my nail polish, you can tell how much health I have left by how much polish remains on my nails. Right now I'm real fucking low

Just got the results back for my first bloods since starting E and even though I was pretty sure they were gonna be in the range I want, it's such a boost having the numbers laid out to see!

Reading an article that is ostensibly pro-trans and realizing we need trans women political commissars in every organization.

bit idea - write a handful of thoughtful farewell letters to some guy friends before i move interstate BUT add in a little estrogen patch for all of them just in case

Doing my best to stay humble, embracing fully the queer art of failure. One day I know I'll be tested harsher than I ever have been and all these mistakes and falls will prepare me to bounce back and not shatter.

If anyone wants to check my mutual aid post. I'm going to a hospital and cannot pay rent this month. I'm looking for trans positive housing.

idk what to wear most of the time but also don't like what I have.

up with trans

more deltarune posting

have grown very tired of my typical pasta + lentils/chickpeas recipe so gonna have to find a different way to flavor it besides tomatoes. maybe pesto?

Also i think i've just grown super bored of the typical italian sofrito + tomato base + oregano/thyme/bay leaf because i use it for basically every meal cause it's cheap as hell and tasty. But I barely even taste it anymore. It's about time to rotate spices I think lol

Update: Things pretty civil with various in-laws. I guess I'm going to be the bigger woman (both morally and just physically I guess lol) and forgive but not forget for the sake of my partner.

Been so eepy since getting my piercings Saturday. That's normal right? Just the body recovering and healing I assume.

Going to sleep in a moment, but one last post before I do.

I think I'm going to start voice training again next week. Its been like 2 years since I last did and when that dumb mental block kicked in, and I think once I finish all my little tasks this week I'll have time and energy to try to do it again. Posting this here mostly as a way to make myself accountable to myself about it. I'm.. Kinda excited to start it again though, honestly. It was fun the first time, it could be fun to do it again, but permanently this time.

If anyone has more up to date resources they'd be willing to share I'd appreciate it. I used to mostly work off of L's guides plus some other ones here or there that I forgot.

I declare this friday the 13th during pride month our own little halloween.

I got over one of my big make-up fears and got a deep red lipstick

Was very careful to get something that matches my skin tone so I don't look like bozo the clown when putting it on. The color is gorgeous, but it's definitely a bit overpowering. Once I put it on the rest of my make-up looked really bland, it almost didn't look like I was wearing any blush at all despite using quite a bit. I basically had to use either an extra layer, or a more intense color, for most of everything else to compensate, and then it looked great.

Very happy with it, but will probably save it for weekends or special occassions due to the extra work it takes to make it look nice.

i think susie deltarune should get to have a gun. as a treat

aaah i need hobbies now that i have some free time instead of just doomscrolling

kind of want to get rid of my she her pronouns entirely and start identifying as straight because "He/Him het trans girl" is some blisteringly hot gender that I don't know if I will ever achieve, even if I'm close. Unfortunately in this instance I like my she/her pronouns and also other women

Are dysphoria naps a thing?

Why is it so hard to find nudist content that is not just porn

Like I just want a story about people doing things while they're naked because that's cool.

Captain Momo's Secret Base is a really good example of this actually. It's a manga about a girl who lives on a spaceship with her cat and is naked nearly the entire time. I think the nudity is only brought up once because it's barely plot relevant, it's just how she is. And I think that rules

Y'know some days I feel like I'm not doing anything and have been unproductive because I spent an hour nomming on chips and scrolling on my phone. But then I realise I walked to work, worked 8 hours, went to a café for lunch, cooked a meal for dinner, and learned to sew buttons so I could then tailor one of my skirts to replace the missing buttons while making it a better fit for me, and I realise huh, maybe I actually am decent at doing things.

rant >

I thought estrogen saved me from acne but it just moved from my face to my chest send help

I remember telling my friends in high school that was gonna be in the next smash bros and being told "no Wmill, he's a sega character that's stupid" and then brawl came out and no one remembered me making that claim I can call things and people just pretend like I don't this is just one example but it stuck with me.

I wash my hair every other day and I’m wondering if I should get a leave-in conditioner or something for the days when I don’t.