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Disaster_of_Passion* (1/26 - 2/1)
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I wanna be pretty :(

I'm beginning to deeply resent my job tbh

I shovel so much snow today so I can show pictures of it to my gf who lives on the west coast and thinks snow is magic

been living with this new roommate for a whole 4 days now and our relationship has already gotten so bad that i screamed "who the fuck do you think you are? go fuck yourself" at them this morning

i think they have stepped over a ton of my boundaries and that i did go too far but also holy shit i am fucking seething at them right now and hate seeing them in my own house and they've only been living here for half a goddamn week i am going to lose my shit

::: spoiler cw kink

Had a very fun impact scene. God sometimes i forget how fun it is. I wish i could get beaten every day but my body cant handle it. And the person i was playing with is so communicative and receptive to me speaking up about my weird broken special care needing body, she doesnt make me feel like im topping from the bottom, she hears me when i say "hey thats too close to tendons" or "hey thats not an ok spot to hit cause my joints are bad". Feels so safe and so good. I love being a freaky kinky weirdo

::: spoiler kinkyearning, sex, and ig reflection?

Ugh, i love the kinkstuff, but the next day i just find myself craving morrreeeeee. Just want all the attention, all the slaps and the degredation and the implements and the powerloss and the ropes and the commands and the everything. Fuck. Like, my sexuality is mostly responsive, mostly low sex drive, very very hard for me to cum like at all (which is so frustrating). But kink? Very high drive for it, once the taste is on my tongue i just want more more more (suck at social interaction and meeting people tho so ). Also frustrating that most of the people ive tended to meet and get on well with are more gentle/pleasure oriented dommes. Like, thats fun, and i appreciate the presence theyve had in my life and enjoy my time with them, but at the end of the day i want pain and intensity. Pleasure is wonderful alongside it, getting fucked alongside it is wonderful, but the pain just makes me feel so good. Like, is there a word for that painpleasure wave that comes from impact, with the shaking and the screaming? Like, i dont think i convert pain into pleasure, but it feels like an orgasm in the sense of my physical reaction to it, but it isnt an orgasm? Idk, whatever the word for it is, its funnnnnnnn.

I know, I know. Only 4 months of hrt is not a lot. Still feels like not much is changing. Nips rarely hurt. Maybe I'm losing some strength? Its so hard for me to know some of these things. Sexual changes ig but that's not what I want most. I want to be a woman already :/ I mean still closeted at home so mixed bag but yaa...

When will I notice body hair growth slowing down btw? Maybe that's starting, I feel like I get more days out of a shave.

Need to learn some basic ass stuff like how to cut my nails properly, been growing them for a bit to fix the fuck up I did last time. I got a file I got clippers just need to take my time slowly now

i started modding kotor 2 so i can play it after a decade plus

anyway i promised i would post this the next time i started modding a game:

Amab and afab would confuse me a lot because then I see something Full metal alchemist brotherhood abbreviated and just go

me when people try to get my attention using the name i told them to use instead of the one ive gone by:

I wish people didn't suck. I'd socially transition.

It's early, appearance hasn't changed and still no laser. But the people I've come out to have been mostly okay. But obviously, I came out to them thinking they'd be okay.

Hi it’s been a while, I used to post on here like last year and I’m back now with a different account. Unsure if people will remember me - I’m jenniferrr

Nostalgia bait gets to me real bad

Why am I an adult with a shitty job instead of a child playing Minecraft at my friend's house. I'd give anything to go back.

got my first bra and underwear and I'm starting to get what good gender feelings are supposed to be lol

I really do love seeing people I'm out to. Especially when they take extra effort and I feel like they perceive me, at least mostly right. Also she says something nice about my appearance like every time she sees me now and that's really nice.

After some introspection, I think I and many other people gravitate towards murderers in fiction because we feel helpless and drowned in shame in our personal lives. Seeing someone on a screen exercise the ultimate agency over another person's existence (taking it away entirely) without feeling a hint of shame, there's something cathartic about it. Same kinda deal with when I used to love reading trans comics and shit.

But now I don't, cause I'm transitioning and not living upto any standards in any of the shit I read, which makes me feel really jealous.

Does this imply that if I become a murderer, I will stop admiring fictional murderers because I will feel I don't live up to their hype, charm and gravitas?

Uh, maybe I'm getting carried away.

Reddit is still such a dumb place. The subreddit for people who consume too many Chinese cultivation novels and brainrot and speak like they're in a period drama* is still somehow full of people who believe in western propaganda. Even while being aware of the existence of said propaganda.

Like subs, if you're gonna consume so much cultural product from a country, at least try to learn a bit more about it?

*I have also been affected, it's subtle, but you can see it from my comments

If a cutie falls flat on her ass in the mountain and no one hears her, did she even fall?

Been putting music on all day to lift my spirits living in ain't great. I am reminded psuedo america exists in these games but at least after forces GUN is completely dissolved/wiped out by