oh! before i forget, we're gonna be watching movies this saturday on our very own special trans cytube channel! this week's features are gonna be Fire Island and Hadestown. probably gonna get started around 8 PM EST

I got my pronouns!!!!

Not a fan of the "ironic" misogyny I'm still seeing on this website. We need a TC_69 purge for those losers.

I'm gay as fuck but there's this one male coworker I have who's really tall and masculine and they make me feel so small and feminine in comparison so he gives me a fluttery feeling.

Unfortunately I found out he's going through the steps to become a cop.

Just had an interaction at work where a guy initially thought I was a dude and then corrected himself by asking for my pronouns. I am at that wierd middle part of of transition where being correctly gendered is like a coin flip (weighted against my favor unfortunately)

He then apologized if I felt like I wasn't seen and that gendering people correctly is important to him.

Need more allies like him. Fuck, I'm crying a little now.

all transmega posters go to sleep together in the same comically wide bed like this btw

Big news!! I won a scholarship today!!!! And I got my loan NoA and it's 2k higher than I expected!!!! I am now able to pay for my entire coming year of tuition and rent, and my jobs (which are already locked in barring one that is basically locked in) will be enough to cover food and then some!!!!!!!! I might even maybe be able to afford that big $500 order of indie chinese lolitas I've been wishlisting sometime before Christmas!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I had more to talk about these days. I guess when you hit 2 years into transition, the exciting stuff is ongoing or has already occurred. Not much to get super excited about except the slow, gradual transition that's not so fast like breasts or what have you. Skin's smooth. Breasts, heaving. Body hair, thinned. Voice, trained. Vagina, gotten. Fat, redistributed/ing. Idk, I feel out of place here nowadays. Kinda sucks. Guess I could talk about top surgery and how it's going to even out my breasts? Seems like a boring thing to drone on about.

EDIT: I just realized this post can be considered humble bragging. I swear to the gods I just wanted to make a post about how I can't really relate to a lot of you anymore :\

"Living in sin" makes it sound so much more lascivious and dirty than it is. Like sure Aunt Germaine, the wife and I were just hanging out cuddling and watching slop and eating cookies, but sure, we were fucking LIVING IN SIN!! OH, HOW DEBAUCHED, THE UTTER INDECENCY, A 24/7 LIFE OF LECHEROUS LESBIANISM!!!!!

went through some older selfies, pre- and early transition and compared them to my most recent one

gosh darn i just keep getting cuter

Was in the deep, deep south yesterday. The kinda place with like 5k population, no major cities for 2+ hours, no cell signals. Stopped at a gas station to refuel, piss, and get some snacks for the road. Standing in line waiting to pay, and this old woman starts slowly walking towards me. I didn't know what was about to happen but she gets really close to me and smiles and says, "I love your shirt. I do." and then smiles again and nods and I'm trying not to tear up, dawg. I paid for my stuff smiling and then drove away pretty happy.

I was wearing this shirt

Idk man, shit is alright sometimes

Thesis: i want to post in the mega and talk to other trans folks

Antithesis: i have nothing to say

Synthesis: post meaninglessness

CW: dysphoria

gonna feed the MOFUCKIN DUCKIES today because I have been sad and the birds make me happy

Some cute lesbians in a Subaru are running around with bubbles in the park next to the center

I can't stand when people bathe themselves in cologne/perfume. You don't need that much! I shouldn't be able to smell you from another room, and the smell shouldn't linger in rooms you haven't even been in!

Chat is it misogyny if within your family you (not a woman but consistently gendered as one) and your mom are always expected to do the cooking to the point where your brother and your dad don't know how to cook. Oh and also they're always going out with their friends (obviously not COVID-safely) while you have to work ~1 hour a day (not every day but most days) for a meal that they might not even end up eating but expect to have on the table anyways. Oh and also there is not really any way to shorten that cooking time because cooking a full Chinese family-style meal is the expectation and there's no real way to get out of that. Is this that Feminism 101 concept of "invisible labor" that we like to talk about. Because I feel like in my family I'm the only person who sees this and I don't dare bring it up because if I do I'll be made to feel ridiculous.

Wish I was in a better mood to celebrate being first.

Increasingly feeling like Hexbear being normal about women: (Challenge: Impossible)

We need another TC_69 Purge.

I hate it when people say "You just have to man up." No, thanks. I'd rather not.

MODS?! A fucking deer ate a bunch of my tomato plants in the garden. There are a bunch of lettuce plants like 10 feet away that I wouldn't even have been mad if they munched on instead. Now I'm probably not even getting heirloom tomatoes this year. No caprese salad?

bad feels

I've been planning to go to a self defence class for queer people, but the closer it gets to the day, the more anxious I become about doing physical activity with others in an enclosed space with who knows how much ventilation during a covid surge. I had a really close call with covid recently and it's been making me super worried. Getting long covid would seriously fuck up my life as someone who already barely manages to get by with my current concoction of neurodiversity. I've already had two infections, and each subsequent one is more and more likely to leave you with long covid.

The way it gets treated in the UK seriously makes me feel gaslighted every day for even acknowledging that covid is a thing. Everyone (including my supposedly lefty friends) is just "back to normal" as the numbers of people out of work due to disability climb higher and higher (tripled since 2019 iirc). The most frustrating part is that we could have covid safe indoor spaces with enough ventilation & precautions, but nobody gives a shit about setting that up. I literally haven't encountered it even once. And it's like this by design — everyone loves to talk about the working class, but there is an underclass of completely disenfranchised people that the system uses as a threat to all those employed about what will happen to them if they stop. This country runs on ableism, it runs on racism and transphobia all the same and it's really frustrating to see most queer people (esp the white bri'ish ones) not acknowledge any of it as long as they're able to get theirs.

As much as I would have liked to learn some self defence, my main reason for going was actually to get some exercise, since I've spent close to 4 years now just kinda rotting inside being too disabled to do much. I really wanted to be around other people who know something about exercising, since I am so clueless, but it seems like I have to find a different solution. I used to go on lots of walks, but I've stopped in the past few months since the public transphobia reached its mouth-foaming peak around the time of the election. Now I get super worked up and have to work through my anxiety for hours just to be able to go outside.

If anyone's got any exercise tips for an atrophied bitch, I'd love to hear about it /g

Not growing fangs with E is transphobia, where are my fangs already

I finally did an injection for the first time. I did it through the stomach - I got most of it in there, but I chickened out at the last second because it started feeling tingly and I panicked. In hindsight, it was probably the alcohol causing a reaction, which is probably fine.

You can probably tell by reading my other posts that I'm very paranoid about something going wrong, which didn't help, because I got so nervous after doing it that it got harder to breathe, which made me think something went wrong... But after a few hours, I'm pretty sure it went well. Now I just have to hope it works, because it's really out of my hands now.

Y'know what's bullshit??? Women's tanktops. No I do not necessarily want a sideboob window that is a foot fucking long, no I do not want some elaborate cutout window in the back showing my brastraps off, I am going biking for fucks' sakes. Fuck you whoever made EVERY tank like this.

Too autistic to act normal, not autistic enough to stop caring

Also I love how emojis let you set the tone of a comment, this is an accessibility feature.

Why would I get bottom surgery when I’m already a bottom?

My gf said she can fix me, it’s nice to find someone who can see your potential, idk where we are going right now…the park I think.

I wish I had a stable sense of identity

I just got a letter in the mail informing me that the amazing informed consent clinic that is entirely queer owned and ran is going to close in a few months. I'm pretty upset about it. The letter said they would help my find a new Dr so I'll talk to them about it when I have my next appointment.

My secret for posting? I wait until I have a good day, and I am exhausted enough to the point where I don't have enough brainpower to question myself or second-guess my decision. Sometimes I feel like I act better when I'm tired, I probably mask way too goddamn much for my own good. The worst part about it is that I can't really control it 😂🤣😭.

two weeks ago i wore a dress for the first time in two years inside, now I wore one walking to the store. big moves are happening in the life of yor

I love (most of (one is terrrrriiibllee and i want her gone)) my housemates Yes theyre s but they do genuinely care about others and want to make life better for everyone. Were open with each other and have become good friends

I just keep being the voice of " Kamala and Walz are still politicians, they dont care about the underclasses. Their policies have been shitty in these ways [enumeration]". And try to frame things in a way theyll understand. Theyre not which is more than I can say for a lot of other self proclaimed leftists ive talked with.

Wife problems that are not actually problems but kinda: I tend to wake up an hour or two earlier than my wife does. Which, weh! Why can we not wake up together in beautiful gay harmony!! Me laying in bed reading gay slop awaiting wifey to arise!!!

I've been getting really into cute socks lately. Definitely an underrated way to get some of that sweet sweet gender euphoria, on the down low 👀

shout out to everyone in this thread, appreciate u all sm<3

my body feels a lot more feminine now. very little has fundamentally changed but it just feels like a woman's body today in an indescribable way

got a lil nervous about my first injection in two years, but I did the best technique I've possibly ever done with no issues

shout out to trans people, I think they're great