not going out tonight, too busy singing a meatball marinara song to my dog

Another pair of jeans down

Thighs too thick 😔✊️

thinking about that home made pesto pasta I had the otther day again. damn that shit was so good. fresh basil just has such a smell and absolute powerful verdant look to it in pesto

Me when I feel less anxious/more certain about HRT when people treat it positively instead of like I'm poisoning myself

Starting as soon as the pharmacy ships to me. Feel a little bad not telling my mom about it but if she wanted to be in the loop maybe she shouldn't have reacted so drastically¯⁠\⁠(⁠°⁠_⁠o⁠)⁠/⁠¯ plus my family doesn't tell me things all the time so not like they're some shining example

Cleaned my earholes with hydrogen peroxide and now kirby 64 ost sounds even better

I'm really proud of myself for wearing a skirt in public all day yesterday, I felt quite cute. it probably helped that my partner was there, but tbh I realized I could have done it without her too

with how much I struggle to feel qualified for feminity with my body the way it currently is, this was a really good step. it'll definitely make the wait till surgery easier if I feel a bit better too :p

Wearing lolita to class for the first time using the cover of halloween, feel amazingly cute rn

I'm looking up at the mirror on my bedroom door and I see a girl on her bed. It's freaking me out a bit but in a good way. This same human I've become so acquainted with seeing, I'm actually successfully conceptualizing her as a woman without going "ughghg but I look like a guy." This is so bizarre, but sooooooo cool

there needs to be some sort of "how to cry guide" for trans creatures,,,,, we have yet to figure it out

Noooooooo, it's cold war time in history class again. I'm already hearing about soviets trying to conquer the world, and the war happening between "democratic capitalism" vs "authoritarian communism". I ALREADY DID THIS BIT LAST SEMESTER, PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME DO IT AGAIN

I remember one time I went out in public with eyeliner and painted nails this old white woman came up to me and said as sweetly as possible "Jesus loves you" before walking away. Chat what does this mean

Damn I should've started injections nine years ago lmfao (along with progesterone I'm seeing some decent breast growth)

I have a sudden urge to kiss girls

seeing random chuds say 'deeply unserious' now we're so owned

I just scheduled my first hair appointment under my girl name and she/her pronouns.

I've always hated getting my haircut, so I'm more than a little anxious about going. The salon is queer friendly, but it still took like an hour to work up the courage to schedule it. They even ask for pronouns in the booking interface.

One day I will upgrade from a "service dog in training" and become a "service dog"

I think my housemates are coming to hate me, they never seen to want to talk to me or spend time with me and always make plans with each other without including me. They don't seem to be interested in me or my life at all. They make decisions about the house without me and then just expect me to pay for things they buy for the house. One of them is a very good friend of ten years, and I think living with me has made him dislike me.

I've been spending a lot of time in my room alone lately because they seem to not want to talk to or see me. And I don't really want to see people who don't want to see me.

actually building a lego

I think I can manage bottom dysphoria if I can find a way to never have spontaneous erections again 🤔

sigh

if i want a GF i have to download shudders the apps, don't I?

yeah :(

Not trans related but I want few things more than to neuralyze math knowledge from the general populace so we can break this cycle of math being taught and retaught in the stupid ass way it's currently being done.

My dad really gives me vibes sometimes, I swear. He saw that I was growing new hair, and said maybe he should get on E. Jokingly, of course, all in good fun. Would never actually do it, right? This is exactly how I started

Boys cute.

I remember being pretty good at linear algebra once, calculus never really stuck though. I vaguely remember it all like a dream but maybe if I could get some materials I've no real use for it but prob beats being a gamer

My girl shorts arrived and I’m in love with the way I look in them 🥹 but I might have to get tucking panties or some shit like that if I ever want to wear them outside my bedroom 🥲 I was worried medium might be too small but it’s just right and maybe even a little loose lol

Dreamt I got turned into a snail but I wasn't like the rest of y'all I was and doing what I could to evade capture. My spirit was still strong I was a badass mollusk

🎀 Dresspost #7 is up 🎀

Very glad that I finally found the time to do this, had a lot of fun with this one. I think at this point I'm gonna give up even trying to have these be vaguely regular occurrences since it seems like I just can't do them when I have schoolwork the same week, but when I have a nice open slot of time I love to throw them together.

car is fixed for reals this time

My cat is being chaotic again, running around, trying to stop me from getting work done. She's restless, but she finally settled down and is watching me type this. Unfortunately for her, I have to get up now. Sorry, Lenore

Put on my old grey sweatpants (only a few years old tbh) and

Can't really wear my old clothes anymore IG. estrogen is magic fr

Almost crying today realizing just how far I've already gone. Something happened two years ago that should have signaled me toward transitioning, but I got here eventually 🥹

Obligatory: Best decision of my life :niko-dance: