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How convenient that while I'm in my misanthropy arc there's jackoffs on this site showing blatant disregard for trans youth getting healthcare, despite me explaining it to them.

Genuinely fuck cis people. Humanity is my fucking problem. People, even fucking here, even after I explain it don't give a shit. Fuck them.

11 months on hrt and still no booba 😔 but i swear some of my hair loss has reversed

Hey, I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who commented on my recent losing-of-shit re: tiddy. I kinda just fucked off and disappeared for a handful of days, and I’m still kinda vibing my way through things, but I’m most likely gonna jump back on.

I think I’ve just got some lingering appearance brain worms where, like, every trans girl is cool and valid and pretty except me, who is clearly a stinky jackass and a poser and basically an ogre or at least some kind of minor sewer demon.

I just got fixed today!

Experimenting with moisturizer, each limb is getting a different treatment so I can compare.

I finally got my birth certificate updated after a decade and a half of transitioning. The envelope was wet, like it'd been dropped in a puddle. After all the bureaucratic bullshit, familial abandonment, homelessness, discriminatory firing and unemployment. IDK man

Enby intern at work calling me "man" "guy" "boy" today like it's a competition to unwittingly misgender me. And I couldn't correct them because it wasn't in private and I didn't want other people hearing.

Usually I don't mind getting referred to as a man at work because only a few people know otherwise. But the fact that:

• I've intentionally never referred to myself as a man with them
• I've had no pronouns in my email signature and no name tag at all for months
• we were having a conversation about a coworker who's recently come out as nonbinary and how the intern could just tell even beforehand
• earlier I'd made a point about how I've been a fan of the singular they when you didn't know a person's gender since elementary (true story, kid me was based)
• and, of course, they're nonbinary and should presumably know a thing or two about assumptions

Made it just very not good for me. I know it's not their fault and they almost certainly don't mean anything by it but still. I thought about it on the train ride home and then laid in bed and then did things to myself that would probably get this comment removed under the new rules.

I did call a friend which helped a little, she was quite supportive

the thing they don't tell you about taking control of your own life is that now you have to do a bunch of shit

I have come to report that I have thrifted new sweaters and am feeling cute as FUCK today wearing one of them

Used the last of my money to buy a can of cat food for a stray I found, shoved the can in my shirt to warm it up since I want it to not be too gelatinous. My boobs are finally handy

That gave me some hope that I can feel joy. I can be happy. Did some makeup (badly lol) today and that feeling of joy was there. I'll have to wipe it off soon, but oh my goodness, I see me in the mirror

Woke up in the middle of the night and cried for an hour and a half.

Can't believe this is all I have going for me in my life. Just this stupid fucking job. No school, no other job, no plans, no SO or even really friends. Hope that I can get to a blue state and find a job and move out and start actually living.

I finally got a library card

Getting gender euphoria from being dressed like a punk and walking out in the rain. I don't know why, I've always felt happier when the weather is kind of bad. Maybe it's the same reason I love blasting music, it gives me something else to focus on. Wondering if anyone else has a similar experience?

I got another compliment that acknowledged my trans-ness but like in positive way. I was attending my potential new work and someone introduced me to one of the other workers. They said something like "wow she's tall". And it's like I'm tall because I'm a trans woman, and it sometimes makes me feel bad, but here it felt really good, something about society and it's expectations etcs

Yeah I'm AMAB.

Assigned Mum At Beginning-of-my-transition-oh-my-god-girls-my-age-who-have-been-transitioning-longer-than-me-are-looking-for-maternal-advice

I think its kind of cute when I'm talking about my problems and stressors to cis people, and they very empatheticly tell me they understand (in a, "I've been through that" kinda way), and then slightly correct themselves that "except for being trans, obviously".

Underrated transitioning tip is have a hobby. There's so much down time after checking off certain things and simply waiting is misery fuel. Looking back over the last few years, it's the only thing that got me through some of the tougher days.

Tinder pisses me off. I asked this girl how she was and she responded 'good'. I then asked her what made her day so good, and then she replied with 'huh?'. Like it's not that hard to understand what I meant. She didn't say her 'day' was good, so maybe I shouldn't've said 'day' but still, it's not that hard to understand. So I responded with a question mark and whwn I looked back a couple hours later, she unmatched me. WTF

Update: the mao mao cosplay I bought months ago and wore just now is one of the best things I've ever purchased. Even though I had to adjust the cosplay cause it doesn't actually fit me properly.

Dressing up like a medieval Chinese woman is a great confidence booster. I'd even be willing to go outside cause I'm gorgeous! But I need to actually learn how to do makeup (beyond slapping on some nail polish and lipstick).

And of course, this thing is not designed for the negative temperatures of Europe.

Picked up some running shoes and uh, friends, your auntie shallot is out of shape

I keep FUCKING forgetting my support group meets, god that pisses me off. Not like I could have used it after this week

Current unhealthy fixation: uploading pictures I'm in to LLMs and asking how many women are in the photo

ChatGPT most consistently reads me as a woman. Gemini doesn't but I'm having trouble getting clean results because it makes you use a Google account to upload images

The age old question

bought some ~vegan~ hard peppermint candies, and they're oh so good

Brother apparently expressed my dislike of being called uncle to my parents and they've made an effort to be more careful with how they gender me!

TBF, I still haven't expressed how I want to be gendered (except not wanting to be called Uncle, but that was months before coming out), so sorta my fault they're not sure how I'd like to be addressed.

Thank you for the selfie tips. I will try to use them for nudes

My hardest fit is my knock off snuggie called "the comfy" it's a extra big hoodie basically and I love being in it when I go out

Lunch lady told me "oh it's unfair that you have better nails than me "

I know she gassing me up but I'll take it

sometimes work is just saying "I can't fix that problem, it's not related to what I do and everything even vaguely related on my end is correct" fourteen different ways in a row until your coworker stops asking "why haven't you fixed this problem yet"

We should get to have more than 2 sets of pronouns. I want like 5.

Trying on women's clothes makes me realise that I need to be smaller. Like I wish E would sap away your proportions. Even if I was thin, most of these clothes don't fit.

I feel like estrogen has done a ton to my body just in the past week. Like my hips feel noticeably different when I lay on my side

Venting about adhd

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