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Final Fantasy XI

Final Fantasy XI is the eleventh numbered installment in the… Okay, you know what it is, I’m just going to tell you about one of the storylines!

During the Wings of the Goddess expansion, adventurers will be sent back in time to experience the events of the Crystal War, a cataclysmic event that is the foundation for conflicts of the modern-day timeline. Should an adventurer choose to serve the Kingdom of San d’Oria, they will be immersed in the story of the Young Griffons—a group of children who would see themselves knights, many of whom grow into prominent characters later in life.

Among the Young Griffons, the player will find Bistillot, a shy boy who doesn’t like to be seen. With his penchant for engineering, shy demeanor, and lack of combat potential, Bistillot prefers to spend his time inside of an orcish war machine that he was able to repair to working condition.

He is often seen before he is heard, with his signature phrase, “HAAAALLOOOOOOOOO” being used to hail the adventurer. Through the course of the story, Bistillot finds his way, even contributing to the war effort with his engineering skills.

However, when another member of the Young Griffons is kidnapped and taken to the present day, the adventurer must return to the present day and reunite with the Young Griffons’ present selves! The adventurer’s first contact in the present day is Bistillot. When the adventurer hears the signature “HAAAALLOOOOOOO,” Bistillot approaches the player, but what the player sees is… a woman?? She introduces herself as Bostilette, a “friend of Bistillot.”

After the rescue mission, Bostilette comes clean. She is, of course, the very same Bistillot who was a little boy twenty years earlier. She explains that she was very sick as a baby, so her parents gave her a boy’s name so that she would be stronger and survive the illness. Once she overcame the illness, she was comfortable to reclaim her name and gender. Well, that closes the book on that story, except… I’ve decided that’s bullshit!

I have unilaterally decided that Bostilette is trans, the sickness she had was dysphoria, she stayed in the orcish war machine because she was an egg, and I hope you all agree!

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[-] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

dissociation/dysphoriaI don't understand what's happening. Things should not actually be this hard for me. I should be okay. But I don't feel okay. Its wrong. I feel disconnected. And then I'll be reminded of the wrongness. I'll speak, or feel my body, or hear "my" name. I feel like I'm in a dream. But this isn't a dream.

spoiler self harm, scars I have a very strong desire to sh. I have the accidental stuff from shaving, it hurts but I want more. There's always more. I'm somehow 13 days free from using something sharp. I can't sh. I don't want to keep getting more scars. I'm already upset about what I have. :::

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[-] Tomboymoder@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

How worried should I be about my gock setting off the airport security machine and TSA people being weird? doggirl-sweat

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[-] Yor@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago

got vegan bhan mi with my girlfriend and now we're playing mario kart 8 comfy-cool

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[-] Seryph@lemmygrad.ml 16 points 1 month ago

I've now been on HRT for exactly 1 year!

Honestly it still feels like it's very new, and everything this year has been and is going to continue to be hard, but I'm still very happy about this. Unfortunately I can't celebrate it at all today since I'm quite busy, but I put on one of my favourite outfits to at the very least feel very cute.

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[-] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago
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[-] ashinadash@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Sometimes you read a Whipping Girl quote and it's like

I think this is best captured by the psychological term "cognitive dissonance," which describes the mental tension and stress that occur in a person's mind when they find themselves holding two contradictory thoughts or views simultaneously - in this case, subconsciously seeing myself as female while consciously dealing with the fact that I was male.

and I understand what she's actually talking about, I can see through the bullshit fog, but fr this cisnormative bullshit is wearing on my mind.

This gender dissonance can manifest itself in a number of ways. Sometimes it felt like stress or anxiousness, which led to marathon battles with insomnia. Other times, it surfaced as jealousy or anger at other people who seemed to enjoy taking their gender for granted.

Indeed, how dare they... their genders...

[-] AcidSmiley@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago

Serano is a land of contrasts. There's really useful concepts she has come up with, given that she coined both transmisogyny and oppositional sexism as analytical terms, but at other times, it just shows that she comes from a truscummier time where a lot of cisnormative, transnegative and exorsexist views where anchored much deeper in trans communities than today. I think it was you who had a conversation about her views on NB people with somebody earlier today and the example provided really felt as if some nonbinary folks called her out on this stuff and she didn't take it very well.

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[-] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago

my therapist more or less kind of straight up told me that i should either ask that one girl i like if she likes me back or to stop assuming that every girl dislikes me because they haven't told me explicitly otherwise. i guess i should probably ask if she likes me back but i'm like 96% sure the answer is no here and I'd rather not make this week any worse on me

god this week has been so fucking awful i hate everything sadness-abysmal

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[-] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Say hello to the little fellows :3

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[-] Eco@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago

starting my new career as the person who plays mobile games for ads. please everyone be nice about my ability thank you :)

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[-] khizuo@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago

I have now met two other covid-cautious chinese trans communists. it's so funny. (and one covid-cautious chinese trans anarchist, but i think they probably would not want me to call them a communist.)

[-] Luna@hexbear.net 16 points 1 month ago

I added more emojis to the Catgirl emoji request post, with suggested emoji names and keywords! Hopefully they get accepted soon, so we have cats to match our puppies doggirl-happy

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[-] yewler@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

transphobic parents

Sometimes I have a hard time applying the word woman to myself, but every time I think of the word daughter it almost brings me to the verge of tears because I want that so bad and I'm probably never going to get it.

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[-] Luna@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Y'all can look at the previous mega, I was just having in gender thoughts, found a good name, and was wondering if and when my gender would change.

Well...Guess who's back

Back again

[Femme name redacted]'s back

Tell a friend

might be getting ahead of myself, but it seems like it could and maybe has happenedThesis: Binary

Antithesis: Non-Binary

Synthesis: Bigenderism

If you couldn't tell, I'm trying to make up for a shitty day at work. I wish I could say that wasn't literal.

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[-] GenderIsOpSec@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

Made some hummus but I was missing cayenne so I put some sriracha in there instead. Works very well marx-ok

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[-] Wmill@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

It's so easy to skim the mega looking for theory than to actually go to different comms tbh, speaking of which anyone got any recommends? I need something to listen to as I half exist today pls and thank you napstablook-chill

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[-] iridaniotter@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Yeah I'm genderfluid

in the sense that most of the time I'm a she/her, but sometimes I'm an it/its. And it can be quite frustrating because I'll want to be a woman for the day, but then the it/its thought patterns will become too strong if I try to fight it and it'll take over the brain's main thought patterns, turning me into an it/its. Also sometimes this happens as a result of negative emotional stimulus. My two genders also just low key have different personalities, although it's not major enough to preclude interacting with other people, but honestly my other gender is much worse at socializing so we usually just end up switching genders back to deal with it. Although that often causes headaches. Ah whatever, at least most of the time the other gender is just some other thoughts in my head that sometimes I have short conversations with.

Being genderfluid is stressful!

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[-] tamagotchicowboy@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

CW: Dysphoria

spoilerHad to go to the gynecologist recently because my dysphoria bits have been acting up, ordered more testing but there's not much I can do for the discomfort sounds like aside from baths. For the positive she mentioned yeeting some of the bits right away. Ideal world get rid of them all at once, when I see older people remove some out of necessity the surgery is totally draining and I lack good adult babysitters despite theoretically having like 4, I ran into that with top surgery recovery.

I saved up enough to get a rusty clank for winter and importantly found someone willing to sell me it, even when you have money people aren't so willing to part with their pos one step above scrap that barely runs and I wasted like 3 hrs at a dealer last week for them to throw the deal over a few hundred dollars. Anyway, today's clank drove two hours home and doesn't seem too bad, and I think aside from the rust I or relatives can repair the other things. I always worry about being snowed in and stranded at work, my current car is pretty low to the ground and I barely got around to fixing the heater core this summer, no fun driving in a freezing car when it's 15 below and you get stuck on side roads, especially since I'm a closer and if it snows past 5 or so those roads aren't getting cleared until morning. I'd like to celebrate 'yay new car' and a year or so of effort saving, but really it means whatever tiny bits of spare time I have are going to be playing mechanic and that's for the hope of a reasonable winter car. I have another k or so in reserve to do repairs since the price was a bit cheaper than expected.

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[-] yewler@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

I'm wearing one of my sweaters from the shopping trip out in public today 👀 feelin' gooooooood

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[-] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

I need to eat something today, I've had coffee so far, yeesh. Never made it a day without eating. Usually I have the opposite problem.

[-] LocalOaf@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

Finally get a chance to relax today, playing my vidya while I listen to my slop

tony-cheer isaac-pog yo they named a camo after orange book in da cawadoody!!

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[-] KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml 15 points 1 month ago

Got accidentally misgendered by my teacher, even though he only knows my deadname from my school accounts. Same story with a classmate a day before

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[-] KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml 15 points 1 month ago

dysphoria, anxietyDoes anybody else feel more dysphoric and like your AGAB when in social anxious situations?

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[-] GayTuckerCarlson@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

making out is fun, do it if you can

[-] Angel@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

Okay, gonna get your mom over in just a sec

doin-your-mom 100-com explosion

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[-] Tomboymoder@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

The clouds won’t let me see Lady Eire doggirl-gloom

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[-] Luna@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

Someone just asked for my pronouns! This is the first time someone outside of my family has, and I think he's cis too! To be fair, I'm not boymoding or anything like that...

I even said she/her! I didn't lie! I'm not going to use the neos IRL (at least for a while), and I'm kind of proud I could bring myself to answer with she/her. Feel like I'm making progress 😁

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[-] DeathToBritain@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago

got some vegan babybel. the wax is green ooo

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[-] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago
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[-] Angel@hexbear.net 15 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Update to this comment

I have been laying down some successful rizz

I'll keep it as vague as that. Saying more could entail... "violations" volcel-judge

Still no commitments, but I really hope she does come over sometime soon. I'll likely feel a degree of excitement previously never felt before when she does.

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