hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

Thallo (10/21 - 10/27)
GenderIsOpSec (10/28 - 11/3)
TheChemist (11/4 - 11/10)
oscardejarjayes* (11/11 - 11/17)
HelltakerHomosexual* (11/18 - 11/24)
GayTuckerCarlson* (11/25 - 12/1)
Luna* (12/2 - 12/8)
Eco* (12/9 - 12/15)

​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

I used to pressure my guy friends into wearing my dresses and then I would nearly die of envy after seeing them in my dress.

Can’t wait till I’m muscular and manly so I can wear dresses again.

Listening to a guy rattle off paragraphs about his favourite slop, nodding along and agreeing, and then right when he's done, dismissing the entire thing because the slop is misogynistic as fuck

The stupid "buzzkill feminist" thing was actually invented for me.

I'm graduating uni today

I volunteered for a task at work that requires me record myself.

I have to say, "This is MR. [Dead name]" at the beginning of each recording. Then I have to hear my voice when reviewing the recordings.

Is this self harm? It's probably self harm

"there is nothing indecent or improper in my dress or appearance; I am not accountable to mortals"

The Friend is definitely near the top of the list of "dope historical figures I'd want to go hang out with if I had a time machine"

pronouns requested in the gender survey have been added. ae/aer, thon/thons, pup/pups, ee/ees, and em/ems.

https://hexbear.net/post/3712030

Out of all the historical (like pre-20th century) transes I looked for years ago, PUF was easily the most based.

The PUF!

Fuck NPR I remember years ago they were doing a piece on the PUF and deadnamed and misgendered them constantly

they/theming transfems

I keep getting they/them'd by people who know I prefer she/her. And I mean honestly I vibe with they/them and might set them as secondary pronouns on this site. But it would be nice to be she/her'd at least once in a while, considering that's how I ask to be referred to as.

I get that I'm mostly masc presenting right now, but I really shouldn't have to earn the right to be she/her'd. It really feels like they're saying "it feels weird to call this man she, but I can compromise with a they so that he doesn't get on my case about it."

Even though I like they/them pronouns, it's starting to feel very tiring and invalidating considering the relative frequency.

I DON WANNA PLAY WIT LEGOS

I DON WANNA CLEAN MY ROOM

i call her my wife and she loves it. i call her my waifu one time...

My hair is the longest that it's ever been in my life, but I seem to be getting to a point where I'll need to purchase some better-fitting shower caps.

It's official. I have plans to go shopping for girl clothes with a friend once I get paid

god i love reporting comments on this website (for valid reasons, transgenderly). having a mod team that doesn't suck rules.

Really shook up the status quo tonight, came out to a long time friend. First time telling someone other then you all.

It went well, he is supportive and reminded me he's my friend. Asked what pronouns I'd want around other friends too, which I forgot to bring up.

I never like change, I am very fearful about this one, but it is actually going okay so far. Thank you to all the mega posters, I would not be where I am without you

One of my friends was like, yo, even if you're just enby, you're not cis and don't wanna be cis, you should post on the trans mega!

So, uh, hey all, how we doing? Gonna make a dal with canned pumpkin in it this weekend

the government should pay me for anything transition-related ie. hormones, clothes, haircuts, ffs

it's in the public interest that i'm as hot as possible

Readiing this thread, there's lots of sad queers who cant sleep

I am now obligated to point out it is a full moon

Solidarity

I love how many transgender people have a secret extra set of pronouns they divulge as you get to know them.

Are trans people genuinely this much cooler than cis people or did I just get unlucky with the cis people in my life and lucky with the trans people?

MFW i check out my ass in the mirror only to realize i've been wearing my panties inside out all day

Spotting trans mega posters outside the trans mega is the ultimate crossover event, such a rare and pleasant treat

I’ve been broke and unable to afford testosterone and it’s killing me. Been off of it for months now

tiddies hurting which means tiddies are growing, but owie

The Friend's theology was broadly similar to that of most Quakers. The Friend stressed free will, opposed slavery,

and supported sexual abstinence.

volcel Friend?

Being ace and hot is so strange.

come out at work on the 31st, telling everyone that my halloween costume is a woman

just keep doing it for the rest of my employment there

chat i think i found the best way to come out at work

I’m scared no matter how much HRT changes me, how much weight I lose, how good I get at fashion or makeup or hair care…BDD will forever have me only seeing a guy in the mirror.

coworker: you never respond to me

me: when have I ever ignored you?

coworker: yesterday I asked you three things and all you said was "I'm sleepy"

I don't even remember that

Going for my 4th laser session!

@UlyssesT@hexbear.net call the Drej laser to nuke my facial hair from orbit!

sometimes this site is exhausting tbh. why is it that people here love armchair moralizing about other peoples’ decisions that don’t affect them (this is about the “eating slop” thread but i see it elsewhere too) without maybe considering that disabled people exist under capitalism too. i almost want to report that thread for ableism tbh.

to backup my disability application my GP gave me a bunch of old correspondence between the psych hospital I was inpatient at for a while and him. some highlights:

medical transphobia

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my old head doctor from the hospital, now retired, repeatedly misgenders me in a letter from last year when we had already been working together for a year or so. fuck doctors!

my intake overview refers to me as "a female transgender". this one was just funny to me lol, very old school. obviously it is transphobic but it gave me a laugh. anyway just wild having hard personal evidence of the medical field being decades behind when it comes to dealing with us... I've thankfully got private option too, I'd say it's even worse here if you have to go public.

Today, I actually stopped and looked at my shadow instead of just avoiding it and didn't completely hate what I saw.
That's progress of a sort, I guess

My little sister fretted about turning 18, she thought she was gonna be too old. She wanted to look like a teenager forever, which... ugh I know she just was but personally when I was that age it was a relief to finally be an adult and get out from being told what to do all the time

Reminded me of the young twinks lamenting their twink death at 19 lol

Got called "lady" by a stranger at the grocery store. They don't know I'm actually a nasty gremlin

I love you all genuinely. I cherish reading about your lives—your hobbies, your concerns, and everything that matters to you. Please know how much you are appreciated.

Hate that it feels like you have to walk on eggshells around so many cis people. You never know who is gonna take it as a deep personal insult if you politely request them not to say certain things.

sad

spoiler Very very sad

Very very lonely

spoiler Want to talk so desperately

But cannot be vulnerable

spoiler People hurting hurts me

Im surrounded by hurt people

spoiler Im also a hurt person

I want to be taken care of

spoiler I want to take care of those im close to

I just want to be held

spoiler And told everything is ok.

Even if its just for a night, or even just a few minutes, I want to know that its ok.

spoiler I want to feel loved

I am loved

spoiler I just cant feel it.

I can never feel it.

spoiler I can love.

But no matter how much someone loves me, i can never feel it.

spoiler Im alienated from my self and my feelings of love.

Do i even love anymore?

spoiler or do i just chase ghosts?

I havent had friends last more than a year, maybe two.

spoiler Now im coming up on the time to leave again.

Everyone always leaves me

spoiler So i try to leave first.

I got close to them.

spoiler It was a mistake.

because now i dont want to leave.

spoiler but i have to.

its not safe to be close to people

spoiler its safest alone

but alone is lonely

spoiler i just cant find people who want to hear about my experience of life.

except i can

spoiler i just dont want to be close to them once they care about me

because it isnt safe anymore

spoiler i know its not real,

but everyone leaves

spoiler so i have to leave first.

That way i dont get hurt.

Goodnight

They're putting me on all the estrogen. 10 mg injected estradiol valerate.

In theory I am pansexual and polyamourous. In reality I am single as fuck because I dont know what flirting is

I'm trying to learn German but whenever i check a German news site, the entire front page is bombarded with "terror-group Hamas attacks peaceful Israeli citizens."

It's fucking excruciating.

health, weight, positivity

Getting closer to hitting 20 pounds lost! sitting at 18 as of today. Not too far off from being under 200

Been doing okay staying up on exercise and weight training. One day I will thirst trap hexbear. That is my goal

Goodnight, my fellow puppygirls and lovely ladies

anxiety/sobriety

Got an incredibly gay lil' idea for a Halloween costume that might be cute but I don't have any event to go wear it to and I'm agoraphobic and like all Halloween parties involve booze for adults and I'm holding on to the metaphorical wagon for dear life

You're all gay and based.